The moment I opened the door, the sheer force of the cold wind slammed into my body, sending me stumbling backwards. I righted myself and let my body adjust to the harsh conditions. I was so high up that I had to take several deep breaths to prevent myself from fainting due to lack of oxygen.
I took a slight step forward, empowered by my final decision. I saw the city's lights all around me, creating a blurry glow that I could see from the corners of my vision. I knew how dangerous what I was doing was, and yet I pressed on anyways, stepping forward more and more until at last, I was standing on the edge of the tallest building in the city, staring down 70 stories to the dark, wet pavement.
The crowds below looked like massive swirls from this perspective. They all moved around, people doing various errands and partying all night, completely unaware of what I was about to do. They all had lives, they wouldn't care about one more life lost, especially if it was a stranger they had never met.
I had accepted my death because the world would be better off without me. I was worthless, just going through the motions. I didn't matter to anyone.
I knew that I didn't have much time. I said my final goodbyes, and on a whisper of a prayer, I picked up my right foot, sliding it forward into the air.
"STOP!" came the loud screech from behind me, followed by the frantic footsteps. I opened my eyes and turned around to face my beautiful Rina. It almost broke my heart. Black lines of mascara ran down her face, the tears that she had shed evident because they were still falling. She was in her sweatpants and a t-shirt, an outfit that I knew she would never leave the house in unless it was an emergency.
She held out the piece of paper I had left for her, shaking it in her fist. "What the hell is this?" she hissed. I stepped down from the ledge. "Four years and all you leave me is a piece of paper? I gave you my heart." Tears flew down her cheeks and I had to stop myself from running to her.
"I can't do this anymore, Rina. I'm completely done. I lost my job, my apartment, my family, everything. I can't manage to keep going. I don't matter to anyone anymore" My voice cracked with despair and Rina looked even more upset, if that was possible.
"You didn't lose me," she said softly, stepping forward. "Don't do this. You matter to me, you are the most important thing to me. We can get you some help. We can get through this together. Forever, like we promised."
"I can't…Rina. I'm too far gone." I turned away, prepared to step onto the ledge again, when her voice rang out one last time.
"Do you remember the first day we met?" she asked tentatively.
"Well, do you?" Her voice was cool, relaxed. She didn't want to scare me off.
"Of course I do," I replied. The memories came flooding back.
"We were twenty-two. I remember seeing you in the club and thinking, wow, she's the most beautiful thing I've ever seen." I smiled at the memory, and Rina smiled back, even through her tears.
"You asked me to dance." She sounded far-away now, as if she had transported herself back to that night. "It still is the best dance I've ever had. But you never asked for my name."
"I chased you all over the city that night. I told my friends that you were my one, that it was love at first sight. They thought I had gone insane."
"You found me behind my apartment building. You saved my life. That mugger had his gun pressed to my neck."
"We've been together ever since." She was perfect, and I remembered why I fell in love with her. I wasn't so sure I could leave her anymore. I took a step towards her, and she held out a hand. Her fingernails were painted bright red, like fire, yet her hand was ice cold as I took it in mine.
She gazed up at me. Her eyes were a striking dark brown, and they pierced straight into mine. "We can do this, Jessie. You have to believe me. I can't lose you."
"It'll be hard," I said seriously. I wasn't as positive
"I know," she admitted. "But true love conquers all, doesn't it?"
Suddenly, I knew why I had been a colossal idiot. Looking down at Rina, I saw my entire future in her eyes. I would finally get the happiness that I had been craving because it was simply waiting for me to reach out and take it. I pulled Rina to me, sliding my arms around her waist.
"I can't leave you, Rina. I don't know how I would surive without you. I don't know what I was thinking."
"I feel the same way. I need you like I need air to breathe. I can't do the rest of my life without you."
"You'll always love me," I whispered, my lips inches away from claiming hers.
"I could never stop," she replied softly. I pressed my lips to hers, a whisper of a kiss. I finally knew I was going to be okay.
At last, the moment came when I realized how amazing my life was to have someone like Rina in it. I figured out that no matter what kind of ledge I stood on, I could count on her to be there and pull me back. She was my savior, because she saved me from making a huge mistake that night.
"Was it worth saving me?" I asked, breathless as I pulled away.
"I'd save you every day if it meant I never had to lose you." Her smile could have lit up the sun, and I knew I was the luckiest man in the world.
*Authors Note- This piece won second place in sparrow01's iPod Contest with the song Savin' Me by Nickelback.