Absent

Do you blame me? because I do

All I do is think of all the what ifs?

What if I listened to you and didn't smoke?

What if I ate food instead of Junk?

Do you ever wonder what it would have been like? 

I do, all the time

Was it a girl or a boy?

Did it look like you are I?

I didn't think it was possible to love someone you never met

to miss someone you never realised was apart of  you

Would I have even wanted it if I didn't lose it?
Would you still be here if I didnt' lose it?

I feel like a jigsaw puzzle thats missing a peice

why can we never talk about it?

I know its my fault

but I can't keep doing this on my own