Late nights, and cannabis smoke filled days...these are what made my smile.
Constantly being called something out of my name, laughing all the while.
Settling for someone less than what I deserved hoping I could make them change.
Waiting for them to love me, As I visited them at their jail cell, becoming deranged.
I constantly blocked out my family...hoping they'd let everything go.
As I let myself go...I thought WOW, I don't have enough tears to explain my pain.
Don't know why I'm crying, I was going insane.
Trying so hard to fit in that it hurt.
Replanting my tears, my emotions were dirt.
Fertile fake smiles were the seeds of my sorrow.
Dreaded my bed, its where I woke up to tomorrow.
Traveling quick on the road to a hoe
Wanted a life that I did not know.
Representing the hood but it was all a show.
Making mistakes, that I couldn't take back.
Throwing my future away with my slack.
Regretting now hurting people I love.
Regretting forgetting my father above.
Yea now I've changed and I refuse to return.
Appreciate those times for the things that I learned.
I'd like to say sorry to all the ones I made worry
This is my apology....
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