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TERI MERI KAHANI

Short story By: uanme
Romance


tHIS STORY IS DEDICATED TO MY LOVE WHO IS NO MORE IN THIS WORLD


Submitted:May 18, 2010    Reads: 55,053    Comments: 6    Likes: 0   


HEART TOUCHING LOVE STORY

16 saal ki umra me sabhi ke jehen me hajaaro sawaal hote hai, par uska jawaab pana shayad kisi ke liye bhi asaan nahi hai. Aise hi kuch sawal soniya ke man me bhi the jiska jawaab dene waala koi nahi tha. Bin baap ke pali behan aur bahi ka daaman thame badi to ho gaye par koi lakshya nahi bana saki, apne bhatakte man ko kabu kar pana shayad uske liye mushkil tha. umra ke saath saath khud se aur jindgi se jude sawal bhi bade hote gaye. mai kaun hu ? mera wajud kya hai ? mujhe koi pyaar kiyo nahi karta ? aur uspe bhai,behan ka badalta ravaiya. kise apna gum bataye? kiske daman me chupke roye? apne man ki isi uthalputhal me usse ek badi galti ho gaye jise garwale bardasht nahi kar sake aur use apne se dur bhej diya.

Apne haalat aur naseeb se majboor wo kya karti? ab tak to sirf khud se pareshan thi ab apno se bhi gum mil gaye. na chahate hue bhi naye shahar me aa gaye, uske man me jindgi ki ummed aur aankho me sacche pyar ki aans dur se hi samajh aati thi.jaise band juba se aapko nihaarte hue puch rahi ho kya aap mujhe samajh sakte ho kya aap mujhe pyaar de sakte ho? aur wo kya kar sakti thi ? uska na to man khudke bas me tha aur na haalaat. pinjre me band maasum maina ki tarah ratdin udne ki aasha karti apni bojhil jindgi ko ji rahi thi.

Tabhi ek din kisi ne darwaje par dastak di jo chehra saamne aaya use dekh uski aankho me ajib si chamak ubhar aye aisa laga jaise ummed ki koi kiran jaag uthi. use wo jaanti to thi par kabhi mili nahi thi aaj pehli baar saamne dehkha.wo ladka kuch hi pal me waha se chala gaya par apni parchaye uski aankho me chod gaya.

Waqt gujarne laga maasum soniya jisne abi abhi jawani ki dehlij pe kadam rakha tha kud ko naye shahar me basane ki koshish karne lagi. Par purani yado ko bhul pana itna saral nahi hota, yu to aisa kuch nahi tha jise wo miss kare par apni ma ko yaad kar ushiki aankhe bhar aati thi, ek wahi to thi jo apne hato se khana kilya karti thi apne sine se laga ke sulaya karti thi. Par ab wo aasra bhi nahi raha. Didi aur jij se har tarah ka aish aur aaram mil raha tha. Par unhe jara bhi andaja nahi tha ki soniya ke man me kya chal raha hai. Darasal wo sawal hi kuch aise the jo kisi ko bhi vichlit kar de phir soniya to ek masum kali ki tarah thi . bachpan me jo kuch dekh dekhkar wo badi hui wo sab shayad itna aam nahi tha. Baki dusre baccho ki trarah uske ghar ka maahol normal nahi tha . sab kuch ajib sa tha.

Apni jindgi ki uljhano me ulajhti soniya jise talash thi kisi sahare ki . aise me wo chehara use apni or khich raha tha uske piche wajah bhi thi. Wajah uski apni didi jo raat din us insaan ki tarif ke pul bandha karti thi . wo uski didi aur jij ka close friend tha. Aur har mushkil waqt me usne didi aur jij ka saath diya tha. Jane anjane wo uski taraf aakrshit hone lagi uski baate use achi lagane lagi. Wo use sikhaya karta ki kaise apne akelepan se lada jata hai , wo khud bhi kai saalo se apne parivar se dur apni jindgi gujaar raha hai usne soniye ke dard ko samjaha aur use ladne ki prerna di.

Jis tarah dubte ko tinke ka sahara bahut hota hai usi tarah raj bhi soniya ka sahara ban gaya. Dono ek saath ghumne phirne lage. Soniya uska haath aise thame rehti jaise koi chota sa baccha, aur raj bhi use kisi bacchi ki tarah uska haath thame usko jindgi ke prati motivate karta tha. Is tarah waqt gujarte raha aur dono ko ek dusre ka saath accha lagne laga .

Soniya ko vishwas hone laga ki raj shayad use samajhata hai aur wo uske sawalo ke jawab de sakta hai, yahi soch kar soniya ne use apne sawal karne shuru kar diye. Raj jo use apni jimmedari samajhta tha wo sab kuch janta tha soniya ke bare me. wo janta tha ki ye ladki apne raaste se bhatk gaye hai aur isme iska koi dosh nahi hai jis waqt hamare ghar walo ko hamara saath dena chahiye hame jivan jina sikhana chahiye us waqt soniya ke ghar wale apna hi jivan jine me lage hue the. Is baat ko raj ne samjha aur soniya ko pura sahara dene ki koshish ki.

