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Tumblr Blogl; ICanLieAboutI

Novel By: xXxYouKnowNothingxXx
True confessions


Tags: Pokemon, Red


Red goes and makes a blog for his real feelings, when people follow him he doesn't mind too much. He tries to keep it a secret from his friends.
Warning! Has: Suicidal thoughts, self-harm, character death and abuse! View table of contents...


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Submitted:Apr 12, 2013    Reads: 3    Comments: 0    Likes: 0   


A chat appeared on Red's screen.

DontNeedToBeFixed: Hey Red!
What's the matter?
Scared?
Mad?
Sad?
Suicidal?
TearsOfAnAngel: Go away.
DontNeedToBeFixed: So funny Red...
Do you know who I have my eyes set on?
TearsOfAnAngel: I have no idea.
But I have a feeling you're going to tell me.
DontNeedToBeFixed: Green.
TearsOfAnAngel: Stop.
Don't...
DontNeedToBeFixed left the chat.

Red stared at his screen. He had no idea what to do. Another chat appeared on Red's screen.

LastToKnow: Red...
I have to tell you something...
Please don't be mad at me...
TearsOfAnAngel: What is it Green?
LastToKnow: I'm leaving...
TearsOfAnAngel: You're leaving...?
What do you mean by that?
LastToKnow: I'm moving away...
To another region...
EverybodysFool joined the chat.
YourCall joined the chat.
FallingInTheBlack joined the chat.
NeverBeTheSame joined the chat.
YourCall
: WHAT?!
NeverBeTheSame: I come on to this?!
FallingInTheBlack: What is going on?
WhosWatchingMe joined the chat.
WhosWatchingMe
: ... ... ... ... ...
EverybodysFool: Green...
LastToKnow: This is goodbye everyone...
I loved you...
LastToKnow left the chat.
YourCall: COME BACK!!!
EverybodysFool: GREEN!!!
WhosWatchingMe: NO!!!
NeverBeTheSame: DON'T!!
FallingInTheBlack: THIS CAN'T BE HAPPENING!!!
TearsOfAnAngel: ... ... ...
EverybodysFool: Red?
You okay?
TearsOfAnAngel: ... ... ...
NeverBeTheSame: Well...
I'm out.
NeverBeTheSame left the chat.
FallingInTheBlack
: Same here.
FallingInTheBlack left the chat.
WhosWatchingMe left the chat.

EverybodysFool: Great...
Red why won't you answer?
Red?
Red?
Are you still up?
You know what?
I give up.
EverybodysFool left the chat.
YourCall
: I understand that Green was your friend...
And rival...
I don't know what I would do if I lost Silver...
TearsOfAnAngel: ... ... ...
YourCall: Message me on Tumblr if you want to...
Or I could message you on Tumblr.
Or I could message you using MSN.
TearsOfAnAngel: ... ... ...
I would like that...
... ... ...

Golden-Eyed-Breeder asked you:
Hiya Red. Tell me what you want. Unless you wish to speak via email. Either way I'm here for you.

ICanLieAboutI
I just feel so upset. I can't understand why Green is leaving. He's my best friend and I understand that I do resent him a bit but I still do care for him a lot. I don't want to lose him.

Golden-Eyed-Breeder replied to your post: Don't worry about it Red. Everything will work out.

|Golden-Eyed-Breeder replied to your post: Don't worry about it Red. Everything will work out.

Gold you don't understand. I sometimes feel like I need Green to find meaning in my life. Without him I'm nothing.

Golden-Eyed-Breeder reblogged your post and added: So? And? Ever if I lost Silver I would freak out. But I'd get over it with it...

|ICanLieAboutI
|Golden-Eyed-Breeder replied to your post: Don't worry about it Red. Everything will work out.
|Gold you don't understand. I sometimes feel like I need Green to find meaning in my life. Without him I'm nothing.

So? And? If I lost Silver I would freak out. But I'd get over it with time. I'd cry to Crystal and maybe even mope around for a few days before finally letting it go. I'd maybe even decide to stop training with my partners. Either way I would get over it and move on with my life. You need to move on with your life Red. Get over yourself, get over Green.

