A silence hovered over us. It was so quiet I thought I heard Min's tears rolling down her cheeks, but then I quickly brushed that stupid thought away.
'Maybe,' Janard began hesitantly, his voice sounding awkward, as it made the silence fly away.
'Maybe what?' I ripped the ending of his sentence off, leaving him with his feeble 'Maybe'.
'You should go,' Malttian said, as always quietly and frankly.
'Do you really think I have nothing better to do?' my voice sounded as if someone had frozen it.
'I think this is the best thing you could do. I think you should even set yourself a time limit. A year - three hundred and sixty five days, to make things right with your family.' He said, looking at me.
I got up.
'What is it with you? Why do you always climb into my personal, family life and bring all the dirt out? Stop being so nosy!' my voice rose, 'It's NONE. OF. YOUR. BUSSINESS!'
'Nardo,' Min sighed, and I tried not to look at her, because I had a feeling that every tear that fell from her eyes went right through my heart, burning a hole in it, 'we're just trying to…'
'Help, yeah, I know. Well I don't need any help. I'm sorry if your charity dreams were crushed.'
'Look, just go to Earth already. You miss it so much. Why not…….?' Janard tried to talk.
'Leave. Me. Alone.' I said.
The silence came back again, and it suffocated me. God, what was wrong with these people?! They were my friends. They were people I liked. They were people who I found it interesting to talk to. But why the hell did they rummage through my family life?! Well… not that I had any.
Suddenly a vision of Earth blacked everything out. A blue sky. Green trees. The ocean. The gulls, spinning their lonely dance over the city. I wanted to get rid of those memories at once. But I couldn't. They whirled around me, just like the seagulls circled around the beach.
'So what,' I heard Min's quiet voice, 'are you coming?'
I looked at her, and suddenly grinned, with all scorn I could master.
'I'll let you guess that one.' I said and my gaze slipped to the window.
'Is that a no?' she asked, and her face fell.
I tried to convince Min to go to Earth without me, but she didn't agree.
'I was thinking we could go together.' She shook her head, ignoring my words, 'If you won't come then it's not the same.'
My heart raced when she said that. I felt frustrated. What was happening to me? You'd think I'd be used to her being near me after knowing her for some time, but every time I saw her, I felt nervous and at the same time desperately happy. I guess I was just a fool. Nice words they had a couple of centuries ago… Fool. F-o-o-l. I laughed slightly.
'Why're you laughing?' she asked, looking up at me.
I was just smiling at her like a complete idiot.
'What is it?' she questioned.
'No, nothing,' I answered, physically unable to stop myself from wearing that stupid smile on my face.
And all of a sudden…. She smiled that foolish smile too. We stared at each other, smiling. God! I was just slowly turning mad. And suddenly my heart fell. Boom.
The discovery came too late. I stared at her in horror, and saw her face change as she realised there was something wrong.
'Are you okay?' her voice was full of worry.
'Yeah. Yeah I'm fine.' I half whispered hoarsely.
'Okay,' she said, nodding slightly, looking unconvinced.
'Maybe you should go to Earth?' I asked, going back to the subject.
'You really want to get rid of me, don't you?' she smiled sadly.
I rolled my eyes, trying to seem as casual as I could possibly be. But really, yes I wanted to get rid of her. I needed time to think this over. To understand what I was going to do next.
'You could just tell me to leave, you know,' she said quietly.
'I don't want you to leave, but I don't want you to suffer either. If you want to go to Earth, then go.'
'I want to go with you.' She sounded like a stubborn child.
'What have I got anything to do with this?' I asked gloomily.
I looked her in the eye. She blushed suddenly, which seemed so unusual.
'Why me? Why not someone else? What do you need me for?'
'You're my friend…' she mumbled and turned away.
I sighed. Friend. So where the hell was this going to?