Raj ne kabhi sapne me bhi nahi socha tha ki ek 16 saal ki ladki use is tarah ke sawal karegi . Ek din soniya use puchti hai ki birds sex kaise karte hai? Raj ye sun kar chauk gaya par usne uska jawab usi tarah diya jis tarah ek teacher ko dena chahiye. Aur man me sochne laga ki is ladki ke man me kitni chanchalta hai, uski masumiya ka andaja usne ek sawal se hi laga liye. Ab soniya se use aur bhi humdardi hone lagi. Aur soniya ke sawal aur bhi stupid hone lage pehle birds phir animal aur ab human.

Raj aur soniya me karib 9 saal ka antar tha raj bhi apni jawani ke daur me tha aur soniya bhi itni choti nahi thi ki raj use najarandaj kar sake par ye shayad raj ke sanskar hi the jo use galat karne pe roke hue the . soniya use uksane me koi kasar nahi chodti wo har had paar kar jati par raj ne kabhi khud ko bekabu nahi hone diya aur uske har sawal ka jawab diya. Wo nahi jaanta tha ki in sawalo ke piche soniya ki masumaiyat hai ya koi trap. Wo to bus uski chanchalta ko dekhta aur uske sawal sunke man hi man muskurata tha.

Raj ke upar soniya ki jimmedari badne lagi thi, uske har kaam raj karne laga tha aur raj ko bhi soniye ke liye kaam karna pasand tha kiyo ki soniya use bahut respect karti thi .aur apni har taklif uske saath share karti thi. Raj use apne hatho se khana banakar khilaya karta tha jab wo roti to apne sine se lagakar uske aansu poncha karta tha. Aur kisi bacche ki tarah behla phusla kar wapas use hasa diya karta tha.

Dono me ek dusre ke prati lagao badne laga ek din bhi agar na mile to dono bechain ho jate soniya apni didi aur jij se chup chup ke raj se milne lagi aur raj bhi uska saath deta kiyo ki wo khud bhi uske saath emotionally attach ho gaya tha aur uske bina use bahut akela feel hota tha. Kai bar raj ko aisa mehsoos hua ki soniya use like karne lagi hai, balki soniya ki kuch baato se use yakeen ho gaya ki wo use pyaar karti hai par ikraar nahi kar pa rahi.

RAJ KE SHABDO ME

Bahut dino baad mera koi apna mujhse milne aya tha mera pyaara chota bhai jisme mai apna bachpan dundta hu jisse mujhe bahut ashaye hai , jo mai nahi ban paaya chahata hu ki wo ban jaye jo khushi mujhe nahi mili wo use mile jaye. Kuch dino ke liye hi sahi par uske aane se mera akelapan dur ho gaya , acche dost to saath me the hi par apne bhai ke aane se mera parivar pura ho gaya. Kuch din hum logo ne bahot masti ki pura shahar ghuma parties ki, khub dhamal kiya.

Aise hi ek raat soniya ke ghar pe hum party kar rahe the bahut der tak drinks chalti rahi achanak soniya ke didi aur jij apne kamre me chale gaye jaahir hai do newly married couple achanak kamre me kyo chale jate hai ? mai apne bhai ke saath baith kar drink kar raha tha soniya aur mera bhai baato me mast the aur mere dimaag me soniya ki chanchal aur chulbuli baate ghum rahi thi. Mai jaanta tha ki soniya mujhe chahti hai usne kai baar ishara bhi kiya tha par mai apni sharafat ke dayre se bahar nahi aa saka aur shayad wo thik bhi tha. kiyo ki mere dil me soiya ke liye sachha pyar tha mai uski life spoil nahi kar sakta tha mai samjhta tha ki wo nadani me aise sawaal karti hai par kai baar lagta bhi tha ki wajaha kuch aur bhi hai. Phir bhi maine kabhi uski or un nazro se nahi dekha, par us din na jane kyo uske wo sare ishare mere man me uthal puthal macha rahe the aur us pe sharab ka nasha aur ye vishwas ki mai soniya ke saath kuch bhi karu use bura nahi lagega , bus mujh se raha nahi gaya aur maine use bahane se balcony me bula liya uske aate he maine use baaho me le ke kiss kar diya pehle to wo thoda chauk gaye baad me usne bhi khud ko mere hawale kar diya ji bhar ke kiss karne ke baad bina kuch bole mai wapas kamre me aa gaya. Propose karne ka ye tarika thoda ajib tha par jab dono ye jaante ho ki humare bich kitna pyaar hai to shayad shabdo ki jarurat nahi padti. Uske baad soniya ke chahre pe khushi saaf dekhi ja sakti thi.

