"I am so happy to hear Boo that you're staying confident in yourself and holding your head up high when times are tough. Can I say something? You are a true inspiration of mine, and I only wish the best for you in your studies and afterwards when you're adult Boo. I'm so proud of you, and how you've changed so much since I first met you. You've become stronger, and I think anyone that talks to you, can tell how grown up and a pretty young woman you are. ^_^ I love you soooooooo much<3"
When I get messages like that it honestly makes my day-^^^^^^ :>
This is all I want is to be that for somebody. It made my heart melt when I got this message. It makes me want to be stronger in who I am and it staying happier and trying my best. I do try to stay strong for her in general but this I wish I could explain it all in words but I can't. The reason I write and post it is because of that is because I want somebody to look up to me and think of me as something good, I want people to look at my stuff and gain something from it. Knowing this is just ughhh I wish you guys would know.
I am trying to get better I have had a lot happen this past week and I am not happy with who I am or who I have become. I want to be happy and I want cute things like relationship but I know I won't get the things I want unless I change. So I am trying to look up more and trying my best to stay happy as I can. I know I have done things that I am not proud of but they make me who I am today. I know that I need to change and I just need to stay focused on what I need out of life and what I want. So I'm just going to stay on working on trying to finish high school early like I have planned and get a job find somewhere to live other than my house then get my apartment J even if doesn't all work out that way I am still going to try my best to get it to and do everything I can.. I cant promise of getting close to people though that is going to take a lot of time, it has even become more clear to me how much I push people out of my life by not letting them in and by not wanting to get close, for now though I am just going to work on things the best I can. I just wanted to show because I know my darling stunning love reads my stuff on here and I want you guys to know that just little things or saying like this make me, make who I am. Help me , make me want to keep writing, make me feel like I am doing something write and even though she didn't make the comment because of my writing it still brings it back to that. I love you guys and I love you Hailey!!!