Isat on the moist grass as the rain was drizzling slightly. I pushed my onyx umbrella to the side of me and began to weep. I let out all the feelings I had held in, exploding faster than I ever had before. It seemed like the harder I cried the harder it rained. Until suddenly the rain was pounding on my skin while I sobbed, closed my eyes, and began to think.
I remembered everything. Everything he did for me and to me. There was not a minute I wish I could not erase. The way he was sweet to me when we first met. The way his lips felt when they brushed against mine during our first kiss. The way he promised he would never hurt me. The way he was such a liar. How could I ever forget the torture he put me through when he took away my sanity, my beautiful perception of the world, and my innocence? He took the world.
“Hey!” I heard a voice call.
I opened my eyes and saw that the sun had begun to peak through the trees and the rain started to ease up. I also saw a coming towards me in a hurry. I quickly rubbed my eyes then remembered I did not wear any makeup. He kneeled down and looked me in the eye.
“Are you okay?”
I nodded my head yes
“Y-y-yeah,” I began to shiver. He took the umbrella from my hands, placed it beside me and put the jacket that was on him gently around my shoulders. I kept my eyes glued to him, terrified, the entire time.
“I’m Oliver, are you positive you’re okay?” I sniffled and did not know what to do. Up to that point, I had fooled everyone with my “I’m okay” persona. Up until then I had no problem lying about my feelings. My eyes welled up and I sniffled again. I stared at him blankly, trying to read him, was he just waiting for the right moment?
“Hello?” He waved a hand in front of my face and looked genuinely concerned. Oliver looked into my eyes and started to talk to me again. “Listen you’re going to get really sick and your going to ruin your white dress if you stay here like this.” I thought of how I could not wear white on my wedding day. I began to cry hysterically. He wrapped his arms around me and pushed my head onto his shoulder. At first, I wanted to resist but then I realized how nice it felt to finally have someone to cry in front of, even if they didn’t know why I was crying.
“Thank you Oliver,” I whispered while trying to take better, more even breaths. He stood up and held out a hand. After a few seconds of being unsure of whether or not it was time to stand back up again, I took his hand. He hoisted me to my feet and gave me a smile. By this time the sun was beaming.
That was the first time I got a good look at him. He had black hair to his ears at it was wavy from the rain. He was taller than I and he had a muscular build. Oliver had the most gorgeous big brown eyes. He was really good looking. He was dripping us though.
“Would you like to go get some coffee?” Oliver asked and smiled at me. I nodded yes. I got on my shoes and we headed out of the wooded area. The same wooded area that I had walked out a completely different person just three years earlier. I looked back as we were walking, the way I always did on my way out and I could picture every moment. A tear slid down my cheek. Then it happened, we stopped walking and my heart began to pound. Oliver turned to me and wiped my cheeks.
“Don’t hurt me…” I whimpered. Oliver gave me a long stare then embraced me.
“I’m sorry, I should’ve stopped him.” He whispered in my ear. I looked at him, eyes budging out of my head.
“How do you know?”
“I used to go to your school. One day I was taking pictures of the trees and the flowers starting to bloom and I saw you kiss him. I always liked you but I figured you were happy. I could never compete with him.”
“But how do you know him…”
“I heard you scream at him to stop. I wanted to go save you but I couldn’t I was frozen.” He stopped and took a deep breath recollecting that horrible day. Then he began to smile, and I gave him a sick look. “No!” Oliver began. “The rape isn’t funny at all. What I did to him after, now that’s funny.” He snickered slightly. “Let’s just say there’s a reason he doesn’t play any sports, and there’s a reason I got sent away.” Then it clicked.
“You’re the guy who he pressed charges against for assault. Why didn’t you just tell them he R-raped me?”
“I was crazy for you; I wasn’t going to put you through another thing you weren’t ready for just to save myself some trouble. I thought you had been dealt enough for a lifetime. Besides, it’s somewhat my fault.” He looked down at the grass and sighed. I took his hand and bent under his face so our eyes met.
“It’s not your fault. Thank you for being here.”
“I come every year hoping to get the courage to just hold you and make things just okay, even if it’s hard to forget.” I gave Oliver a hug.
“Maybe I’m not the only one who needs to be held.” We stood there holding each other and then, he kissed me. It was soft, sweet, but most important of all, it was right.
We left the wooded area and headed to get coffee together. The same wooded area that held my deepest secret. The same wooded area that set me free.