Agle din se maine soniya me ajib sa badlao mehsus kiya wo pehle se khus rehne lagi ab wo utni maayus nahi lagti thi jitna pehle thi. Mujhe samajh nahi aa raha tha maine thik kiya ya nahi , kyo ki mai jaanta tha mai us se shadi nahi kar sakta phir mai use kiyo jhote sapne dikhau kiyo jhuti aas dilau mai use kabhi bhi dukhi nahi dekh sakta tha uski hasi ke liye mai kuch bhi kar sakta tha aur shayad isi liye maine uske dil ki baat sun ke use propose kar diya par ab kya karu? wo to khush rehne lagi par meri mushkile badh gaye, mera soniya se lagao itna badh gaya tha ki mai sapne me bhi uske saath dhoka nahi kar sakta tha uski akho se nikala ek aansu mere dil ko chir daalta tha phir mai kaise use kahu ki mai tumse shadi nahi kar sakta, lekin isse pehle ki baat aage badh jaye aur wo apne future ke sunhere sapne bunne lage maine use saaf bol diya ki mai tumhara sirf dost ban ke reh sakta hu par shaadi nahi kar sakta ye sun kar wo thodi mayus ho gaye aur boli koi baat nahi mat karna mujhse shadi par jindgi bhar mere saath kabhi mat chodna , ek baar phir uska masumiyat se bhara jawab shayad kamsin umra isi ko kehte hai jab hum sirf aaj ke bare me sochte hai kal ki fikra nahi karte. Aisa hi kuch soniya ne bhi kiya aur ye jaante hue ki hamari shadi nahi ho sakti relation ko agey badhana chaha.

Waqt guzarta gaya aur hamara ek dusre ke bina rehana mushkil hota gaya , mere man me 24 ghante soniya aur uski baate ghumti rehti , uska hasna , uska ladna jhagadna phir gussa hoke baith jana phir mai use manata apne sine se lagata kiss karta aur wo phir has deti , wo mujhme aise simat jaati jaise mujh me sama gaye ho uski isi adat se mujhe mehsus hone laga ki wo mujhse kitna pyaar karti hai maine bhi kabhi kisi ladki ka sachaa pyaar nahi paya tha shayad isiliye mai bhi utna hi dewaana ho gaya tha.

Dhire dhire humare bich ki sare hade tutne lagi kai bar maine khud ko rok liya kiyo ki mere liya pyaar ka matlab sirf sex nahi hai wo to pyaar ka ek hissa hai jo do logo ki marji se ho jata hai. aur soniya itni kamsin thi ki mai uske saath khilwad nahi karna chahta tha. Kuwarapan ladki ka gehna hota hai mai usse wo kaise chin lu jo meri jaan hai maine hamesh use phoolo ki tarah chua hai phir kaise kisi jaanwar ki tarah us maasum ke kuwarepan ko tar tar kar du. Aisi kai baate mere man me chalti rehti, phir bhi hum dono hi ek dusre ko rok nahi paye aur ek din soniya ne apna kuwarapan kho diya ye pal har ladki ki life ka sabse yaadgar pal hota hai, pata nahi soniya ko iski kitni importance hai par mujhe aaj bhi wo pal yaad hai.

Us din ke baad soniya se mera lagao aur bhi badh gaya hame jab bhi mauka milta hum wo sab karte jo hamara man karta aagey hamara future kya hoga ye sochana chod diya aur bus aaj ko jine lage. Hamare badhte meljol aur harkato se soniye ki didi aur jij ko shaq hone laga aur unhone hum pe nazar rakhna shuru kar diya. Kuch hi dino me soniya par paabandi lagne lagi use mujhse dur rehne ko kaha gaya mujhse milne se roka gaya, phir bhi wo mujhse milti rahi aur jab uski didi ko pata chalata to wo use fatkar lagati,isi wajah se wo apni didi aur jij se dur hone lagi , galat koi nahi tha agar koi galat tha to wo haalat the. Dhire dhire soniya ki parshani badhne lagi maine bahut koshish ki sab thik karne ki par jhut to jhut hai chahe kitna bhi chupao wo kabhi nahi chupta.

Jitna mera soniya se dur rehna mushkil tha usse kahi jyada uska mujhse dur rehna kathin ho gaya aur wo is mansik dabao ko sehan nahi kar saki. Ek din usne mujhe phone kiya aur ajib si baate karne lagi maine pucha kya hua to rone lagi aur boli ki aaj ke baad mai kisi ko taklif nahi dungi, mujhe ye samjhne me bilkul bhi der nahi lagi ki wo kuch galat step lene ja rahi hai maine use bahut pyaar se samjhaya aur vishwas dilaya ki mai saab thik kar dunga par wo boli ki ab bahot der ho chuki hai , mere sar pe jaise aasman gir giya mujhe samajh nahi aa raha tha ki mai kya karu chahe kitni bhi koshish kar lu 2 ghante se pehle mai uske paas nahi pahuch sakta tha aisa lag raha tha jaise koi bahut badi anhone ho jayegi, maine turant soniya ki didi ko phone kiya aur kaha ki turant ghar wapas jao aur mai bhi ghar ki aur nikal pada, raste me phir soniya ki didi ka phone aya unhone pucha tum kaha ho jaldi ghar aa jao ye sun kar mere dil ki dhadkan aur badh gaye soniya ko kho dene ke naam se hi mai adhmara ho gaya tha.

