Written by Desteny Nunez
I couldn't shake the feeling, had no urge to fight it. I
placed my hands on the edges of the cold kitchen counter while my
eyes pierced through the window to watch you drive away. It was
then, right then that i wanted to scream. I spent a decade too
long building all that was around me, but you just left it all
behind. I knocked the plates to the ground without picking them
up. I ran down the hall and i made sure not to be graceful along
the way. Dropped every photo and frame, even the vases. If they
meant nothing then they deserved to be broken. isn't that what
you did to me? I meant nothing so you broke me. I looked into the
mirror looking at the lines in my face's shadows. I cashed in my
looks on a risky bet, that you would love me forever.
I placed my anchor down so deep the ship sunk. I loved believing that beautiful things can't be broken so easily. I vowed and promised, wished and wanted. Just then, i realized i was a victim of a deal gone bad. The sucker, the joke, the dupe. I was worn down like a machine then replaced with the newer model. i couldn't help it, had no choice in the matter. I must have been mistaken when you said i love you. I must have been wrong to think that it was unconditional. That it would last past life and into death. That you would love me when i no longer made the heads in the room turn, when i'd become the one to look. Now i'm drowning myself in my own tears. Spring has come and gone and as i smash this mirror to pieces i know this rose has got to go with it. Well good bye then. I was mistaken to believe forever, naive to believe in something that would outlast everything. Your love was my soul. My heart was filled with the sands of time, look at it leak away on our floors.