She was a beauty, unique like a rose. I know it sounds corny and probably cliché because it is kind of like Shakespeare, but still I can’t seem to find any other way to describe someone like her.  She is like a rose, filled with compassion and kindness that is the only way I can seem to describe her. So many words I could use to describe her, but truly all those words wouldn’t be enough in my opinion. They wouldn’t complete her description, it wouldn’t be enough. But maybe I’m wrong? Perhaps I’m not?

All I could say is that she was “One of a kind” and in my opinion she carried her heart on her sleeve. I always thought that whoever did something like was extremely foolish and incomprehensible, but having known her more and more as the days passed I couldn’t say or think the same way.

I had never truly had the pleasure of meeting someone like her. At first sight I couldn’t help but be captive, spellbound to her natural beauty some thing rare in this world. I saw her sitting on top of a tower watching the sunset; I couldn’t help but wonder how she had gotten up there, it must have been a hard task considering the ladder to get up there was broken and nowhere in sight.

I too went up there on the tower next to hers. She seemed to not notice me so I called out to her.

She never answered back, neither did she acknowledged that I was there but that was only my opinion, she probably did know I was there, ignoring me most likely.

I admired her sitting there like a perfect statue with no flaws, that is how she looked back then, and I knew that even if I were to never see her again I would always remember her. Her picture will be forever in my mind.

I called out to her, again and again hoping she would answer back so I could hear her voice, but she didn’t. Instead she turned to me and smiled, it was heartwarming and full of purity, her dark green eyes shining brightly. I knew then that she couldn’t have been from this world because an expression like that could, so carefree could never exist in this corrupted planet.

“It’s beautiful isn’t?” She whispered her voice carrying out a soft melody. She turned her head back to the sunset her smile still there, never wavering. I had the slight suspicion she was in some kind of daze.

I didn’t answer, I couldn’t, and I didn’t know how to answer. I was paralyzed, my gaze still on her. She paralyzed me; I really couldn’t feel my heart beat. It was unnerving to be feeling like this.

I had seen many sunsets in my life and I couldn’t see how this one was special from the other ones. I turned my gaze towards the sunset, sure it was beautiful but I couldn’t see what was special. I turned back to her prepared to ask her what she saw about it.

She was gone.

Every trace of her being there completely vanished into thin air. I couldn’t believe my eyes, how did she disappear so quickly?

I sat there every day watching the sunset hoping that when I got there she would be there and I would see her again. It never happened. Sure I did see her again but back then when all those traces of hers where gone I truly believed she had disappeared or that I had been dreaming and she never really existed.

I had forgotten about her, well not really it was more like I had stopped thinking about her but forget her I could never do. I had continued on with my life going to high school, making friends and working hard for a good career that would support me and the family I wanted to have.

Still I knew I had time, after all I had barely started high school and it would be a couple of years before I went to college.

Spending so much time with studies and friends kept me occupied but still any second that I had let my mind wonder or I was alone, it always went back to her, wondering and wondering, who she was, what was her name, and most of all if she was real.

Somehow I had the feeling that I would never know. I might as well get on with my life and stop pondering about it.

2 years later

I saw her again, before the start of my last year in high school. I had decided to go back to the tower and watch the sunset after all I had stopped doing that in a long while.

There she was on the same spot as last time watching the sunset. I felt like I was thrown back to the past and this was the first time I had seen her, everything seemed and looked the same as if time hadn’t really passed instead it froze on this moment.

She looked the same; nothing seemed to have changed about her except for the fact that she looked paler. Still she was the same girl I was mesmerized with. I made my way up the tower next to hers like last time, but when I got there she was gone once again. I had come to the conclusion that I was really hallucinating.

She didn’t exist. It was merely my imagination playing tricks on me just like last time.

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I was confused by his actions, but at the same time he intrigued me. He was persisting to talk to me when we first meet. I was not ignoring him; I simple couldn’t understand his intentions. It seemed weird to talk to a stranger. I couldn’t help but stare at the sunset, it was beautiful, and it truly was. I couldn’t remember a time when I had seen a sunset like this one.

Actually I don’t remember a time when I had actually seen a sunset.