Ghar pahucha to dekha soniya ke didi aur jij bahar baithe the maine jate hi pucha ki kya hua soniya kaha hai wo bole andar jake khud dekh lo mai darta hua andar gaya to dekha wo bed pe ek karwat pe meri taraf pith kiye leti hai mai jaise hi aage bada meri sanse atak gaye uske dono haath khun se lathpath the chehre ka rang uda hua tha maine turant uske jij ko awaj di aur uspe chilane laga ki ise hospital kyo nahi le gaya wo bola ki tera wait kar raha tha. maine use utha ke bed pe bithaya aur bahut pyaar se pucha beta ye kya kiya ? kiyo kiya wo sirf rote rahi maine uske aansu apne haato se poche aur uski didi se bola ki iska tshirt change kar do hospital le jana hai uski didi ne kaha mujhe nahi karna khud karlo, ye sun kar mai hairaan ho gaya par mujhe bhi apni soniya ke liye kisi chiz ki parwah nahi thi maine khud hi uska tshirt change kar diya aur hospital le gaya.

Kuch der baad jab ye samajh aaya ki soniya ab thik hai maine uska man divert karne ki koshish ki aur sabhi ko cheer up kiya soniya ko sula kar kuch der uske ghar pe baithne ke baad mai nikal raha tha niche pahuch kar jab window ki aur deka to wo khidki pe khade badi masumiyat se aankho me aansu liye apni dono bahe khole jakhmi haato se mujhe bula rahi thi mai uski roti hui aankhe pad sakta tha wo keh rahi thi mujhe chod ke mat jao maujhe apne sine se laga lo uski ye dasha dekh meri bhi aankhe nam ho gaye man kar raha tha bhag ke jau aur use apne dil me chupa lu par mai aisa kuch bhi nahi kar sakta tha sivaye apne naseeb ko kosne ke bas use kuch der dekhta raha aur chala gaya. Ghar pahuch ke saari raat usi ke bare me sochta raha mai jaise uske man ko padne laga tha wo mere dil ka hissa ban chuki thi mera dil mujhse dur jakhmi pada tha aur mai idhar tadap raha tha.

Is haadse ke kuch hi din baad soniya ki maa aa gaye unhe jab iske bare me pata chala to unhone hum sabhi ko bahut daant lagaye aur kaha ki ab hum apni beti ko tum logo ke paas nahi chodenge ye sun kar mai jaise kisi sadme me chala gaya par is baat par mera koi bas bhi to nahi tha mai use rokne ke liye kuch nahi kar sakta tha aakhir haalat hi aise ban gaye the aur soniya ki didi aur jij bhi yahi chahte the ki wo chli jaye. Aur akhir wo din bhi aa gaya jab mai khud apni jaan ko train me bithane le gaya usko apne se dur jaata dekh mai shayad is duniya me tha hi nahi dil ro raha tha aur chehere pe muskan thi aankho ki nami gale se ghoont banke utar rahi thi . jate jate ek baar use sine se lagane ko dil tadap raha tha par mazburiyo ki bediyo ne jakad rakha tha dekhte hi dekhte wo meri aankho se dur chali gaye aur mai sirf dekhta raha.

Soniya ko train me bitha ke ghar pahucha to khud ko rok nahi paya aur aansuo ka sailaab umad aaya ghanto uske masum chehare ko uski aadao ko yaad kar ke rota raha jab bardasht nahi hua to maine uske jij ko phone karke bulaliya wo mera accha dost bhi hai jaise hi use samne dekha phir aansu chalak pade usne mujhe samjhte hue apna sahara dene ki koshish ki par in aansuo ka ek hi ilaaz tha aur wo hai soniya jo ab mujhse bahut dur jaa chuki thi. mujhe yaad nahi ki apni 25 saal ki umra me mai kabhi itna roya wo bhi us ladki ke liye jise mai mahaj ek saal se jaanta hu. Jab khud se puchta hu ki aisa kiyo ho raha hai to jawab bhi nahi milta shayad isi ko pyaar kehte hai. Kiyo ki 25 saal ki umra me koi bhi itna bewakuf nahi hota jo ki pyaar aur lagao me fark na kar sake.

