I'm me forever and always

They say all you will ever be is alone your alone. Well I thought I was who would ever want to be firends with someone that is afraid of so many things she has gone threw. The pain and judgement that has been laid apon her soul. I think I'm normal I know I am. So what if anxiety and depression stops me from being brave because it shouldn't . I'm me. So I can control when I'm angry or sad now. But those hurtful words of people brake you down. They say I'm to diffrent. Diffrent? Who are they to judge me? I am Jess. I am nothing but a shawdow like everyone els. I have a family a home a few firends but other then that I'm a ball of nerves. People have there own reasons why I was bullied. They say I was a jerk. I hated everyone. I didn't fit in. The thing is I didn't want to. I realized for this how to look apon people I now know who they are I know who I am. I know where I belong. People now try to place you in groups. The cheerleaders jocks preps nerds emo goth. Where am I. I don't think I'm better then anyone I think everyone is better then me because they aren't shy and cry when they see certain places where they were called useless by bullies. I'm not emo or goth. Yes I'm dark I am kinda of antisocial but that's because I'm afraid of others opinions. I don't where all black or makeup. I where addias and I don't dress like a hooker either. Ya I dress more boyish with vests and my hair in a bun. I'm not the prettest or the bravest or the strongest. Well I am strong. I'm strong hatred even though people bring be down. My parents love me and my family. But a lot of my family Fall under the prep side. So much I resent them. I don't get how they bring others down to show they are the strongest but in realities there the weakest. Sometimes I just wish instead of talking I could just write because I know I'm not the best but I enjoy using metaphors so don't really have to say how I feel. Yes I talk and to strangers but after being brought down I've learned not to listen and hide the tears. But it feels good to tell others I HAVE AXIENTY AND DEPRESSION. Yes it did feel good but the funny thing is I don't even look that sad on the outside I'm always joking around with my mom and dad because thank The Lord I'm an only child so I have my parents all to myself. That's right Christmas rocks. But inside I'm dieting a little more when I have to go talk to the theripist. I hate when they say problem or disorder. But it feels so much better to tell everyone because IM NORMAL IM ME AMD IM NEVER CHANGEING WHO I AM FOR ANYONE AND THIS GOSE FOR EVREYONE BE YOURSELF AND NEVER GIVE IN. So if others feel the same way and need someone to talk to go ahead ask me for my email ill gladly help you because I learned that ill always be knocked down but in the end I'm normal and I'm never backing down because I'm stronger then EVREYONE thinks,