Life goes on it doesn't slow down for secrets, drama, and love. Life is scary; people lie and betray you, and the one thing in life you need to remember those people in life who will always have your back. Life is measured in time, so whatever time you get live it to the fullest. My name is Austin Aves and this is my life.
It was a foggy afternoon; the black clouds hid the bright sun. I sit in my room as the cool air rushes in and brushes past my sensitive ears. All I do is listen to the frogs croaking, the crickets creaking, and lastly I just think. I think about life, my future, school, and especially love.
I go to Aron High School in Mika, Wisconsin. I am a sophomore still not upper class, but anything is better than a freshmen. It's a small town and not very well known. There are about ninety students my whole grade, there are about forty students who are popular, and sadly I'm not apart of that forty.
I'm the girl that all the popular girls pick on, smartest girl in my grade, not very pretty, funny in my own way that no one gets. I hide myself and am the quiet girl in the corner. It works because no one notices me. I have dirty blond hair with bangs that fall just so they cover a little part of my left eye. I have bright green eyes that seem as if they can pierce through a person's heart. I want to be a notices I want to be know and I want people to understand me.
But there is one person who does get my nerdy sense of humor and prettiness no one else sees, that's Mandy Colins. Mandy is my best friend, has been since we were four, new to school in kindergarten sitting next to each other eating peanut butter and bananas sandwiches at lunch. She is beautiful, yet subtle girl who hides when she could really shine. I don't know what I would do without her.
I have had a crush on Mandy's older brother, Seth. He is a junior, a year older, and year that was much needed. Seth used to be this dorky kid with lots of pimples and greasy hair that no one wanted to ask what was in it, not that I have any right saying he was unattractive when I'm like this. Then came the summer, he went back to school nice silky hair that swooped when he shook his head- like Justin Bieber- low manly voice, perfectly white and straight teeth, muscles that made even his loose white shirt look tight, and eyes that you could melt into. I have liked Seth for three years even through his awkward Goth phase. Sadly, he is now the school basketball teams captain, highest SAT and ACT scores in our school, and Lily Westerly's boyfriend.
Lily is the queen bee. Everyone whose anyone wants to be her, all the boys want her, but Seth got her, more like she attached her self to him. Ever since Seth's, new form she had been all over him, anywhere he was, she was. I don't know maybe Seth wanted to be popular, but that doesn't sound like him. So now there in love and happiest couple ever, according to Facebook. Lily is the top dog in Aron High School, captain of cheerleading, on prom committee, and a princess in Mika.
Tomorrow is the first day of school and Mandy promised to sleep over tonight so she can do my makeup tomorrow morning, she is a natural born cosmetics worker. She can make nothing into everything in thirty minutes. I'm hoping she can help with me.
Last night was like any other of me and Mandy's sleepovers, we talk boys, gossip, and eat junk food. It's hard not to tell Mandy I like Seth, but its better if it's a secret. It's the first day of school and I need to come in with my chin held high and looking hot as hell.
It's the morning of the first day of school, Mandy is plucking eyebrows, putting mascara and eyeliner on my eyes. I just think this is all for Seth, then its worth it. I can't decide what to where: the skinny red dress to show my curves or the yellow sundress to show my long legs? Hard decisions, but I choose the yellow sundress, the red one was to fancy. I straighten my hair until is so straight it could cut someone. I am ready to go. I got Luke, my brother freshmen in college, to drive me. YES!!
I get to school and get a few nice comments like "awww you look so cute," or "nice dress." My first class is AP Biology, I already know it's going to be my favorite class because Seth is in this class too. Maybe we can be lab partners, that would be amazing. As Mrs. Lancher is having us put our names on a piece of paper and into a hat to get lab partners, I can't help but notice the huge coffee stain on her white pants. I think its shaped as a butterfly, I don't know. Now she is picking names, Jamie Ferris is with Chelsea Smith, Lily's best friend. Then she calls a name that sounds familiar, Jake Landon, I remember we were in third grade together, he was the one boy who told me I was pretty. Then another name was called to be his partner. Oh my god, it was me.
I am in a state of shock, disappointment, and happiness, I don't know why, but having him as a partner made me feel happy and secure. All of the sudden he is sitting next to me with a hand held out. "Hey I'm Jake. We were in third grade together, I think."