Soniya ke chale jane ke baad ek ek din mujh par bhari padne laga kisi kaam me man nahi lagata tha har waqat uski yaaden jahan me daudti rehti uske saath bitaya ek ek pal reh reh ke yaad ata tha uski hansi , uski chanchalta uska masti karna , masti me kabhi mujhe kiss karna to kabhi chedna , uski bholi aadaye jisme kisi chote se bacche ki harkaate hoti thi , ya phir akele me gujare wo pal , uske badan ki mehak uski saanso ki garmahat mujhme samati uski angdaye , In saab bato ko yaad kar ke aksar meri aankhe bhar aati aur mai sochne lagata ki kaise soniya ko mai jindgi bhar ke liye haasil kar sakta hu par rasta koi nahi milta tha. Aise me soniya ki didi ne mujhe sahara diya unhone mujhe vishwas dilaya ki wo soniya ko wapas le ayengi par unhe thoda waqt lagega. Mai ye sun kar unka bahut abhari ho gaya soniya wapas aa sakti ye jaan ke meri jaise duniya hi badal gaye. Par iske piche bhi nasseb ne bahut kuch chupa rakha tha bina mol chukaye mujhe mere nasib se kabhi khuch nahi mila. Par soniya ko wapas hasil karne ke liye jo mol maine chukaya hai usko mai kisi se baya nahi kar sakta………………………………………………………………………………………………….mujhe maaf karna

Soniya ki didi ne apni baat rakhi aur use kisi tarh wapas le aye. Meri khusiyo ko jaise pankh lag gaye, uske wapas aane ki khushi mai shabdo me baya nahi kar sakta. Mai bhaagta hua usse milne nikal pada ghar pe wo akeli thi mujhe dekhte hi mujh se lipat gaye aur phut phut ke rone lagi , mujh se dur reh kar uski haalat bhi mujh se kuch kam nahi thi , maine use dilasa diya ki ab hum kabhi bhi dur nahi honge. Hamari zindagi me phir ek baar khushiya laut aye aur dono ki adhuri aatma puri ho gaye waqt haste khelte gujar raha tha ab tak uske paas koi goal nahi tha maine use motivate kiya aur goal decide karne ko kaha aur usne kiya bhi wo doctor banna chahti thi maine bhi uska saath diya aur usko har tarah se motivate karne ki koshish ki. isi beech use apne school ke trip par jaana pada wo kuch din jara mushkil the par thik hai mai jaanta tha wo lautke ayegi, aur humara nasib dekho jab wo laut ke aye to uske ghar par koi nahi tha. Uski maa ne mujhe kaha ki soniya ko kuch din apne paas rakh lo, meri khushiyo ka to jaise thikana hi nahi raha. Mai use apne ghar le aya aur uske saath bitaye wo 15 din mai kabhi nahi bhul sakta . hum raat din saath rehte the ek saath khate the, ek hi bistar par sote the wo puri raat mere sine se lipat kar soti thi jaise mai hi uski saari duniya hu.

Mujhe soniya ke pyaar pe pura bharosa ho gaya tha mujhe lagne laga ki wo mere bina ji nahi payegi isi bich mere ghar wale mujhse shadi ki baat karne lage par soniya ka sochte hue maine mana kar diya. Mai uska dil sapne me bhi nahi tod sakta tha mujhe lagta tha ki agar meri life me koi aura aa gaye to soniye ji nahi payegi aur khud ko kuch kar baithegi ek koshish wo pehle hi kar chuki thi mujhe kuch samjh nahi aa raha tha ki mai aisa kya karu ki soniya ka dil na tute , us waqt to shadi postpone karne ke alawa koi rasta nahi tha so maine shadi cancel kar di.

Ek baar phir nasib ne palti khaye aur is baar kuch aisa ho gaya ki wo hamesha ke liye mujh se dur chali gaye. Ab mai jaanta tha ki wo kabhi laut kar nahi ayegi. Aur koi use wapas nahi la sakta. Uski ma ne uska admission wahi kara diya aur wo apni padhaye karne lagi. Ab life dono ke liye mushkil ho chali thi udhar wo mujhe yaad kar ke roti rehti aur kisi se kuch bol bhi nahi sakti thi aur naa hi mujhe call kar sakti thi uski ghutan ko mai dur se he mehsus kar sakta tha par jo haalaat uske the wahi mere bhi the. Hum kuch nahi kar sakte the siwaye intejaar ke. Use jab mauka milta wo call karne ki koshish karti thi mushkil se mahine me ek baar baat ho paati thi par in haalaat me wahi kaafi tha milna to dur ki baat hai.

Wo jab bhi phone karti bas ek hi baat bolti thi kisi aur ladki pe line mat maarna mai jaldi hi apni padaye puri karke aap se milungi phir wahi chanchal baate, idhar mai bhi uljhan me pad gaya ki jab wo mujhe kisi aur ke saath nahi dekh sakti to mai kaise use kisi aur ke saath dekh paunga , soniya ko kisi aur ki baho me soch kar mere badan me aag lag jati thi lagta tha jaise duniya me aag laga du, ab mere saamne ye nayi uljhan paida ho gaye ki ek na ek din to soniya bhi shadi karegi to kya mai use kisi aur ke saath bardast kar paunga ? nahi bilkul nahi . aur mai raaste khojne laga.