Red let out a low growl. Gold just didn't understand. It wasn't as easy as that. Getting over Green wouldn't be possible. Tumblr was too open. Email was much easier.

To: GoldIsAmazing101@hotmail.ca
From: RedIsMyMaster@hotmail.ca
Subject: You Just Don't Get It
You're an idiot. I'm so disappointed with you. I thought that you of all people would understand me and my problems at the moment. I'm angry with Green yet I love him. You're in love with Silver it's plain to see you idiot. Just understand that I cannot get over Green so easily.

To: RedIsMyMaster@hotmail.ca
From: GoldIsAmazing101@hotmail.ca
Subject: Re: You Just Don't Get It
W-what?! What the hell are you saying?! I'm not in love with Silver!! He's my rival and nothing more. Red-Senpai you must be confused. Now anyway, back to what matters. You have to get over Green. It's not that hard. Just get busy with other things and don't bother to even explain shit unless you need to. Or I could just hang out with you until you feel better. It's your choice Red.

To: GoldIsAmazing101@hotmail.ca
From: RedIsMyMaster@hotmail.ca
Subject: Re: You Just Don't Get It
Say what you want to say. I can read your face easily. You like him. Don't bother denying it. Just go for it and I'm sure it'll be fine. Silver does care about you. What's this? You'd be willing to hang out with me? Now I don't think you should do that Gold. I'm much too depressing to be around. I just do not understand how Green can stand me. You just wouldn't be much help.

To: RedIsMyMaster@hotmail.ca
From: GoldIsAmazing101@hotmail.ca
Subject: Re: You Just Don't Get It
I don't like him! Don't say that! Silver doesn't care about anyone but himself and Blue. He's just so stuck up and annoying. but still a great rival. Of course I'd hang out with you. You're my Senpai! I'd do anything to help you out. I don't care if you're depressing. Everyone has a side of them that they don't want others to see.

To: GoldIsAmazing101@hotmail.ca
From: RedIsMyMaster@hotmail.ca
Subject: Re: You Just Don't Get It
Don't deny your feelings. If you leave it be for too long it will be too late before long. Just go for it. I may be your Senpai but I'm not that good. What would you know about people's secret sides? Do you have one yourself?

To: RedIsMyMaster@hotmail.ca
From: GoldIsAmazing101@hotmail.ca
Subject: Re: You Just Don't Get It
Ugh. Stop being so stupid. Of course I know about people's secret sides. It's not that hard to understand that. How else do people like Silver evolve their Pokemon? Do I have my own secret side? Why does that matter. It's for me to know and for you to find out~

To: GoldIsAmazing101@hotmail.ca
From: RedIsMyMaster@hotmail.ca
Subject: Re: You Just Don't Get It
Stop being so retarded Gold. It's not nice. Maybe I don't want to find out. Maybe I just want to know if you're like me. How people like Silver evolve their Pokemon is their business. Don't stick your nose in places you shouldn't. Just get over it and do something else.

To: RedIsMyMaster@hotmail.ca
From: GoldIsAmazing101@hotmail.ca
Subject: Re: You Just Don't Get It
You really aren't the boss of me. So you can't tell me what to do Senpai. It was fun while it lasted. Just do what you think is right. No one can tell you otherwise. What you do is your own business if it helps you than no one should stop you. Just understand that suicide isn't the answer. It just makes other people worried about you and stuff. Don't go down that dark road. Go where it's much better, stay with friends and don't ever look back. In the end you will do just fine. Everything will be alright. Now I have to go. Mom's calling me again.

To: GoldIsAmazing101@hotmail.ca
From: RedIsMyMaster@hotmail.ca
Subject: Re: You Just Don't Get It
... ... ... Okay than... Have fun... I never really expected you do say such deep things. I understand that you know what it is like. But maybe you should take your own advice. Not that I'm saying you need to move on with your life. I think you are very smart for an annoying kid. Your mom is always calling you when the chat gets good. Talk to you later Gold.

Red sighed and shut down his computer. He stared out the window and sighed. Gold had been down a dark path before, his own rival had left and he couldn't handle it. Yet still the youth was denying his feelings and pretending that everything was fine. A mask. That's what the two Dexholders had in common. They both wore masks when they were with others.





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