What does she want me to be? A zombie?
I know as the eldest I have to be the responsible one. Yes, I can do that. I've been working my ass out for my family and my only stress reliever is to open my Facebook account and see what's new w/ my relatives and friends. And she doesn't even want me to do that. I know we don't have our own computer, and I have to rent one. But does she even have to take that away from me?
Now I can't even laugh my heart out at home, 'cause I might wake up our tenants. Makes me think she cared about them more than she cared about me.
I wanted to tell her I'm not a zombie, a robot or a puppet. I'm her daughter. And as much as I wanted to leave her and live on my own, I can't. Because I love her. And leaving her would be like betraying her . But I can't go on living like this. I feel like I'm only her money maker. I'm stressed-out, suffocated and not happy.
What do I do?