I think the only good point of losing my job was that I was able to take care of Charlie. Sometimes I would make a joke out of the situation, like
'This Time on Charlie and Erin...Erin takes care of her 4 year old child when she recently got laid off from the clueless father named Seth!'
It has been about 3 days since I lost my job, I have been talking to Henry, and there's no luck in employment.
Since I couldn't pay for the Nanny anymore, bringing Charlie everywhere would now be a regular thing for now. I hope not though.
I was done cooking porridge for Charlie and I, and the two of us gathered by the little table. Charlie grabbed his spoon and spoke
"Mama! I don't wanna eat porridge!" He frowned "We always eat porridge, I want ice cream!"
I could just see Seth in him. I have to admit, Charlie does not have much of me in him. He has his dark black hair, his point nose and even the frown.
I gave him a look "You know, ice cream will have the creepy crawlers sneak in your bed and eat your hair!" I gave him a spoonful of his food "Eat up baby"
He flustered and ate the spoonful and nodded. I giggled and looked down at my bowl.
I'm sorry Charlie.
I heard the doorbell ring, I stood up and told Charlie "Keep eating while I get that, kay?" and he nodded.
I opened the door, but I wish I didn't.
"Erin, you have got to be kidding me" I heard him mumble under his breath.
I think I could baffle at the situation but that wouldn't be right. Here I am, pushing the door like 4 days ago, against Seth.
"This is my place you know!" I said, I think I even heard myself hiss at him. I also didn't want him to see myself like this right now either, selfish of me to think of this right now huh? "And you can't threaten to fire me!"
He suddenly stopped pushing the door and just stood there, he slid his arm through the opening and that led the opening to widen. Having most of himself inside. I blushed as I saw him dressed in his casual attire, it reminded me of him in college.
"You know you are invading my privacy," I told him coldly, but I really didn't mean it. He chuckled a little and looked down at me, his voice wasn't harsh, it was... normal "Feisty lately?"
Why are you being all casual with me?
"You have no idea" I eyed him "Now go away!" I caught my eye on Charlie moving in the kitchen.
I saw him holding a knife in his hand.
"Charlie STOP!" I ran towards the kitchen and took the knife from. Charlie must have taken it from my napkin. I wanted to hit myself for leaving it there. I paced myself to him and checked if he was hurt first. He was completely fine and I stood up in front of him. Placing my hands on my hips.
"What are you doing young man!?" I scolded. He looked down crying and didn't answer "You are going to have a timeout!" I pointed to the corner. He trudged, sobbing to it.
I sighed "God..."
I turned around and saw Seth, arms crossed and eyed me with awe. "This is something else...." I heard him.
I knew I couldn't get him out now that he was in. I looked at Charlie sobbing and cleared my throat.
"Would you like to eat...?"
Charlie couldn't stop talking, and I couldn't get myself to look at Seth in the eye. Seth did listen to Charlie, but all his attention was rather on me. He was unexpectedly amazing with Charlie, and would smile at me and try to let me in the conversation about Charlies trains.
"Mommy sometimes cries when we play trains!" Charlie said out of the blue. I immediately closed his mouth before he could say anything else by wiping his mouth "Keep your face clean baby" I told him quietly.
I finished cleaning his face, but Seth suddenly wiped my lips with his napkin "Says you" He smirked and I felt my face get hot.
I grasped his wrist and put it down and looked away "Thank you..."
Seth turned to Charlie "And why is that?" I jumped by the question
"I don't know! Mommy says weird stuff too like 'This time on Charlie and Emma! Emma cares for Charl-"
I quickly took Charlie's plate and told him "It's late, brush your teeth and go to bed, okay bab-"
"But I wanna stay with him!" Charlie insisted
"Charlie, come on, lets go brush our teeth together-"
Charlie usually doesn't behave this way, maybe because Seth was here. But this was something that just broke my heart. He started sobbing
"I WANNA STAY WITH DADDY!!!"
I didn't say anything, I wanted to hold him and cry with him. I want to stay with Daddy too you know?
Seth patted his back "I'll come back again, listen to mommy okay?"
Charlie stopped sobbing and smiled "Okay!" He ran to the bathroom and soon got into bed. I tucked him in and closed the door behind me.
I felt my hands shaking and when I turned, I saw Seth washing the dishes.
"Please don't..." I said as I pushed him lightly away from the sink. He held my hand ageanst his chest where I layed it "Erin, it's okay" I heard his low voice tenderly and we didn't move. I finally looked up at him and I don't know what made us this crazy. Adults and this crazy.
It wasn't like last time though, this time I wasn't quite embarrassed. This time it was affectionate, not possessive. This time, I felt it was right.
When our lips parted he began to say something in a low tone "..I don't want to lo..."
"Wh.." I mumbled lazily, he suddenly started washing the dishes again "...Maybe after this..." He began "We'll talk..."
I really didn't know what he was going to say a few seconds ago, but it made me look forward to our talk.
I sat on the couch and waited for him.
(To be continued...)