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Everything is against me! No one cares I'm just going to kill myself! Life is to hard and I'm just not strong enough anymore...

Submitted:Apr 14, 2013    Reads: 50    Comments: 2    Likes: 2   

No one cares, no one loves me. I'm all alone here. No one understands what's happening. No one wants to help me. They would rather me die, to disappear and never come back. I feel so hated, so unwanted. I'm so scared that I'm practically shaking all over. Nothing good ever comes to me. I wonder why...does anyone out there even love me? When I look down on life, and I try to get help, the only thing people say is "I love you and I care about you. Please don't die, please don't do anything stupid, there's tons of things in life out there. You'll find someone to love you one day." I'm sick of those answers. I'm sick of those people. They don't help at all. If it was true then why do I feel this way? Yeah, like a total stranger would love me. That's just not possible. Everyone's just saying that because they want to comfort me. Am I that pitiable? Am I that weak, so untreatable? All I want is to die. Just let me die. Please, I'm already dying on the inside. It hurts...so bad... so very bad... When I cut myself, it makes me feel good. Because no one caused that pain but myself. I done it. I can't blame someone else for that. I focus on myself, something no one else is willing to do. I want help, If I could I would... but I'm so scared to tell anyone. They just say I want attention. And I won't lie, I do. But the good kind, love. To feel like I belong and I'm wanted. But that's just it, I'm not. And the world has already proven that to me. One day, when I'm stronger, I'm going to make it to where no one will ever have to worry about me being around. Because I never will...


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