I took my leave when I noticed he was not looking at me anymore. I don’t why but I simple couldn’t stay longer, something about him pulled me in. It scared me, so I did the only thing I was best at.

I fled.

I came back again but only to find him already there, I had the slight suspicion that he was waiting for me. I stopped in my tracks and simple stared at him, curiously.

Day after day he came and came and I watched from afar not willing to get close to him, to acknowledge that I was actually there.

He stopped coming after a while and I was slightly disappointed. A lot of time passed when I finally decided to go there once more. I was contempt just sitting there admiring the sunset, and then he came.

I saw him out of the corner of my eye watching me in shock. I was just as surprise as him. It seemed we arrived at the same place and same time as before, everything was the same, nothing was different, but that was a lie, things had changed.

 I felt like I was meeting him for the first time and time never seemed to have moved.

It has always was been the best option that I never attached myself to anyone, and I definitely wasn’t attached, I wasn’t about to start attaching myself now. I knew that if I got close even a little I wouldn’t be able to let go and I wouldn’t be able to accept death not when I had him.

Again I fled.

Something I was ashamed for because that was what I did the most, runaway from everything but not from everybody because I had nobody and I was fine with it because they were the ones to leave me and being who I am I never chased after them.

I was weak and my will was not strong enough. I had softly called out to them, to stay with me, to not leave me behind, but I was not heard and that was all I could do.

Then I turned my back on them and walked away towards a different direction just like they walked away towards a new life, one that did not include me, after all I was merely a burden to them. 

I was found on the street by them when I was seven years old my only belonging being a necklace intertwined around my wrist with the inscriptions “Forgive us” on the back. It confused me and till this day I still can’t understand the meaning behind it.

Some memories came to me in dreams, they were strange but somehow I knew they were my memories, but seeing what I saw in my dreams I wish I was wrong.

Still no matter how many things my dreams showed me I knew in my heart in my mind that it always skipped an important part.

I felt it was something that I needed to know no matter what. But every time I forget until I don’t really remember most of the dream and when I do it only lasts for a while.

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I couldn’t read her, those two times I saw her I could never tell what she was thinking; she was so strange but in a good way somehow. She seemed mute, being that quiet and when she said those three words proving me wrong it was like she hypnotized you and you would hope she would talk more and more just so you could hear that melody her voice carried.

My consciousness was always telling when I thought of her that something was off about her, that she was different but in a big way, I never listened to it, I simple ignored it thinking that it was only saying that because there was some special about her.

I wanted to find out, but even though I saw her again it didn’t mean it would happen once more.

I had to try. I wanted to see her.

It was unnerving this need to see her, I felt like I was becoming obsessive, but I couldn’t help it, those two times I saw her were printed in my head. Her eyes, her face, her smile they captive me, they hypnotized and paralyzed me.

I need to know more about her.

In the depths of my mind I knew something was amiss about her, something was wrong about her, but even so I ignored it and in a way I wanted to find out if something truly was extremely off about her.

If she was really that different as I thought.

My mind, my conscience kept on warning me to not meddle but I paid no heed to it.

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I stood motionless as wires were taken from inside my skin. It hurt, but at the same time I could barely feel it. I was comfortable with the thought that I could feel pain, it made me feel human but I don’t know why, I am human aren’t I?

I don’t get, why is it that I get the feeling that I am different? That I am not human?

When I look around me I can see many different faces and they all seem to blend in but when I stand next to one I feel like I am out of place, like I’m an outsider, something just doesn’t feel right, something feels different. I don’t blend in with all those people even the ones surrounding me now.

Why is it that I can’t remember my childhood? I know I am suppose to remember I just know it, but I can’t remember and something inside me tells me that I shouldn’t remember, that I best not to, that I should forget and…destroy?

I have never contemplated these weird thoughts but now that I find myself doing nothing and laying on a bed motionless, my mind wonders off and it seems to take me to these thoughts again and again.

Sadly it also took me back to that boy; last time I saw him was one month ago.

I stopped my train of thoughts when I saw the doctor order the others to leave the room a troubled expression in his face.

Was something wrong?

“Nea” The doctor told me.

“Come out with it” I told him bluntly. I hated when people did that, instead of getting straight to the point and tell what the problem was already they take forever. He of all people knew that!

