The ups & downs of me leading too- me! And me! Forever and him and him for ever!

THE UPs & DoWNs of ME! Leading Too " ME and ME! Forever !!! The leading to me and me forever is what more is what more than only. Okay so iv given the conclusion Away, but if you can get reading there's ' Lots - Lots more to the actuall story, or shall I say Never ending Story As no matter what there seems to be no end to this story is Love/ does true Love ever vanish, WHY ? Been in Love is so desirable to imagine, But there's so much " Hurt and Pain " that accompanys Love. I pearsonally think the word it's self is to strong if meant, and to weak if its used and abused , just by the Meaning its self should never be meant exept if its meant . As in true Love ! To be able to die for one another If it came to being constantly pulled apart through interfering people , who haven't or couldn't have been in Love themselves , only then would they realise the cruelty of trying to pull two Lovers apart , jealously can Also play a factor from either the boys or Bitches- no offence to those wanny be Bitches, but I'm of the female Status myself and self admitting we always tend to have our break UPS over the men in or out of our lives , sometimes boyfriends make better friends than girl friends : That's only if you take the boy factor out iE Friend and totally and utterly platonic , were a well match if there's no strings attached , so neither party feels Trapped , anyway to cut a story short ( as the saying goes ) which I'm afraid is impossible for me as once I Start I can't seem to stop and I'm not even expecting anybody ever reading this or wanting to , but still all The same it's my way of realising how I feel and think from a lot of previous and present experiences , but I always tend to jump from one subject to another , sometimes loosing the plot to where I'm even at ,so any Wishful readers who mat one day come across this mishap, supposed to put Two and Two together not unless They have a Lor or Lor of patience to be able to join a worded jigsaw into its place. Going back to the original topic on Love , my experience s in this department was as pleasurable as it was Miserable , in fact some times I think Love in its self is a curse rather than a blessing as if you don't Love You can't be hurt , and somebody you Love can't hurt you even at the slightest thing is enough to drive a Pearson Insane, as to begin with Love should never be one sided it should come and be received by both ends with trust in Each other to be able each other breathing space with out accusations through lack of trust from both sides . The deceit in Love it's self is the killer, as even the thought of your lover being with or wanting any one else Is enough to make one go of the rails , because if you've given that Pearson a hundred percent and he throws you Aside like a reject or he could play you along pretending to be in Love just to suit his needs to whenever he may Need them , this is an insult to the word Love in its self , marriage is supposed to be " till death dous part " or is That me just being old fashioned again, excuse me if I'm wrong but that's what iv always believed and to certain Extent STIL do , as they say one never forgets thou first Love ? If that's the case then why do so many men and Women ( dont want to sound like a male chovinist ) but being fair some women play a role in this also, have affairs Yes! That secret world that makes it more pleasurable because its supposed to be a secret ? Surely your first love is Your partner or aught to be , as why marry in the first place if you know your going to stray , I know and fully understand sometimes it just happens and can't be helped , but in this case one should tell their partners before the delaying process Of being found out , anyhow as iv already stated its the deceiving that hurts more than the affair , expecially if there's STIL Been sex involved in either one or both previous relationships , it's the most humiliating circumstances to be in expecially If your the one who choose to sacrifice your Love for one partner only , as much as yous men would like to I'm sorry but Yous can't have it both ways , it's either " ALL Or NOTHING " as Loves a thing that can just not be shared....