Loving You Hurts

I hated you, when you kept jumping into my dreams
I hated you, when you wore those ripped jeans
I hated you, when everywhere, you were all that I've seen
I hated you, when I believed I was your one and only queen

For years, you were all that I could write about
For years, I hated that you made me doubt
For years, one day you love me and the other not
For years, I wondered if I had made it all up
For years, we were never together so why breakup?

Lately, I know it's just a story in my head
Lately, when you look at her, I feel dead
Lately, I don't see our love's fire red
Lately, I feel that I mean nothing to you instead

Now I hate you when you smile at me 
Now I hate you when you bring me back to reality
Now I hate you because I know you never loved me
And I hate you from today until eternity

I hate you because life can't go on without you
I hate you because you make me blue
I hate you because you have no clue
But most of all, 
I hate you because I can't stop loving you