"Yeah," I say. That's all I can say. I am looking at him, analyzing his features. He is wearing a white collared shirt tucked into his dark blue Levis His arms were bigger than I remember, well it was third grade. His chest is flat against his crisp shirt. Then I realize I am staring straight at his stomach. I look up to see his tanned face, smirking at me like I was a little girl again. His eyes stared right through me and into my soul, and lastly his black hair short in the back and then pointed in the front.
"Is something wrong? You look like you just saw a ghost," he says in a concerned voice.
"No. I just felt a little sick. Um yeah we were in third grade together," I manage to squeak out.
"It is nice to see you."
"So how have you been, still able to beat all the boys at a race?"
"Yes, my brothers Luke and Jonah made me very competitive."
"I like that."
I don't know what to say to this, so luckily the bells rings, and I sprint out of class like it's going to explode any second.
I am walking so fast I don't see Seth and bump into him almost knocking him over, and at that moment I don't care about anything else.
"Hey you," he says in his deep voice.
"Hey back," I say. Wow that's all I can say.
"You look great."
"Thanks, but you should probably being tell Lily this not me."
"Lily doesn't decide who I think is pretty."
"Oh" I am about to jump up and down, when Mandy runs up to me and Seth screaming saying something about Mr. Henry our art teacher saying that he got her a job at the mall down the streets cosmetic shop. I barely hear her, when Jake runs up to me and tells me I forgot my homework and gives me a wink before walking away. By that time Seth is gone and Mandy is asking questions about what was that about.
The rest of the day went really slow. When I got home, my little sister Jess is asking me how my day was. I ignore her and go upstairs to do my homework. I do my homework with ease and sit, thinking about what happened earlier today. Was Seth saying he thought I was pretty in more than friendly way? And what's was up Jake? Was he flirting?
That night Mandy calls and ask a bunch of questions like: what were you and Seth talking about? Are you two crushing on each other? Why was Jake Landon winking at you? What is the deal with you guys?
"Mandy! Seth and I were talking about the biology homework," I lie.
"Okay then, that answers one question. Now why the heck was Jake winking at you in a very flirty way?" Luckily she doesn't catch my lie.
"I don't know. Maybe he thought I liked him when I was staring at him."
"You stared at him?"
Then I explained what happened that morning in biology. With full description of how I stared at him and thought about his flat stomach, amazing hair, and deep eyes.
The next morning in biology was…hard. I tried my best to look away from his hot features, but it was hard, so I just looked away. He tried to make conversation, but I just avoided him best I could, without being to rude of course.
I avoided Seth too. I hadn't talked to him since we had a flirty little conversation the first day of school, it's been two weeks. Maybe I should just ask him what he meant when he said I was pretty. Did he mean as in a little sister way or a way that meant he thought I was hot? Ugh so many meanings of the word pretty.
Mandy asked me to come to her house for dinner tonight, I didn't hesitate to say yes. A home cooked meal by Mrs. Colins and the perfect time to talk to Seth, score! I didn't know what I was going to say to Seth, but I needed to talk to him.
As Mandy and I walked into her house I already smelt Mrs. Colins amazing spaghetti sauce. I immediately looked for Seth, though I couldn't seem to find him. Then he walked down the stairs in light blue jeans and a dark blue V- neck that made his eyes pop out. Dinner was pretty boring for Mandy's family, usually her little brother Kyle, would say something inappropriate, his mom would yell, and they would get into a deep conversation about how that was not appropriate. That reminds me when Kyle said that I was super hot and loved me. Then Mrs. Colins lectured him about how love is precious and is meant for someone special and your age. Then Kyle was saying that Mr. Colins was four years older than her. After that Mr. and Mrs. Colins had a chat about there love, best dinner ever! I was chuckling to my self when I hear Mandy's voice calling my name.
"Austin, did Seth tell you his depressing news?" She was obviously trying to make him mad.
"No, what?" I say actually curious.
"Lily broke up with me," he mumbles with a look of shame on his pale face.
"Oh, I'm sorry," I pull off the face of sorrow and surprise, when I'm really extremely happy.
"Whatever, I like someone else," instead of a face of shame he looks almost happy. The weirdest thing was he was staring right at me when he said this.
Dinner was over by then, I go home and go straight up stairs and finally smile that wide smile I wanted to do when Seth said he and Lily broke up.
