she is back

Awhile back I lost my joy to a girl for the first time, emotional
attachments cut like a umbilical cord, my smile turned upside. I
watched her walk away into a new day without me like a history book
that has no future

A past she didn't want to remember, I no longer contributed to the
share of  ink in her diary

People spoke of her being happy with another but me,it hurt to see him
take what had no value to him,while it lasted he enjoyed it but like
an erection it was short lived

Everytime the moon shined my cheeks became wet,my heart still
shattered from total abundance,I still believed she would be back like
the opposite of front

For a long time I felt like a woman, I wore make up verbally, always
saying I'm fine when nothing was,nobody understood me because dreams
led me to stand above reality, she's my dream girl how else was I
suppose to see her when she's not part my reality

Late hours of the night she listens to a Sade song while in spirit I
am by her side.   Like the fist letter of her name my joy is back. Today
I'm known as the joker,my smile stretches quicker than the legs of a
prostitute at church street, I am blessed. Truth be told, I'm on the
pursuit of happiness unlike Kid Cudi she's my destination made with a
heart of gold

once again I'm feeling ecstatic inside like the beginning of an orgasm
yet when the viagra dies out the joyfulness I feel because of her
return will still flow like Niagra falls,the key of my happiness is in
her bunch.