Waking Up Screaming
Ouch, I can’t believe it.
You of all people
Tried to kill me
Do you even remember me?
Maybe you don’t.
History will tell you that I am a monster
Stories are told about how I cut myself
How I’ve tried to kill myself more than twice
How hard I’ve tried to be loved
But have been cut at every turn.
I would be a liar to say I didn’t do those things
Of course I did
But remember something about history
Winners always write the books known by everyone.
I’m a loser,
So my voice will never be heard.
For as long as I can remember
I’ve been cut down
Beaten, lied to
And left for dead
What makes you think I’ll trust you or anyone again?
Why do you think I’m locking my heart up?
It’s to keep out the people who hurt me the most
I’ve been called Worthless,
Good for nothing,
A mere insect waiting to be killed
So why not, just do it.
Go ahead, kill me.
I can’t take this anymore.
You’ve wounded me
Now finish me.
Because if you don’t
I’ll never give in.
I will never surrender.
And to every single person,
Who turned me into this monster.
I hope you are lying in bed at night dreaming of me,
And waking up screaming.
Meet what you have created….