Dekhte hi dekhte 1 saal guzar gaya kehte hai duriyo se pyaar aur badh jaata hai mere saath kuch aisa hi hua maine soniya se shadi karne ka faisla kar liya, aur wo bhi sab ki marji se maine decide kiya ki atleast try kar ke dekhta hu suna hai koshish karne walo ki kabhi haar nahi hoti,aur dekho mera nasib pehili baar mujhe laga ki mera bhi naseeb hai mujhe 90% chances lagne lage meri khushi ka koi thikana nahi tha mai ye baat soniya se share karana chahta tha par kaafi dino se uska cal nahi aya tha maine socha wo padhai me busy hai jab mauka milega wo call jarur karegi aur mai use ye khushkhabri dunga wo bhi khushi ke mare jhoom uthegi.

Ab muje duniya acchi lagne lagi thi mai soniya ke saath apna future plan karne laga tha uske saath apni zindgi ke sapne dekhne laga tha mai bahut khush tha par soniya ke bare me koi khabar nahi mil rahi thi, kafi waqt gujar gaya usne call bhi nahi kiya , kai bar mujhe pata chala ki wo apni sister ke ghar gaye hai jaha se aksar wo call kiya karti thi , par is bar nahi kiya. Maine kuch mind nahi kiya socha koi wajah hogi otherwise wo mujhe call karne ka mauka kabhi miss nahi karti. Isi beech mai bhi acchi naukri ki talash me jut gaya shadi jo karni thi apni jaan se. Aur mujhe naukri bhi mil gaye wo bhi bahut acchi 50,000 / month . maine socha itne me to mai apni jaan ko rani bana kar rakhunga. Aur bas uske cal ka intejaar karne laga.

Is baar kaafi samay gujar gaya soniya ka phone nahi aya mujhe chinta hone lagi par jo kuch uske didi aur jij se pata chalta usse sab kuch thik lag raha tha , mujhe samajh nahi aa raha tha ki wo cal kyo nahi kar rahi kai baar mujhe online bhi mili par mujhe dekh kar offline ho gaye mai bilkul clueless ho raha tha ki wo aisa kyo kar rahi hai ? phir maine use mail kiya ki mujhe usse jaruri baat karni hai ek baar cal karo plz. Phir bhi koi jawab nahi aaya , maine kai message kiye jiska koi jawab nahi aaya , aur ab to uske pas apna phone bhi tha jab koi sadhan nahi tha tab barabar call karti thi ab khudke paas phone hone ke baad bhi cal nahi kar rahi kya wajah ho sakti hai ? mai soch soch ke paagal ho raha tha.

Phir ek din uska mail aaya………..jise yaad karna apni maut ko bulane jaisa hai , us mail ko padne ke baad bhi mai jinda hu ye koi chamtkaar se kam nahi hai…itna sab kuch hone ke baad wo likhti hai " MERA AAP SE KOI ATTACHMENT NAHI HAI AAP APNI LIFE ENJOY KARO AUR MAI APNI, ANKIT MUJHE BAHUT PYAR KARTA HAI AUR MAI BHI USE BAHUT PYAR KARTI HU USNE MUJHE BAHUT HELP KI HAI ….MUJHE EK BAD DREAM KI TARAH BHUL JANA"

Ab kya likhu ? kya kahu ? jis ladki ko maine apni life ke 5 saal de diye is beech me kisi aur ladki ke bare me socha bhi nahi , jo impossible tha use possible banaya, usse shadi ke sapne dekhe, wo kehti hai mujhe bhool jao ??? in paach saalo me maine uske saath kya galat kiya ? wo mera saath chahati thi maine diya , jitna moral support de sakta tha diya , aur aaj wo kehati hai aap apni life enjoy karo aur mai apni ??? are maine use ek baache ki tarah sahlaya hai raat din mere sine se lipti rehti thi , use apno hato se khana khilaya , dudh pilaya , yaha tak ki uske undergarment bhi dhoye, school ke kapde press kiye , aur wo aaj kehti hai mera aap se koi attachment nahi hai ??? aisa kise bol sakti hai wo ???

Mai hairaan hu ki mai jinda kiyo hu .. jina ab mere liye ek shraap ban gaya hai , wo meri bacchi yaar jise mai chune se bhi darta tha ki kahi use mere kurdare haato se chot na lag jaye, wo kehti hai ki uske aur ankit ke beech sab kuch ho gaya ??? wo kaise apne app ko kisi aur ke hawale kar sakti hai kaise kisi ko apna jism de sakti hai ??? hey ishwar mujh par daya karo ya to is taklif se nikaal do ya apne paas bula lo plzzzzzzzzzzz

Ab mujhe nahi pata mai apni life kaise jiyunga par ab mai uske bare me kya sochu jo aaj tak meri sab kuch thi ? kis tarah ka pyaar kiya tha usne mujhe ??aur kis tarah ka pyaar wo ankit ko karti hai ?? kya jism ki bhook hi aaj ki ladkiyo ke liye pyaar hai ?? kiyo ki ek wahi sukh mai use nahi de paya in kuch saalo me. Ab mai us ladki ko kya kahu jo ek se jyada ladko ke saath so chuki hai ??

