A/N: Hey guys? I've been listening to this song but I now only came to realize how romantic and sad it is. Thus, I find myself very inspired to do a short story. I recommend you to listen to this song first before reading "Not Over You by: Gavin DeGraw." Hope you all like it.
I am Ronreb, 26 y/o and now a successful civil engineer. I'm heading back to my apartment just came out hoping to watch movie; I didn't finish it and left my friend Freddy for some reason. The movie is about best friends, something that makes my mind fly back to the past, 3 years ago.
"Ron, what do you think of my dress?" Carrie is swinging with her new red dress she just bought in her favourite boutique.
"You look crazy, as always." I smiled when she frowned, then laughed when she began to tickle me. "Okay! Okay! You look dazzling." Then she smiled. I love her smile, it always seem to bright up my day, to me, she's the most beautiful woman in the world whatever she wears and even if she doesn't wear those make-up.
"Thanks Ron, I have a date. In fact he's picking me up at 7 pm, I really need to be 'BEAU-TI-FUL!'" She was giggling and I can see that she's really glad with that sonofa! How I hate it when her eyes shines for other man. Why can't it just be me?
"Alright then, but don't be late. I might not be able to pick you up when that guy takes you into some places, hmmm, you know?" I turned my back heading for the door. My mood suddenly just fell, made me wanna leave her apartment as soon as possible! Or else, I won't stop myself to wrap her in my arms and never let her go.
"You're so pessimistic Ron!" He ran to me and grabbed my arms. "Where are you going huh? Having a date without telling me?" She gave me a firing eyes, I laughed out loud! I don't know if I should be mad when she kind of stops me from dating someone else WHEN SHE's the one dating any guy she wished to.
"Oh c'mon! It's up to me if I'd date a PRETTY SEXY girl." I grinned as she gave me that discouraging look and put her both hands on her waist. "Cas, I haven't sleep with a girl for a long time! For Pete's sake, people are starting to doubt if we REALLY ARE just friends and nothing more." I pretend to be serious, but really, deep-inside me, I'm wishing that what those people are thinking of us would just come to reality. I cleared my throat and waved my right hand to the air to emphasize my thoughts "It's not that I no longer want to be beside you, I just want to have some sort of fun with someone else aside from being your chaperone whenever you're dating guys who did nothing but leave you!" my voice raised with those last two words, I didn't intentionally do that, it just automatically came out of my mouth, and I knew it was too late to even think of catching those words and swallow it back in my mouth for her not to hear it. Tears are forming on her eyes and I could clearly see that she's hurt. My head seems like exploding, tiny needles are poking my heart making it so hard to breath. I reached her arms and wrapped them around my body. I hugged her so tight, I want to comfort her, but I will never say sorry for what I've said. I've been wanting to tell her that, thank God I finally did. I pat her back for she kept crying, and by the time I become aware she's fine, I let her go and stared her in the eyes. It took minutes before I had the courage to break the silence.
"I gotta go." She just nodded, didn't say a word so I just left.
After that incident, she didn't talk to me for 2 weeks, it felt like forever but I understood her. She was hurt and it was my fault, it was the first time that I caused her so much pain and I promised myself it will never happen again.
I was staring outside my window in my room, listening to songs, I am not really an emotional-type of person but that moment, I felt like I needed to drown myself to thinking and come up with some idea to enlighten myself a little bit.
Suddenly, two soft arms hugged me and I did not need to turn around to see the person who owns them. There's no other person aside from me, who keeps a key on my apartment but her.
"How are you?" was the first 3 words that came out from my mouth.
"Fine." Then she hugged me tighter. I knew she was lying. I know when she's okay, and I know when she's hiding something for me. I faced her, held her in her chin.
"Spill it out. I know you're not okay Cas, I know you so well for me not to track that there IS something wrong." I softly asked her to sit down with me on the bed, she sat on my lap. I know we looked like a romantic couple, but I only wanted to comfort her and nothing more. She burst into crying, tears pouring down her face and I was saddened. I knew something had happened.
"He has a girlfriend, and they are engaged! We were eating then in a restaurant, it was like a fairy-tale Ron." She catched her breath first before she continued. "Then a girl came up and trash talked to me, she called me a 'slut, bitch' for dating his boyfriend who already has a fiancé! I did not know that until this afternoon, and it hurts. I feel like... I feel like dumb. If only I could just turn invisible, I would!" her sob became louder. "All I wanted is to find true love, Ron. I thought he was the one! I don't deserve those words! I don't" I held her head and stuck it on my neck. My fist just closed, shaking, because of anger. I would kill that bastard if I'd have the opportunity and he was one lucky guy I wasn't there. Because even a fucking dog won't give its face to him after I mashed his not-so-handsome face on the floor! But I know it won't help if I'd show my emotions to Cassie.
"You're beautiful Cas, you know that. And he doesn't deserve you. They don't deserve you! You deserve someone better. Someone who would never think of hurting you, leaving you."
"Someone like you?" I was very much concentrated in soothing her and I didn't even notice when she said that.
"You don't have to share someone's heart with other woman because you could have a whole. You just have to open your eyes and see the best things of life." I was stunned! I was stunned when she said nothing and then kissed me.
