Clinging to him, my hands shook. My heart thudded against his chest, a tear slipped my eyes.
"Sweetie, if this isn't what you want, we don't have to do it." His eyes looked down at mine, concerned and frightened. I didn't want him to feel bad for me, this was something I needed to overcome, and with him it would be much easier.
"I'm sorry, I can tell I'm hurting you. I want to do this, I want to do it so bad it hurts, but at the same time I am scared. Of course I am going to be scared, this is my biggest fear." I glanced up at him smiled reassuringly and hugged him tighter then I ever had before. I clenched my eyes closed so hard it was giving me a headache.
"Ready?" The Italian man called to us.
"Yes." Seth and I said at the same time. I wanted to smile at him and tell him I loved him but I couldn't bring myself to open my mouth. I lifted my legs around Seth's waist and put my arms around his muscular back. I felt his legs bend and then jump backwards. I opened my eyes, we were flying so fast the air made my eyes water. The river below looked freezing and crisp, I wanted to dive into it but before I knew it we were flying back up. I looked at Seth, he was starring back at me.
"Is that it?" He laughed at my comment as we floted a meter above the water.
"Two second ago you were scared shitless and now you say 'is that it'?!" We both laughed as we detached ourselves and fell into the water.
The water hit me, shocking every muscle, every bone, hair, nerve. I felt like I might freeze I kicked as hard as I could as the surface of the river got closer. I shot my head out of the ice-cold water. "Seth?" I yelled, I hadn't expected the water to be this cold.
"I'm right here." He said only a few feet behind me. "Can we get out, its really cold." His lips were frosted with blue and he looked as though he was going to start shaking, I of course already was.
When we got back to the car we wrapped ourselves in a blanked and sat in the back seat hugging each other, still shaking from the water. I leaned up and kissed his lips, still slightly purple.
"Thank you." I whispered.
"For what?" He asked as his eyebrows bunched together.
"For doing this with me. I was so scared but I wanted to do it and having you there made this absolutely amazing." He smiled at me and kissed the top of my head.