“I’m sorry to inform you, but you have leukemia” He told me avoiding my eyes. It was always painful for a doctor to tell bad news, mostly to someone that you got attached to. “Do you know what that is?”

I nodded my head. How could I not? I had studied medicine and only once did I studied because what ever I read or study I instantly learn in a few minutes and it was forever imprinted in my head.

Plus I remember once he told me the same thing but that was 11 years ago, how can it be? That I have leukemia again?

I have bad memory when it comes to certain things like my past but when it comes to things like this my memory is greater than ever, more advance than anyone’s, like a live machine in my brain. That frightens me.

I closed my eyes, so I was going to die. Why does it not surprise me? Do I want to die? Am I one of those people that suffered from depression and suicide is in their opinion the only option to get rid of such feelings?

It seems like that, only death was coming for me instead of the other way around, plus I after all have nothing to live for. I know this happens for a reason and somehow I don’t feel depressed at having found out that any day now I would die. I somehow just don’t care.

I got up already being in my clothes I simple passed the doctor and headed for the door.

“Nea you can’t leave! You must stay here! I can help you” The doctor told me worriedly.

“Yea right” I told him sarcastically. I didn’t want to be mean, but my mood and my mouth weren’t cooperating.

“Death is inevitable”

A fact no one can deny no matter how hard they ignore it.

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She was strange; I found her all alone in the streets and offered her shelter at this hospital. It was normal. There was nothing strange about finding a girl homeless and wondering in the streets, but then when I took some tests on her blood because she was showing signs of some kind of diseases. I found something shocking.

I didn’t know what it was because I needed to take more tests to find out. Her blood was like nothing I had ever seen. It was not human, I tried asking her many times about her childhood and everything to see how it was possible that her blood was…pure white, not red to be exact. It threw me into a state of shock for many days.

When ever I asked her she always answered with the phrase ‘I can’t remember’ and her eyes would daze off as if she was remember but as soon as started remember and memorizing it left her.

Later after taking more tests I had found out that she had Leukemia more precise she had acute lymphoblastic leukemia, there was no cure. Even thought she had a different kind of blood she had many similarities that aloud me to find Leukemia in her system.

But after a couple of months the symptoms stopped showing and when I did a blood test I was stunned to see that it had completely disappeared, vanished like if a deadly disease was never there.

That was 11 years ago, and now she is 16 almost going on to 17 and I find leukemia in her system again.

It’s impossible; I found it when she was 7 years old and then it just disappeared and now to appear again after 11 years?

That is impossible, but it seemed I was wrong, it was there and I had a slight suspicion that this time it wouldn’t disappear. I came to the conclusion years ago after witnessing many phenomenal powers and things she could do with simply her hands or her mind that she was not human.

Still after she had just done something extraordinary she seemed to not have remembered what she had done. It was as if every time she did something abnormal the minute she stopped doing it she lost her memory of ever have done it.

 After that she would just give me a sweet questioning smile because she couldn’t understand the shocked look I was showing. Still after many times it stilled happened and this time those simply things were bigger and more destructive.

I couldn’t bring myself to turn her in over to the government, there was something that attached me to her and I didn’t like the idea of her being used and experimented on.

She was so nice and sweet even after all she had gone through, even thought she did have her moments. She would help out as much as possible around here.

I couldn’t turn her in; she was like the daughter I lost on that faithful day.

Flashback

Rain poured down hard on the black car driving, it was the only car in sight, they had been unfortunately been caught of guarded by the rain soon turning into a storm on their way to Vegas.

“Daddy, why aren’t we there yet?” A young six year old asked her blonde pony tails bobbing up and down as she moved and lip mouthed along with the song on the radio, her sparkling light green eyes watching every drop that fell with awe.

“Sweetie we’ll be there soon, don’t worry” Her father sad turning to look at her for only a second.

“When will I see mommy?” The little girl asked out of nowhere her eyes reflecting sadness as she remembered her mother who she had not seen in what seemed to long of a time.

Her father’s eyes narrowed in angered at the mention of the so called “mother” his ex-wife who had abandon them, leaving in the middle of the night with saying anything not even an explanation as to why she did it.

“I want to see her!” She said whining.

