I pulled into Heartwood Home's and was unimpressed by the place.
It was like all other nursing homes I'd been too; cheerful but
dull. Enough to convince me that I had made the right decision by
keeping my pill with me at all times, so if the time came, I
could die painlessly and not have to suffer the horrors of a
The grass was unnaturally green and a chain link fence surrounded
the whole building. It was a brick, one story and in the back
were bright tulips and plastic benches. A tennis court was being
occupied by two old men and a nurse wheeled around a smoker while
talking animatedly on her phone.
I walked in the automatic doors and waited patiently for the
nurse at the front desk to buzz me in. I walked in, pasted on my
best fake smile, and told her I had a great aunt here.
She let me through with only the words that visiting hours ended
at four. I glanced at my watch; I had a little over two hours.
I walked through the recreational room without stopping. The
people that hung out in those rooms, I had found, usually weren't
close enough to death. Also, the fact that they were social was
something I didn't want to deal with. It usually meant they had
family and they felt that interacting with modern people was
good. I was looking for someone special. I wanted to find someone
that kept to themselves and was lonely. I wanted someone with a
certain air that said they felt they were better;
materialistically if nothing else.
So I walked down the halls purposefully, I passed rooms that were
empty and glanced into rooms that weren't. I had to have good
judgment, because to walk into a room meant that you would be
there for a few hours probably. People loved to talk.
At the end of the third hall I was walking down, I found her. She
was sitting in an office chair staring out the window. Her room
was near empty, but it was only hers, she didn't share it. The
few possessions she did have were evidence that she had a decent
On her nightstand was a white porcelain jewelry box with purple
jewels on the outside. She had a blue and gold painted teapot
that looked very fragile right next to it.
There was one wooden shelf on the wall in which she had five
different dolls. Each one must have cost her a pretty penny and
were, I would find out, from five different continents.
So, taking a deep breath I walked up to the door and knocked
quietly on it in three quick taps. She didn't turn her head, she
simply said, "What do you want?"
I smiled and walked in, "Hello, I'm Adilynn McGregor. I was
wondering if you'd like to visit."
"Go away," came her husky voice.
I walked closer and touched her shoulder, she visibly flinched,
"Ma'm are you sure?"
"You're all the same, I won't tell you."
Now I was confused and I made sure it was evident in my voice, "I
don't understand, I just want to talk,"
Now she turned around and I gasped slightly at her.
Her face had scars crisscrossed on it, her hair was bright red
and her right eye was red while her left was blue. But the scars
on her face were what got to me, perfectly crossed, like someone
had really taken the time to do it perfectly.
"You still don't understand?" she asked gravely.