Wake up every morning, off to look in the mirror, gosh this is so boring, unsure whether to just scream or shed a tear, but i bottle it up and hide my fear. You look at my face looking constantly never stopping, but all i want to do is smash you, break you till you stop. I know what your thinking, ugly, fat you should just stop trying. But i carry on never ending i dont take shit from you, but then again i feel the same way, i look at myself and i just want to break down, close my eyes and never wake up, i do it constantly always thinking, my mind buzzing over and over, until finally it stops, you look at me i see you looking but then you look away, your just thinking the same thing, leading me on, making me believe it could happen one day, ive only ever had one wish and that was to look like them girls, the girls you drool over the girls you'd date the ones you'd kiss but not me, nah, im not your type am i? See everyone has feelings, even i admit nobody's perfect, honestly im hurting every day i hate myself, depression lingers over me like a big black cloud ready to strike any minute of any day. But i know i could stop it if only i had the strength and that would be you it sounds silly but its true. Thankyou.