Test of Faith

I wish I knew what you’re hiding right now So I can be relieved of doubtful thoughts Been tolerating for long, just don’t know how Holding it back could mean something better So tired of laughing when it’s not real Retreating to my thoughts to let it out Mustering strength to control how I feel I’d go past those borders for only you I curse myself to be blessed with this trait Of curiosity and doubt in my heart When unleashed kills love; replaces with hate And I can’t hold this in any longer Been filled with suspicion I’ve tried to hide Yet assured myself you had a reason Found ways to put you out of my mind To avoid selfishness from taking over Yet it isn’t about what I want for my own Rather, it’s about what makes you happy For feelings like these are easily torn By the claws of anger, torment and hurt Through all this, I won’t give up anymore Even though I’m beaten up and storm blown Cause although intense it is to the core I still love you , and will forevermore.