I feel like I will never get out of depression, and the sadness just feels too overwhelming. I wanted to change my thoughts and become more positive, but it's easier said than done. Often, I just feel like life is meaningless and full of sadness and pain, so I wonder why I should go on. I feel like I just don't belong ...here. I feel so lonely. I barely have friends and most of the people I know, I don't feel as close to as I'd like to be. I'm trying to find happiness, but I don't know how, and I feel like I'll never get it. I smile in my pics, but most of the time I am just smiling for the camera when I'm actually sad inside. I try to achieve things or participate in things, but that still doesn't cure my sadness. I'm starting to lose hope, and I wish I could put an end to my misery or an end to my life. Most likely, I'd be too afraid to follow through with it, but I don't know how long I can live like this.