It was the first time our lips met. And it was nothing but heaven. Her soft lips moving against mine, tongue exploring in sensation I was feeling so hot inside. And I know that in every minute, I could no longer stop myself from doing what I've been wanting to do to her, to make her feel how special she is, by making love to her and by then, there'd be no turning back.
"Make love to me, Ron." She whispered in my ear after long minutes of sharing a very special kiss. I gazed her in the eyes, making sure I heard the right words. That it didn't just slip from her mouth, that she won't regret everything that might happen between us. She nodded softly, in her eyes; I could see lust and burning desire, but above all, the passion. Without saying a word, I took all our clothes off our body; I caressed her, feel every inch of her beautiful body, whispered soothing and sweet thoughts to her ear. Kissed her in her most sensitive parts, sometimes making her moan and arch her body around. Cassie was virgin; she never slept with any other man. She is enticing but very shy and I knew I had to be completely gentle. And I did! I did as I finally combined our body into one. I could see her pain, tears pouring down her cheeks. I wanted to move fast and give her a hard thrust, but it just wasn't the right time and so I gave her some time to adjust without taking mine out of hers. And when I thought she's kind of comfortable with it, I started moving in and out, first was very gentle, then faster and faster. Cassie also started moving her belly. And that night, we made love in rhythm.
I am very close to my apartment and just about to walk up the stairs then in the side of my eyes, I saw someone very familiar. For a minute, I can't move. I cant't believe what my eyes are seeing. It's Cassie. But she's with someone. A very cute little boy on his stroller, the child is so adorable, I admit. Then after realizing whom his mom is. My fist closed, body's shaking with anger! I am so fucking mad about his dad! He surely has a wonderful time now having these 2 people in his life.
Cassie turns, her eyes fixed in mine. It's quite obvious she, also, can't believe I'm standing just yards away from her. I decided to make the first move; I casually walk towards her and draw smile on my lips to lessen the tension.
"Hi! Wow! What a huge surprise. How's everything Cas? It's been a long time." She's a little hesitant, but there's some voice saying in my head I really need to create a conversation. I also think it's the best time for me to clear something, cause we didn't have a closure, she just left me in my room, when I woke up, she's gone.
"Uhm, Hi Ron, 'long time no see.'" A sigh of relief, she smiles.
"Can I invite you in? Or maybe have some coffee?" a gave my best smile.
"Sure. But only for awhile okay? Someone's going to pick us up."
"Okay." I thought for a second, could it be her husband? We come to my apartment, I serve coffee for her. Cassie tells me all her experiences in the past from the time we separate ways. Sometimes she laughs, and I love that. I missed that. But most of the time, there's some sort of sorrow that builds in her eyes.
"Cassie, about what happened 3 years ago?" I leaned forward to her while she sits in the couch in from of me.
"I... I ahh..." then she cries. I don't understand why but I know it has something to do between us, with happened 3 years ago. "I'm sorry. I'm very, very sorry Ron!"
I moved to her seat. Hold her in her shoulders with my two hands. "What happened, Cas? Why did you leave? I don't understand. I thought you were starting to feel something for me. When I made love to you. I'm sure as hell after that night; I'd definitely give every bit of my heart to you. I would love you even greater, thousand times better than any other person ever did!"
"I left because I thought you were only sorry for what have been happening in my life. I never thought that - "
"You never thought that I already love you! If only you opened your eyes Cas! And see me! You'd feel that deep in my heart, there's no other woman but you!" Cassie hugs me and it caused me to let my tears that have been warning to fall down from my eyes.
"I cannot believe I'm hearing this from you Ron. I've been dreaming of this since the time I fell in love with you, when I discovered how wonderful your heart is. But I also knew that I could never tell you how much I love you, because I'm afraid that you'd leave me, and run away. I didn't want to ruin our friendship. It's one thing that makes me so genuinely happy. So to forget my feelings for you, I tried so hard to find love with some other men, but I failed, because my love for you is so strong. Whenever you comfort me, how I wished you were doing that because of love, and not just pity."
"I did, Cas, believe me! But now, it's too late." I look to the little boy not so far from us. He's enjoying himself, not minding what's happening around him. Cassie stands up and hold the baby in her arms.
"Ron, I want you to meet baby Ronnie... our son."
My eyes are popping, I can't believe it. I walk towards them and I managed to observe that the boy looks exactly just like me when I was about his age.
"I... I can't believe it." I get baby Ronnie from Cassie's arms.
"You better start believing, because whether you like it or not, we'll never leave your side." Cassie's smile has never been sweeter as this before.
"But who were you referring to when you said someone will pick you both?" I asked, I don't doubt that the boy is mine, because obviously, he is. I just want to make sure nobody owns Cassie now. And even if there is, I'll put up a goddamn fight just to take what's rightfully mine.
"It's my mom. When I left, she served as my shelter. She supported us when I did not know how to survive without you."
"Does she know about me?" I'm concerned I became so irresponsible.
"Yes! Of course. And I bet she'd be very glad we're finally together. Ahh, wait. Are we?"
I smiled and hugged her together with baby Ronnie in contentment that's filling my heart. My best friend, my true love is now here in my arms. And I know, for sure, I'll never let her go again. We'll share this love that - "Going to last, forever. Together honey, our love will last forever."
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