Agar apne gharwalo ki marji se samay pe shadi kar leti to shayad mujhe bilkul taklif nahi hoti mere dil me uske liye pura respect hota , agar andhi , langdi, luli ho jati to bhi mai usse shaadi kar leta , yahatak ki agar kisi ki hawas ka shikar ho jaati to bhi mujhe usse puri humdardi hoti, par wo to khud apni marji se kisi ke bistar ki chadar ban gaye . kya use yaad nahi ki wo pehle hi kisi ki ho chuki hai ? ye kaisi ladki hai jo us insaan ko bhul gaye jisne usko pehili baar sharir ka sukh diya ?? usko kali se phool banyaa ??

Usne mujhe aise hi bhula diya ?? sab kuch bhula diya ??? ab kaun si wajah hai ki mai use respect karu , ab to mujhe ek dhande wali soniya se jyada acchi lagti hai jo paisa leti hai aur aap jis kaam ke liye jate ho use pura karti hai aur garv se bolti hai ki mai dhande wali hu kam kam se kam kisi ke dil se to nahi khelti.

Mai ye nahi kehata ki kisi ko khush rehne ka haq nahi hai sabko hai soniya ko bhi hai par kisi apne ko dukh dekar koi kaise khush reh sakta hai wo bhi mujhe, jiske liye wo khud kitna roye thi kitna possessive thi kisi aur ko mere saath dekh bhi nahi sakti thi, fir kyo usne itni berehmi se mere dil ko kuchal dala ? kal tak mi jiske liye sab kuch tha aaj achanak aisa kya ho gaya ki usne mera dil todne se pehle ek baar bhi nahi socha , mai chahta to kai ladkiyo se relation bana sakta tha par mai apne pyaar se gaddari nahi kar sakta tha aur ek wo hai jisne ek baar bhi nahi socha ki jab mujhe pata chalega to mujh par kya bitegi, is se to yahji saabit hota hai ki aaj tak wo mujhe use kar rahi thi use mere sukh dukh se koi matlab hi nahi hai agar hota to wo mar jati par aisa sitam nahi karti.

Kaun kehata hai hai ki sirf mard hi aurat par julm karte hai , to phir ye kya hai jo soniya ne mere saath kiya usne to lagta hai jaise kisi dushmani ka badla liya ho pehle mujhe apne pyaar me paagal banaya aur jab use vishwas ho gaya ki mai puri tarah uske pyaar me dub chuka hu , mujhe khud bol ke bata diya ki uske aur ankit ke bich sab kuch ho gaya. Shayad aap log nahi samajh payenge ki apne pyaar ko kisi aur ke saath humbistar hote hue mehsus karna kaisa lagta hai , sirf do hi baat ho sakti hai ya khud mar jao ya un dono ko maar dalo aur nahi to phir roj apne pyaar ka balatkar hote hue dekho mai bhi dekh raha hu roj use kisi aur ke saath humbistar hote hue uske jism ko nochte hue. Agar maine uske saath koi dhoka kiya hai to ye saja jayaz man bhi lu par bina kuch kiye usne mere saath aisa kiyo kiya ?? why ?? why ??? why ??? ishwar mujhe Shakti de kahi mere haato koi anhoni na ho jaye.

Agar use ye lag raha tha ki wo mere saath khush nahi hai aur koi use mujh se jyada pyaar aur khushi de raha tha to mujhe saaf saaf bol deti mai apni kami man ke uske raste se hat jaata aur shayad itna dukh bhi nahi hota , kam se kam is baat ki tasalli to rehti ki usne mujhse ek proper breakup kiya hai. Aur mai bhi use nahi rokta kiyo ki mere liye itna bahot tha ki usne koi kadam uthane se pehle mere bare me socha to sahi. Mai haste haste uske raste se hat jata.

Afsos ki usne sirf ek dusman samjh kar mera gala ret diya thoda bhi rehem nahi aaya us bereham ko ye kehane me ki mai kisi aur ki ho chuki hu, khair ab to ho chuki, ab wo dubara pavitra nahi ho sakti , aaj ki soniya jaisi ladkiyo ke liye pyar ki pyaas se jyada jism ki bhuk mitana jyada jaruri hai par wo ye nahi samjhti ki jism ki bhuk ek din khatm ho jati hai aur pyaar ki pyaas har insan ko jindgi bhar rehti hai.

