Welcome Visitor: Login to the siteJoin the site

Messed up.

Poetry By: numnums
Romance



Ever had that feeling where you don't know whether to give in to love? Well, this is about that.


Submitted:Jul 19, 2012    Reads: 94    Comments: 5    Likes: 4   


Messed up.

Why does my heart beat fast when he's with me?

Why do I feel empty when he isn't?

I try to hide it

But once the feeling's there,

Once it's noticed,

It becomes impossible to ignore.

.

My mind goes insane,

My heart seems to beat faster,

Suddenly I've become vulnerable.

I can't tell whether it's good or bad.

Heaven or hell.

Right or wrong.

.

I keep telling myself

"No, it's too risky,

I'll get hurt."

But I just can't push it away.

It keeps coming back

And slapping me out of reality.

.

Suddenly I'm in a different world,

Where nothing else makes sense,

Where nothing else matters

Except that one person.

Always on my mind;

No one else.

.

I don't want to have this feeling.

I hate it, detest it

But I know I can't hide it any longer.

Soon I'll just burst.

Then my heart,my mind,

Everything about me will change.

.

I still hate it,

Im still unsure,

Im still stubborn,

But maybe i should just let it out.

He's still waiting for me

So I should let the feeling escape my bricked up mind.

.

As long as i know the feeling's there

It'll just get bigger.

I'll crave it more each day

And it will get harder to hide it.

I already know how this is gonna end up

But i still dont want to accept it.

.

I've become so confused.

I hate it

But i still want it.

My mind is just messed up

And my head is always full of thoughts.

.

"Maybe it's time

to finally accept it"

"No, i wont.

I dont want to give in.

It's just gonna hurt me."

"Why is this so hard?"

.

Is love worth it?

Worth the heartbreak?

Worth the endless tears?

Worth the pain?

Whats wrong with me?

Why can't i think straight?

.

He confuses me

Into getting closer to him

So i wonder whether i should give in.

Then he smirks at me,

With that composed face of his

And suddenly i hate the feeling again.

.

Why does he confuse me?

Why does he like making me go insane?

Why do I secretly like it when he does?

Secretly, deep inside

I'm slowly giving way;

The wall around my heart is breaking down.

.

Im sick of all these conflicting thoughts;

I don't know what to think anymore.

I love him. I know it.

But I don't want to.

He just makes me

All messed up.

alt





4

| Email this story Email this Poetry | Add to reading list



Reviews

About | News | Contact | Your Account | TheNextBigWriter | Self Publishing | Advertise

© 2013 TheNextBigWriter, LLC. All Rights Reserved. Terms under which this service is provided to you. Privacy Policy.