The next morning my first class is biology, I was so excited to see Seth. I walked into biology and I see Seth, more like Seth sees me. The only thing keeping me from walking up to Seth and telling him how much I like him is Jake, of course. I had a strange feeling of guilt, I don't know why, but it was eating me up inside. I decided to avoid him the rest of class.
I woke up the next day determined to get that one simple question out of Seth. So I did what all girls would do in this situation, when your crush is your best friends brother. I went to SeventeenMagazine.com and looked for help. I came up with, be calm and relaxed, don't over play it. I also looked for what to wear help. Fortunately, I had what they said would be the perfect outfit. I thought I looked descent so I went to school.
Well, I guess I was right. Everyone, even people I didn't know said I looked amazing. But there is only one person I want to impress, that's Seth. As I walked into biology I walked by him nonchalantly, accidently bumping into him. He spun around and said, "Holey crap, you look gorgeous," he sounded shaky.
"Thanks," I said very calmly.
"Whose this for," pointing to my outfit.
"You," I said it before I could take it back. My heart was beating out of my chest, and my cheeks were on fire I was so embarrassed.
"Really? Because I like you a lot, and I wanted to know if you want to go out sometime?" I was shocked, but happy. I felt like the whole world was perfect.
"I would love that," I tried to say relaxed, but I couldn't I was so happy.
When I turned around I saw Jake looking directly at me. His eyes locked on mine and before I could say anything he left. I tried to say something, but the words couldn't escape my mouth.
From then on I didn't hear anything from Jake. He switched lab partners, I'm guessing he couldn't stand to see me with someone else. The worst part was that I missed him.
My first date with Seth was tonight and I still haven't told Mandy about Seth and I. I don't want to lose Mandy for being mad at me, but I don't want to lose Seth either. But its time for me to tell her, she's my best friend and I can't keep this from her.
As I pull up to her house and knock on the door Mandy's mom answers the door. She looks a little surprised, but it soon fades.
"Hey darling, are you here for Mandy?"
"No, actually I'm here for Seth."
"Seth? Oh, are you two and item now?"
"Yea," I can see the look of disappointment on her face.
Right then and there Mandy walks down the stairs at the same time Seth walks to the front door.
"Hey girl. I didn't know we were hanging out tonight?" I already feel guilty.
"Actually she's here for me sis," Seth chimes in. That just made it ten times worse.
"What…What the hell? You're dating my brother? What kind of friend dates their brother!?" I feel so guilty, I had liked her brother for three years, and I had so many chances to tell her and I didn't. She is right what kind of friend am I?
"Mandy, let me explain - " I said my throat closing up and my eyes watering.
"You guys are literally the worst couple I seen ever," I have never felt so sorry, then so mad in seconds. How could she call us a bad couple, we are a good couple. Even though I had did something terrible I never thought she would get this mad.
"I like him. He likes me. That's, that and if you don't like it then whatever. Come on Seth lets go." I couldn't put the way her face looked in words, and if I had to really try it would be, stunned.
After that intense conversation, I walked to Seth's car and slammed the door behind me. Closing the door on my best friend, closing the door on our friendship, closing the door on part of my life. Seth walked out right behind me, probably just as shocked as Mandy was. Seth and I didn't talk the entire ride to the restaurant. When we finally reached it he looked at me.
"Austin if you want to go back and talk to Mandy that's fine," he said this very seriously, which was very sweet.
"No, this is our date." I said, still furious at Mandy.
When we got into the restaurant he led me to a small table in the back. I had never been to this restaurant, but I decided that I really liked it.
"You look gorgeous," said Seth.
"So tell me your story."
"What do you mean?"
"I mean who are you Austin Aves?"
"I am Austin. I love oatmeal raisin cookies. I like to work out with my friends on weekends. I like you. I hate guys who pretend they are something they are not - "
"Whoa whoa, wait, what was that?"
"I like you," I said this slowly and feeling my dignity disintegrate.
"I like you too."
The rest of the date went perfect. As we started to leave his big arms wrapped around my side. I felt so perfect at that moment I didn't want to be anywhere else. When we got to my house he walked me to the door. For several moments we just stared at each other, and finally he made his move. He slowly leaned in and softly kissed my lips.