“Rena calm down, I don’t know when you can see her” Her father said.

“Do you promise me that I will see her?” She said her eyes hopeful.

Her father sighed giving in to her puppy eyes. “I promise sweetheart”

Just when Rena was about to say ‘I love you daddy’ the tires of the car screeched and her father lost control of the steering wheel causing the car to lose control. The car turned around in circles among the pouring rain.

After what seemed like a long time he finally got control of the car screeching to a halt in the middle of the street.

“Sweetie, are you alright?” Her father asked concerned and his voice shaking.

In an instant an out of control truck crashed in to them scraping the back of the car while turning it to the side at the same time.

The father panicked trying to get his daughter to safety but he failed because another car smashed into the car sending it forward crashing into the little girl that was in the back seat.

“Daddy!” She screamed her eyes filled with fear as the truck smashed into her.

When the doctors came it was too late.

End of Flashback

I hate remembering that horrible day.

It saddened me to see her walk away like that knowing that there was no cure and she was going to feel pain and then die just like that.

I clenched my hand, I couldn’t do anything for her, finding her a bone transplant is impossible mostly with the blood she has. It is impossible and she knows that too. How cruel fate can be.

She was going to die and painfully. I blinked the tears from my eyes but I failed as I felt the wetness in my cheeks. I don’t know how long my old heart could take it.

If she dies I will die with her, my only reason for still being in this world is because I see it as my responsibility to take care of her, after all…

 Death was truly inevitable, just like she said.

“Doctor we have an emergency, come with me immediately!” A young woman with short brown hair wearing a nurse’s outfit called out in panic.

I better hurry, can’t take my time when an emergency shows up.

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Terror spread through me as I went through the data for the 10^th time. I was sure I had gone through more it more than 10 times, much, much more. I couldn’t believe my eyes. This was not part of the plan; this was not supposed to happen. This little flaw that carelessly went unnoticed by them will destroy us all.

How could I of all people miss this little detail that is so important? No how could they have missed it?! They all had been so dim-witted, to actually have thought that everything was fine after the incident 100 years ago that we had just learned a couple of days ago. Thank goodness I found it, if not I don’t know what would have happened.

Our civilization had advanced; this planet seemed like an imitation of earth only more advanced. Could earth clone and create super intelligent machines? No they can’t.

We could do so many other things that were far beyond earth’s grasp of knowledge. It would take centuries before earth could ever do something close to what we have accomplished.

But our scientist including me along with our ruler have found out something extraordinary, a book but not just any book it was the oldest book that contained every secret, powerful information written by the rulers century after century after all we are still human, we are not immortal.

Our ruler had called us in and informed us of the book saying that he would choose one us and give that person the book to go over it and acquire all the knowledge it held. That was extremely a lot.

I was chosen and I couldn’t wait to see what I would learn.

It was an understatement to say that I was surprised everything that book held we already knew. It was a great disappointment.

I had left the book lying on my desk and had left to the lab to find something to occupy my time with. When I had come back I didn’t resist the temptation to go over the book once again. I just couldn’t believe that after many centuries all the book contained in its pages we had already accomplished.

It was throughout impossible. It can’t be right.

Then I saw it, something I had definitely overlooked. I don’t blame myself it was a big book, I could have overseen many things but I was positive I couldn’t have overseen this, still I had.

A letter barely noticeable taped carefully and professionally in the back cover. If it would have been anyone else they would have seen it as simply the cover of the book but it was no cover.

I detached it eagerly to find out what it held. Whoever wrote it must have figured and expected no one to ever find it, they were wrong.

After having detached it I turned it around, the handwriting from the looks of it was clearly written by a female.

I was shocked to see the date, it was 100 years ago! Two days before the incident. No one knows what happened but whatever it was it destroyed half our civilization and unfortunately there were hardly any survivors.

Could it be that this single sheet of paper would tell me how and why the explosion was caused? That would be the greatest discovery of all.

I quickly got to reading, holding onto every word.

10 minutes later

With trembling hands I put the sheet of paper down only to have it slid to the floor forgotten.

I hastily got out from my chair and made a run for the lab it didn’t matter if it was midnight.

And with that I am now here, wishing that what I had found out was not true.

If it was then,

God help us all.