Waking Up Screaming

Waking Up Screaming

Ouch, I can’t believe it.

You of all people

Tried to kill me

Do you even remember me?

Maybe you don’t.

History will tell you that I am a monster

Stories are told about how I cut myself

How I’ve tried to kill myself more than twice

How hard I’ve tried to be loved

But have been cut at every turn.

I would be a liar to say I didn’t do those things

Of course I did

But remember something about history

Winners always write the books known by everyone.

I’m a loser,

So my voice will never be heard.

For as long as I can remember

I’ve been cut down

Beaten, lied to

And left for dead

What makes you think I’ll trust you or anyone again?

Why do you think I’m locking my heart up?
It’s to keep out the people who hurt me the most

I’ve been called Worthless,

Good for nothing,

Crazy,

Retarded,

Unwanted,

Unloved,

Forgotten,

Liar,

A mere insect waiting to be killed

So why not, just do it.

Go ahead, kill me.

I can’t take this anymore.

You’ve wounded me

Now finish me.

Because if you don’t

I’ll never give in.

I will never surrender.

And to every single person,

Who turned me into this monster.

I hope you are lying in bed at night dreaming of me,

And waking up screaming.

Meet what you have created….