The next six weeks went extremely slow. In those six weeks, Mandy and I still hadn't worked things out, and I hadn't talked to Jake. I think I kind of miss him. Seth and I are a couple, but even though I have always wanted this I don't think that it is right. Anyway, I am going to my first prom, with Seth of course. I heard that Mandy is going to prom with Lucas, I didn't even know she liked him. I miss her, but don't know how to apologize to her.
Prom is just around the corner, I picked my dress, and I am ready to go. I always imagined Mandy and I getting ready, talking all night about how excited we were. All I ever wanted was to go to prom. When I was younger I used to waltz around the living room on my fathers feet and act like I'm at the prom. I used to dress up and everything.
Prom is in three weeks, Seth and I are so happy. Our relationship is solid no lying, no fighting, it is a dream relationship.
Tonight is the prom and I am so excited. Seth, Tom, one of Seth's friend, his date, and I rented a limo. Mandy and Lucas are forced to go with us because of Mandy's mom.
"Hey baby, you ready?" Seth says, standing at my door in a tux looking at me like I was the only girl in the world.
"Yes, yes I am and someone looks very handsome."
"You look pretty too," Seth coughs, but not saying it to me, saying it to Mandy standing behind me. Her dress was beautiful, and Seth was right she did look beautiful. Her hair was pulled to the side holding all her perfect beach waves. Her dress was aquamarine a very pretty color on her.
"Thanks," that was the first word I had heard from Mandy in three weeks.
Thank god for Lucas, he walked right in after that one word from Mandy. He looked into her eyes and gave her a hug. Mandy smiled, not that fake smile she usually does, a real smile, a real and in love smile. Mandy loved Lucas, and I couldn't even shriek with my best friend or ex best friend now.
Next thing I know we are at the prom. The prom is at Hilton Hotel, it is cute and romantic, yet the dance floor is quite small. The limo ride was awkward and silent. I missed Mandy and getting to see her genuinely happy was enough for me. Seth pulls me to his side, knocking me out of my dreams.
"Lets dance!" He says.
"I'm not much of a dancer," I whisper.
"Come on lets go!"
Maybe I'm not as bad as I thought, everyone crowds around me to see my mad jerkin skills. As I start to release my skills a slow song comes on. I don't know the name, but it defiantly is slow. Seth pulls me in and grabs my hand, slowly swaying back and forth. But before I knew it a familiar face steps in the middle.
"Could I have this dance?" Jake says steadily, facing Seth. Seth looks at me, like he is asking and making sure I'm okay with it.
"Sure," I say managing to stay on my feet.
Jake spins me around to get a little farther away from Seth.
"I haven't seen you around. Where have you been?" I say this completely seriously.
"Jake I know you have been ignoring me-," I try to say more, but Jake cuts me off when he puts his finger to my lips.
"Stop talking, just listen. I know your with Seth, but he isn't right for you. He doesn't look at you the way I do, he doesn't cherish every second he has with you, he doesn't love you like I do."
"Jake, I don't know what to say." I can't understand why, but a huge part of me wants to say I love him too.
"I do," Seth says wrapping his arm around my waist.
"I say, stay away from my girlfriend or else.'
"Why don't you treat her right." Jake says in a threatening tone.
Right then and there Seth steps forward inches away from Jake and takes a right swing at him. Jake dodges the first swing and then punches back, this time Jake hits Seth square in the jaw. He hit him so hard I thought Seth broke his jaw. They kept fighting for five more minutes, blood dripping from both of their mouths. Two guys finally pulled them off each other. I don't know who looked more beat up Seth or Jake.
"The only reason I'm dating her is because she's desperate and I knew she would date me. I was mad that Lily broke up with me, so I just dated her so I didn't look like a loser," Seth screamed, spitting blood onto the ground.
"You jerk! Lily hates me, why would you try and make her jealous with me. You tool!" I shout feeling like I didn't have enough voice to exclaim my anger.
"You were too easy, I didn't even half to try," he says like he is proud of himself.
Then the fighting stops, all is silent on the small dance floor. Jake glares at Seth blood falling from his nose. Right then and there I walk away, hoping that if I walk far enough I will walk right back into my old life, where Mandy was my best friend, things like this don't happen to me, where I didn't even have to think about boys. Tears fell from my eyes, as I heard a worried voice in the distance.
"Austin! Austin! Stop!" I hear Mandy's voice screaming at me from the doorway of the Mystic Aquarium.
"What do you care? You hate me," I say, my voice cracking.
