December 1st, 2003
Hi my name is Fay. This is the very first time I'm writing in a diary, I got this diary to write down all of my thoughts and feelings I would normally tell to a best friend, but clearly I haven't got one, so you are J Let me tell you about today,
It's this time of the year; the time of the blood race, where all Vampires from around the world gather to our Queen Rose. Not that I really have anything to do with it all since I am not considered a Vampire, my dad and mom are both purebloods, however, I don't belong to this family, I never met my biological parents soooo yeah. . . But hey, I like this pair just as much as I would like my real parents J
My Dad usually likes to drag me along with him and mom to the blood race because they want to believe I am a Vampire, but the thing that always got me to think was, the blood race is only for Vampires, if I'm not a Vampire then why do I have to go? Oh here comes mom, talk to ya later bye!
"Sweetie, how is writing in your diary going for you?" asked mom,
"Well, for starters I think it's quite exciting, it's like talking to the friend I never had. . . Except it wont talk back to me."
Mom chuckled, "Oh honey, tomorrow is your first day at a new school, who knows; maybe you'll find 'the friend you never had'".
"I hope so mom. So did you want something?"
"Ah yes, I came up to tell you, your father wants you to get dressed for the Blood Race, we'll be leaving in half an hour."
Even though I hadn't forgotten about it, when she reminded me it completely ruined my mood. This would be my first year not going if I didn't go, truth is, I was afraid to ask to stay but every cell in my brain told me to stay this year, for some reason I got a really bad feeling about it. I spoke up by saying, "Mom . . . Uh…" but I couldn't get the words to come out of my mouth. Mom stood there staring at me waiting for me to talk, it was so hard, I didn't know why they always wanted me to go but I felt like if I didn't go this time, I would really be letting them down, but then again I had to follow my instincts, and they told me I shouldn't go, so I tried once again, "Mom I don't want to go to the Vampire Race" I said it boldly and fast then expected a scolding but mom stood there for a second as if she didn't want to believe what she had just heard but then she shook away the thought and smiled then said, "You… you don't want to go to the Blood Race?"
I replied to her in a lower voice, "No mom." Mom lifted her head up and smiled brightly, then mumbled under her breath "Well of course you don't" It was so low she thought I didn't hear but I did, then she spoke up and said, "Oh it's okay sweetie, why were you so hesitant to just speak up and say you didn't want to go? Don't worry, if your dad gives you permission to stay; I have no problem. Let me go down and talk to him about it, okay?"
"Alright mom." I got the feeling like Dad wasn't just going to shake his head and say yes.
Mother walked down the stairs in haste, and Fay watched her from the top, as soon as mother reached the bottom Fay ran tip toed down behind her. Mother walked to the kitchen to where Father was and Fay followed behind her, she stopped at the door of the kitchen and listened carefully to what they were saying.
Mother looked down in dismay and said, "Henry, this stage has finally come."
Henry stopped chopping the fresh meat and washed his hands, then he dried them on a kitchen cloth and turned to Mother, "What do you mean Mary?"
"Oh Henry, you know what I mean! Fay is growing up and the urge to stay home is getting stronger, I could see it in her eyes… She's figuring it out slowly."
Fay couldn't hear clearly so she took one step closer to the door but that was a mistake. Henry paused then motioned for Mary to be quiet, he listened carefully, then walked silently to the door and saw Fay standing there eavesdropping, he raised an eyebrow and Fay stood there awkwardly, busted. "Tell me Fay, were you eavesdropping?" Mary ran out the kitchen and stood beside Henry shocked and said, "Oh my! Fay! How could you. . ."
Oh no, stupid Fay! How could you possibly think of eavesdropping on VAMPIRES for god's sake! No what am I gonna do!? Think, think, think!
"No. . . " Fay swallowed a huge lump and tried to speak but she was too terrified of the disappointed and shocked stares of her parents, she tried again, "I-I didn't mean to, please! I'm sorry." Henry looked at Mary and she looked back, they stared at each other for a second then shook their head, Henry turned to Fay and inhaled folding his arms, then exhaled and said, "It's ok Fay, but please don't repeat it again, and you're coming to the assembly with us; go get ready now." Fay stood there staring at his back while he walked away along with Mary. I could feel dad's anger in his voice and his eyes, ugh stupid Fay! What have you done. Before the tear could fall from Fay's eye, she quickly wiped her cheek, ran upstairs and slammed her door shut; she threw herself on her bed and pulled out her diary from under her mattress,
I screwed up! I shouldn't have done it, but I really felt like I had to go down there and listen to what mom was going to say to dad, and I SCREWED up!!!!! Why… why did I have to, if only I hadn't done it, dad was so angry with me and mom was sad, I eavesdropped and I got caught, I was extremely quiet, but somehow dad still heard me, must've been a vampire thing.
If only you could talk and give me some kind of advice or tell me a word or two to make me feel better… yeah.. I'm dreaming. I'm gonna go to this dumb race thing and then come home and sit right here and talk to you all night long, let me go get dressed.