Counselling Session 1 ~ Tuesday, 15th December 2012
Reluctant to discuss my past
No hesitation moved on fast
To chat about the here and now
As searched my deeply furrowed brow
Remained worried all the time
Muddled thoughts; compulsive rhyme
Dearly needed to clear mind
But peace appeared undefined
Tears fell involuntarily
Regularly; momentarily
Often didn’t recognise
Saltwater seeping from my eyes
Conscious of my anxious state
Impossible to relate
How I coped and roughly why
Would be preferable to die
Counselling Session 2 ~ 8th January 2013
Top heavy with hate; self-doubt
I warranted mental clout
Evil actions would ne’er admit
Own spawns I too had hit
Needed to be better mother
I was soon to discover
Temper flare often ignited
Violence learnt and requited
Ashamed of past violations
Expected future condemnations
I was looking for redemption
Without a hint of pretension
Please make no excuse for me
I inflicted misery
Reflected all my bitterness
On those who merited it much less
Counselling Session 3 ~ Tuesday, 15th January 2013
She treated me respectfully
Understood painful degree
Past events still resonated
Current ones were related
She gently probed with empathy
I hated any sympathy
Deserved of my punishment
Because of youthful devilment
But she made me reassess
All sins I chose to confess
And though I was a wild child
No excuse to be defiled
She said I’d right to be angry
And shortly I had to agree
No excuse but simple reply
To who and where and when and why
Re-examined rationally
Patiently explained to me
Was merely product of upbringing
I should be more self-forgiving
Sorry for Yesterday ~ January 2013
No excuses
Simply regret
For the nooses
That can’t forget
And truly pray
That yesterday
I did not blight
With knots too tight
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