"Just because we had one fight does not mean I hate you. You have been my best friend since we were little kids, my brother is a tool, he doesn't deserve you, and he will never deserve you. I will always be your best friend, no matter what happens we stay together, deal?" I can barely believe my eyes that Mandy is apologizing to me, I was the one that was a terrible friend.
"Mandy you shouldn't be sorry, I am sorry. I was so stupid going after your brother, and especially for not telling you I liked him." At that instant we both have the same thought.
"I love you!" We both scream, in sync. I pull Mandy in for a hug. I am ecstatic to have my best friend back.
"You should go see Jake, I have been talking to him in school all year and he is crazy about you." Mandy says sneaking in a smirk.
"Really? I don't know, after this he should hate me."
"Well trust me he doesn't."
In a little bit Mandy and I head inside to see what's going on. Seems like no one even remembers the fight, everyone is dancing, and having a good time. I spot Jake in the crowd he is holding a ice pack to his face and tons of napkins to his nose. I don't see Seth, but I never want to see him again. I walk over to Jake hoping he will accept my apology.
"Hey, how are you feeling?" Instantly his body straightens up and he tries to put on a tough face, it doesn't work so well.
"I have been better, but I needed to stand up for what was right. Austin I'm sorry if I ruined your night, but he didn't respect you, didn't appreciate you, and he doesn't deserve you. I don't either, but -," I cut him off, putting my finger to his lips this time.
"Jake, no one has ever stood up for me like that. I loved it, I was too blinded by the happiness that someone actually liked me to see that he was not good enough for me. Thank you. Thank you for saving me, you saw right through his act, and saw right through me. You overlooked my flaws, and saw my true self. I'm sorry I ignored you, I didn't know how to deal with my feelings for you. I like you, I truly do, but I felt that if I went for you, you would push me away."
"Austin, I could never push you away," by that time his nose was done bleeding and he had pulled me onto his lap and into his arms. "I love you. I have always loved you, from the moment we met in third grade, in Mrs. Jacksin's small room. I remember the day we first met, you were wearing a bright orange sundress, and a pink headband. I have loved every little thing you do, the way you cringe when you see a helpless animal, the way you try and help anything or anyone, the way you flare your nostrils when your mad, or how you hate horror movies and cry at every romantic one, you twist your hair when trying to be cute, and the way your cheeks turn bright red when your embarrassed. Those are the little things I love, and to me you are the prettiest, funniest, best girl I have every seen, noticed, or met, in my entire life. I love you, Austin Aves." I feel the tears rush to my eyes, I try to hold them back. I am so surprised and shocked I am speechless.
"I - I love you too. I never thought that the cute little boy I used to have the biggest crush on would ever love me, the way I loved him." Right then and there I go for it. I lean in and kiss him. He doesn't expect it, but then he kisses me back. It is not the feeling I got with Seth, when I kissed Seth it felt forced or wrong. But now it feels perfect and so very right, like I found what I was looking for, even though I never knew I was looking.
Joy. Joy is how I feel. The word to describe my feelings right now is joy, joy that I love a boy, joy that he loves me back, joy that when I wake up every morning I know I have two people to get me through the day. Mandy and Jake.
School ended in late May. I spent the last few weeks of school studying, spending time with Jake, gossiping with Mandy, and I actually found room to spend time with my family.
Today is beach day. Every Tuesday Mandy, Lucas, Jake, and I go to the beach then stop at DQ on the way home. I love Tuesdays because the beach is so fun and Jake is usually really sweet at the beach, not to mention everywhere else too!
"Babe, do you want to go swimming?" Jake says looking down at me as I lay on my towel trying to get a tan that I will never have.
"Are you sure because you look like you could use a dip?" Jake lifts me up on his shoulder trying to carry me to the water. I kick and scream until he lets me down into the water. I splash him and run up to him kiss him softly on the lips and run out of the water. Lucas did the same to Mandy, but Mandy actually stayed in. But the best part about being with Jake is that he didn't stay in the water, he got up and came to lay with me. I felt his big arms wrap around me, like a protective coat. I liked that feeling.
"I love you," I whisper in his ear.
"I love you too. Forever and always." I had never heard him say that, but I knew he meant it.
"Forever and always," I say to myself.
I guess you could say my life is pretty good, but that would be a lie. My life isn't just good, it is amazing.