Taking the bus to school was something I wasn’t used to. I never had to take the bus before, mainly because I’d always had a ride. Before I started dating Jed, my father brought me to school. But a couple summers ago, he got a new job that changed his hours.
I was sitting next to Sophia. She’s never ridden the bus either. She had her headphones in and so did I. The kids on the bus were very immature, not to mention they were extremely loud.
We were the last two stops on the way to the school. It was a crazy ride, but we made it there without hitting anyone. I walked with Sophia into the building before she veered off in a different direction. I headed straight for my locker.
I stood there and dialed the combination. I pulled the door open and I could see the familiar pictures on the inside. I looked at Jed’s senior pictures that he gave me at the beginning of the year. I felt a tear come to my eye as I stared at his adorable face.
“Hey there Ava. How are you doing today?”
I turned around to see Marshall standing behind me. The tear vanished. “What the hell do you want?” I turned back to my locker and fished out a few books that I needed for the first few classes before lunch.
He cleared his throat. “I just wanted to come say hi to you before Carter showed up.”
I snickered. “Let me guess, you have to act all tough and irritating when Carter’s around huh?”
“Kinda. If I don’t then he tells Fredrik, and then he punishes me in ways that I don’t even want to describe.”
I looked back at him over my shoulder and he was smiling at me. “Well I’m sorry you have to deal with that.” I scanned my locker for anything else I was missing. “If you can’t tell, I’m in a crappy mood today so I would ask for you and Butthead to leave me alone today. Although I know Butthead isn’t going to.”
He chuckled. “I will try my best Ava. I’m sorry if Carter makes me do something to upset you.”
I smiled to myself as he walked away from me. I held the books in my arms as I stared off into space.
*What is going on with you Ava?*
*I don’t know. Why are you asking?*
*I thought you hated those boys.*
*Then why are you starting to like Marshall?*
*I don’t like him!*
*That is so not true.*
*Get out of my head.*
*If I get out of your head Ava, you’ll die.*
*I guess…I like him because he’s actually being nice to me. I mean, if it weren’t for him, I would probably be living at Fredrik’s house right now.*
*Ava likes Marshall, Ava likes Marshall!*
*Hey inner mind….*
*Shut the hell up!*
Just then, my books were smacked out of my hands. I whipped my hair back to see Carter standing next to me. “Carter what the hell?” I bent down to pick up my books when he put his foot down on them.
“Carter remove your foot!” I punched at his foot until finally he moved it.
“Jeez, someone’s on edge today,” he laughed.
I grabbed my books off of the tiled hallway floor and I stood back up. “Really Carter? You expect me to be in a good mood after all the shit you’ve put me through? You really are an idiot.”
“Seriously Ava calm the fuck down.”
I turned back towards my locker, placing the books back into my bag. “Get away from me Carter.”
He chuckled. “Come on, stop being so mad at me.”
“Carter if you don’t leave in five seconds I’m going to punch you in the face.”
He stood there. I could still feel his presence after I finished putting my books in my bag. I grabbed the bag from my locker and I slammed the door.
I turned back to face him, scowling. He chuckled at me. “You know Ava, you could seriously stop being a bitch at any time.”
I couldn’t hold back anymore. I clenched my fist and I decked him straight in the face, hitting him on the side of the nose.
He dropped down to the ground. I could see small red droplets coming from his hand. He was clutching his nose. Damn!
*Way to go Ava.*
*Shut the hell up. He deserved it! After everything he’s done to me, he still remains an asshole!*
*You shouldn’t be like that.*
*You shouldn’t be contradicting me.*
I lifted the bag onto my shoulder and took off down the hallway. Shortly after, I was clotheslined. I fell to the ground right in front of the doorway to the Girl’s Bathroom.
I looked up and of course, it was Marshall…just after I had been getting to like him a little more.
“I’m so sorry Ava! I didn’t even see you!”
He held out his hand and I grabbed it, slowly getting to my feet. “What the hell are you doing over here?”
“I’m waiting for Bridget. She’s in the bathroom right now.”
I almost forgot…. He was still “dating” Bridget even though he didn’t really like her.
I looked over at my scattered books and I scrambled them together. I shoved them back in my bag.
“Well, well, well.” I could hear Bridget’s cold shrill voice behind me. I finished gathering my books and then turned to walk away, but she grabbed me by the arm. “Where the hell do you think you’re going?”
I rolled my eyes and then turned to face her. “Bridget if you don’t let go of my arm, then you’re gonna get punched in the face. I’m not in the mood to deal with you today.”
“Why not? You were able to slap my boyfriend across the face for no reason.”
“Bridget I already told you, they aggravated me and I warned them, but they continued to irritate the hell out of me.”
“Yeah, like I haven’t heard that one before.” She rolled her eyes and finally released me. She folded her arms across her chest. “Seriously Ava, I don’t ever want to see you around my Marshy ever again.”
I couldn’t help but laugh. She would be one of those girls who has a stupid pet name for her boyfriend. Marshy? Are you kidding me?
“What the hell are you laughing at?”
I looked her straight in the face as I finally stopped laughing…. “Bridget, why on earth couldn’t you come up with a better pet name? Marshy? Are you kidding me?”
I turned and ran back down the hallway, remembering that I had previously punched Carter in the face…making his nose bleed. I really hope I didn’t break his nose. I had enough things to worry about.
*You punched someone in the face today…*
*Yeah I know I did.*
*Why’d you do it?*
*What do you mean why? It’s Carter and he called me a bitch.*
*But you know you like him too. He’s also a cutie.*
“I just need to calm down. That’s all I need right now,” I said to myself as I walked down the front steps of the school. The fresh air felt good. The day hasn’t even started and I’m already forcing myself to leave the school grounds. I’ve never actually skipped a day of school before in my life. Who was I becoming?
*Ava you know you have to face him sooner or later.*
*Carter. He’s not going to be happy with you.*
*When has he ever been?*
*You made matters worse for yourself.*
*He’s going to be more aggressive towards you.*
*…I guess you have a point.* I continued walking in the sunshine until I came to my street. A large cloud passed overhead. I looked up, and I could see the storm clouds beginning to form above me. I’ve never seen anything like it…. It’s strange.
*What are you going to do Ava? You can’t run forever.*
*I don’t know what I’m going to do yet. But hey….*
*Can you shut up now?*