Bas dosto mai ab aur nahi likh sakta …ye jakham hi kuch aisa hai ki na kabhi dard kam hoga aur na mera likhna.. bas thik hai yaar agar mujhe thokar mar kar hi use apni khushiya pani thi to god se pray karta hu ki wo sada khush rahe aur aabaad rahe …mai kaise ji pata hu …ji bhi pata hu ki nahi…. Pata nahi…

MESSAGE FOR SONIYA

Beta ye mat samajna ki mai tumhe kos raha hu ya baddua de raha hu bas mera dil tuta hai aur mai khud ko samjhaa nahi pa raha hu , mai ye nahi samjh pa raha ki maine tumhare saath kya galat kiya jo tumne mujhe itni badi saja de dali tum acche se jaanti thi ki tumhe koi haath bhi lagaye to mujhe bardaast nahi hota hai aur tumne khud hi apne aap ko kisi aur ke hawale kar diya? Jara apne dimag par jor dalo aur socho ki agar aisa mai tumhare saath tab karta jab tumhare paas mere siwaye aur koi nahi tha to tum kya karti ? mai bet lagata hu ki tum apni jaan de deti , ha ya na ??. to socho mai kitna tadap raha hu ye soch kar ki tum kisi aur ke saath wo saab kar rahi ho jispar sirf mera adhikaar tha . Yar mai ye soch kar hi mar jata hu ki tum kisi aur ke saath wo bhi apni marji se ???? . Mujhe tumse shikayat bas itni hai ki agar tumhe koi aur mil gaya tha jo tumhe mujh se jyada pyar karta hai to mujh se ek proper breakup kar leti ?? tumne sirf apni khushi deki mere bare me kuch bhi nahi socha? to mai ab iska kya matlab nikalu tum hi batao?? Kya tumne mujhe apni marji se use nahi kya ? jab tak man chaha mujhe love u kehti rahi aur jab koi aur mil gaya to use love you keh rahi ho. Tum khud socho ki tum kya kar rahi ho ?? maine to tumhe ye sab nahi sikhaya tha. Yad hai tum kehti thi ki mai kabhi shaadi nahi karungi ab kya hua un baato ka ??? beta ye kaisa character bana liye tumne apna ?? jawaani aur ladki ka jism uska jevar hota hai uska maan samman hota hai, ise yu hi nahi har kisi ko saup diya jata. Mai manta hu ki tum yahi sab dekh kar badi hui ho par wo sab galat hai aur jo tum kar rahi ho wo bhi.

Maine tumhe hamesha kaha tha agar koi aur pasand aa jaye to sabse pehle mujhe batana , mujhe dukh is baat ka nahi hai ki tumne kisi aur ko chun liya . balki is baat ka hai ki mujhse rishta kyo tod diya. Tumne saaf saaf keh diya ki tumhe mujhse koi attachment nahi hai, Jis tarah tumne mujhse breakup kiya hai wo tarika thik nahi hai ise dump karna kehte hai. Aur dump use kiya jata hai jisse nafrat ho jaye . to kya mai ye samju ki tum mujh se nafrat karne lagi ho ? agar ha to kis liye ??maine aisa kya kiya hai??

Beta tum bilkul bhi nahi samjh sakti ki mai kis kadar tut chukka hu badi muskil se khud ko roka hai , koi aur hota to apni jaan de deta. Mai to keval itna chahta tha ki agar tum kisi aur ke saath khush ho to raho koi baat nahi par mere pyaar ka majaak to mat banaao tumne to sidhe mujhe laat mar ke apni jindgi se nikaal feka ? sach me aisa hi kiya hai kya ? agar kiya bhi ho to koi baat nahi . tumhari khushi se badkar mere liye kuch nahi hai bas tumhe galat raste par jaate nahi dekh sakta . isliye lecture de raha hu maaf kar dena plz.

Beta mai tumse ek baar milna chahata hu akele me , wo bhi sirf is liye ki mai dump hone wali feeling bardaasht nahi kar pa raha hu , aur mai janta hu aisa tumse anjane me ho gaya ,par ek baar mil ke tum ye galatfemi dur kar sakti ho, agar tumne mujhe kabhi bhi sache dil se pyaar kiya hai aur dump nahi kiya hai to tum mujhe milogi jarur, mai 25 se 29 may tak tumhare shahar me hu. ho sake to milne ki koshish karna mujhe call karna meri kuch mushkile aasan ho jayegi , tumhari life to set ho gaye, kya mere liye itna nahi kar sakti ??

Aur ab to tumhare paas apna phone bhi hai kabhi kabhi yaad karliya karo accha lagega mujhe. Ummed karta hu ki tum bewafa nahi ho aur iska proof dene ke liye tum mujhe jarror milne aogi.

I WISH BOTH OF YOU A VERY HAPPY AND LOVABLE LIFE AHEAD

& I AM SO SORRY IF THIS STORY HURT U BUT THAT'S A TRUTH OF MY LIFE AND I CANT SHARE WITH ANYONE SO DRAWN ON PAPER..SORRY AGAIN.

GOODBYE….





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