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As I lay in my bed,I think about how my life is falling apart..I fight with my mother quite often,I dont like it but ever since my daddy passed away we haven't gotten along very well...
My daddy Died seven years ago,He was driving home from work one night and a drunk driver came on his side of the road coming straight for him.He turned out of the way but it was too late the car hit the tale end of his car,He rolled and spinned into a big field and five minutes later his truck blew up with him in it....I was only nine years old,and I will never forget the look on my mothers face when the officer knocked on the door and told her..It tore her apart then and there,I was little and still trying to comprehend,But when I found out that my daddy wasnt coming home that night I spent most of the time locked in my room holding the locket he got me for my birthday a week ago..My mom didnt talk for months she stayed locked in her room crying not thinking that her little girl was out in a big house lonely and taking care of herself...After 2 months had passed by,I came to the conclusion that my mother didnt care about me,and if she did she sure had a lousy way of showing it!!I dont mind being egnored anymore seen how thats all she does,is egnore me...
Well seven years have passed and I'm a big girl now,I have to get a job soon or I'll be stuck in these nasty clothes...I have atleast 5 holes in each pair of my jeans and my tenneshoes dont do me any good anymore I might as well go barefoot...And my socks,uhhh lets not even talk about them...
Today I go to get my drivers license,you'd think I would be excited just like every other 16 year old,but Im not,its just a card,and well I enjoy walking,Besides my boyfriend and best friend usually drive me around...

I walked downstairs to find some of my mothers clothes.I grabbed a Black V-neck tanktop and some tight jeans,she never wears them,but I certainly dont want to be caught with them.But I figured it was worth the risk,cause I didnt want to show up looking trashy..
I just couldnt get caught wearing them,and if you do then thats when you duck and run to your room and lock the door...My mother is very abusive when it comes to you bothingering her or her things..Me and her fight all the time,She hollers and screams at me and throws things at me,it doesnt matter what it is, whatever is in front of her she grabs and throws it at you,one time it was a vase,I got a piece of glass stuck in my shoulder..Thank goodness my best friends mom helped me...Shes like my adopted mother,I stay over there sometimes,she said I could stay anytime and you would think after 5 years I would be comfortable with staying there But I feel like I get in the way and Im imposing,which Im not but I feel like it.Cause I'm just that way!!
I made my way back upstairs to my room and closed the door and looked in the mirror to see,A tan Skinny girl,with dark sea blue eyes and long dark brown hair thats almost black and its layered and kind of choppy-ish,and a soft perfect face,She had on Pink,Blue,And limegreen polka dotted sweat pants,with a black cami.As I looked in the mirror I sighed and said,
"Here goes nothing"
And put on the clothes,Which looked rather good on me...I went over to my bed and pulled up the covers half making my bed,then picked up the dirty clothes off the floor and threw them into the clothes basket...I walked out my door and into the hallway and down to the bathroom..I picked up the brush and ran it through my hair a few times..Then I picked up my tooth brush and tooth paste and brushed my white pearly teeth,which was probally what made me look half way decent seen how I wasnt pretty,Well atleast I didnt think so,But other people would say I'm pretty, but whatever...After brushing my teeth I picked up a limegreen make-up bag and pulled out some mascara,eyeliner,and pink lip gloss...As I looked in the mirror and put them on I thought to myself
"Man do I look so much better"
I shoved all the stuff back in the bag and shoved it in a drawer then walked out of the bathroom turning the light off on the way out,I peeked over the rail downstairs to make sure mom wasnt awake...I walked back in my room,My room was a dark royal red,with A black door and window frames and such...I have posters of my favorite bands hanging on my wall,and of course pictures of me and my boyfriend,and I have a special corner for my best friend,theres pictures of her 16 birthday and of us and all of our sleepovers..
"Ahh what great times",
I thought to myself while looking at them.
I sat down on the bed and looked at my watch and it said "11:45" I sighed and got off the bed and grabbed my purse off the dresser and grabbed the key to my room which I kept under a brick in my wall,I cut a hole in my wall and placed the brick in it.I locked my door and closed it quietly..I quietly made my way downstair and into the living room,thank goodness she wasnt sitting in her rocking chair..I walked to the door and slipped on her Black VAN's..I loved them they were comfortable and my style!!And they were much better than my old shoes...I opened the door and walked out onto the porch closing the door behind me..As I turned around I seen Adam pull up,Adam is my boyfriend,Hes 5'9,and has the most beautiful green eyes,his hair is black,short and spiked ,Hes skinny and I swear his face was carved by angels...
I walked up to his green convertable mustang and got in,He looked at me and said
"Hey Beautiful,how are you doing today??"
I closed the door then turned and looked into his gorgeous eyes and said
"Hey sweetheart,Im doing ok,how are you doing??"
"Im doing alright"

When we got to the end of the drive way he told me to fasten my seat belt,and he cranked up the music..Before I knew it we were traveling up the country road going 80,I watched as he turned each curve carefully..I thought to my self I should be atleast a little scared considering he always almosts flips the car,but I wasnt,I didnt know why but I just wasnt,I never was even the first time he took me,I've become so used to it that if someone travels 50 it gets on my nerves something fierce..
As we pulled into town he slowed down to about 60,I was amazed when he told me that he's never gotten a speeding ticket.We traveled up the city streets,watching as the people and little stores passed by till he stopped and turned into a parking lot he drove me up to the door of the DMV and got out and opened my door for me..He wrapped his perfect arms around me and gave me a kiss on the fore head,
"Good luck hun,I love you!"
I smiled and said
"Thank you,and thank you for bringing me!"
"Sure thing,anytime"
As I walked to the door and put my hand on the handle I turned around and said
"I love you Adam"
He smiled a perfect smile,
"I love you too Arianna"

I watched as he drove away and disapeared into the big city.I turned toward the door and sighed.
As I opened the door I felt a rush of cold air and felt a shiver go down my spine..I walked up to the desk and told the lady my name and all that and she showed me in to take my test..I passed!! I was kinda excited,but as I said before its just a card I prefer walking or riding with Adam..As I walked out of the DMV,I watched as a police officer pulled up.he hollared out,
"Are you Arianna Gornette??"
I looked at him in astonishment,and thought,
"What did I do?" and then said,
"Yes sir,I am!"
He just stood there and frowned,he looked like he was going to cry and was having trouble saying what he was about to say..He finally got up the nerve to speak and said,

"Miss,I-I dont know how to say this,but I might as well get it over with,Miss,Adam Crater died,He was at a local restraunt while it was being robbed and the person they were after was right beside him and they shot and missed him hittingAdam in the chest breaking his ribs and causing him too loose alot of blood we tryed to save him but it was too late.He told me to find you and tell you that you can have everything of his that ou want and he has given his mustang to you,He said to also tell you that he loves you very much and always has!"

As I stood there i felt the tears falling down my face,I didnt move,I didnt blink,I could barely breath.I felt myself falling and before I knew it,I landed on the pavement I felt as my head hit the ground and bounced back up and hit again almost as hard as the first time,I felt blood running down my arm but i couldnt move to see what happened,I could here the officer in the back ground hollaring,
"Are you ok miss,Miss can you hear me?"