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Booksie Address: http://www.booksie.com/todeszellen91
Country: United States
Favorite book: TWILIGHT!!!!! >.>
Member Since: May 23, 2008

Featured Writing

Fucking Empty

Poem by todeszellen91
Posted: Aug 15, 2010
maybe i have bipolar disorder, i don't know where this...
Tags:dying, love, pain, alone, empty, haunting

smoke 'em if you got 'em

Poem by todeszellen91
Posted: Feb 8, 2009
well...

Handprints?

Poem by todeszellen91
Posted: Feb 8, 2009
Handprints? what?

--untitled--

Poem by todeszellen91
Posted: Feb 7, 2009
well here we go again...

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the Hotel

Short Story by todeszellen91
Posted: Jul 20, 2008
i thought id give a shot a t a little horror story. ^^...
Tags:hotel

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The Power Plant

Novel by todeszellen91
Posted: Jul 15, 2008
this is a dream i had last night.
Tags:love, power, plant, rachel, power plant

my pathetic attempt at poetry at 1:00 in the morning

Poem by todeszellen91
Posted: Jun 5, 2008
she was tired of hearing ppl tell her happy birthday, and...
Tags:humor, love, girlfriend, happy birthday

Writing Portfolio

Fucking Empty

Poem by todeszellen91
Posted: Aug 15, 2010
maybe i have bipolar disorder, i don't know where this...

smoke 'em if you got 'em

Poem by todeszellen91
Posted: Feb 8, 2009
well...

Handprints?

Poem by todeszellen91
Posted: Feb 8, 2009
Handprints? what?

--untitled--

Poem by todeszellen91
Posted: Feb 7, 2009
well here we go again...

what is there

Poem by todeszellen91
Posted: Dec 14, 2008
sometimes i get so depressed for no reason. then i write...

plus and minus

Poem by todeszellen91
Posted: Oct 9, 2008
so this is for her, but i wont ask her to read it. i owe...

poor confused child

Poem by todeszellen91
Posted: Aug 10, 2008
this is one of my crappy attempts at emo poetry i kno...

the Hotel

Short Story by todeszellen91
Posted: Jul 20, 2008
i thought id give a shot a t a little horror story. ^^...

The Power Plant

Novel by todeszellen91
Posted: Jul 15, 2008
this is a dream i had last night.

The Cask of Amontillado by Edgar Allen Poe

Short Story by todeszellen91
Posted: Jul 14, 2008
this is my fav. short story ever. i love Poe.

nothing left (without you)

Poem by todeszellen91
Posted: Jul 3, 2008
to my loyal fans... hope you enjoy XD

...for you

Poem by todeszellen91
Posted: Jun 25, 2008
if you're reading this and you think it might be written...

that i hate

Poem by todeszellen91
Posted: Jun 16, 2008
*yay depression*

i hate myself

Poem by todeszellen91
Posted: Jun 16, 2008
depression is a worderful thing

forever and ever

Poem by todeszellen91
Posted: Jun 16, 2008
i hate being depressed for no reason

Saw

Novel by todeszellen91
Posted: Jun 14, 2008
this is my first attempt at a "novel." so i know its...

Drug Test

Short Story by todeszellen91
Posted: Jun 12, 2008
a funny story abut a drug test

smile back

Poem by todeszellen91
Posted: Jun 6, 2008
love and death

bullet

Poem by todeszellen91
Posted: Jun 6, 2008
more music

en mis ojos

Poem by todeszellen91
Posted: Jun 6, 2008
more band stuff

black heart

Poem by todeszellen91
Posted: Jun 6, 2008
this is meant for my band eventually, like most my other...

my pathetic attempt at poetry at 1:00 in the morning

Poem by todeszellen91
Posted: Jun 5, 2008
she was tired of hearing ppl tell her happy birthday, and...



My name is Joel. I am now too old to still be moping over dumb shit that happened three years ago, but here I am, posting all this bullshit. And for what? So that other children that feel like I do can say "Wow! That's exactly how I feel?" NO. Fuck that.

I suppose the only reason I post any of this shit is to make myself miserable, so that I have a legitimate reason to wallow in self-hate. Every time I get on this goddamn website something inside me hopes that she actually cares, and that maybe she read that I still care too. Of course we were always just too polar opposite to ever work out. There was no way in hell that she would have tolerated me for more than six months, but at least I then would have had those six months of bliss. The only thing I have to hold on to now is just one day, just the one day that I will never forget. To me, you will always be that lovable, innocent, beautiful girl from that day, I will cherish those memories forever, never letting go, never giving up hope that one day fate will work in my favor, and that one day, I could perhaps experience that joy again. This is the only thing that drives me, that keeps me going when I wake up every morning. That and the drugs.

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