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Falling in love with love

Poetry By: Haineko14
True confessions



Long story? A girl makes herself believe she's in love with someone when shes not, all because she just wants to be in love. Basically she messes up her one and only friendship she had, but her friend comes back. She soon realizes the love she was looking for was right in front of her the whole time. ( Longer version but I'm not going to ramble on a summary too much :P


Submitted:Feb 24, 2013    Reads: 39    Comments: 2    Likes: 2   


I want to fall in love.
So badly yet I still truly believe I'm not good enough
Just not right now.
I'm not ready to be hurt, to be used, to be loved
Again.

I want to fall in love.
So badly yet I still truly believe I'm not worth enough
I see others, surrounded by people who they cherish, and
I wish with all my heart I could be what they want me to be.

I want to fall in love.
So badly yet I still truly believe I haven't found you, and
Maybe I never will.
I see a boy; I used to know for a while
He was somewhat kind and had a nice enough smile
So I decided to hang out with him,
We had walked about a mile together in the isolated fields that are the countryside
When I realized maybe I could make myself believe in this lie?

I thinkā€¦

I fell in love.
So badly yet I still truly believe I'm not really ready
I look at myself in the mirror and ask myself
Am I happy?
By this time, I've made a friend who I care about,
We talk and laugh together at the time.
Just sometimes I feel like
I don't want to leave his side or look away from his deep blue eyes.
But, the other day
I told him the lie.
"I'm in love with that other guy!"
He believed me and laughed it off so cleanly
I felt the deep pain cleaving its way inside,
God why did I lie?

I know now,

I fell in love with love itself.
I'm not happy, I never will be
How can I be when my friend has now left me?
How did I feel excited inside by a dirty lie,
A lie I told myself,
This whole time and now
I want to know why,

I want to fall in love.
So badly yet I still truly believe I've made a mess of everything
Then the next day,
As if you knew I was bleeding, you came to save me,
My friend,
You talked and laughed with me again today
You smiled so beautifully I even thought I might give up completely and cry.
But, after some time I think I've come realize so much from my past mistakes
So when the time is right I'll try to open my wings and fly by your side and make sure you hear
My cry
"I love you, and only you!"

I've fallen in love.
So easily it scared me at first, but in the end
Even if you don't feel the same
I'll never lie to you again, but if I do
Please stay by my side until then.





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