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Just some things that needed to be out and said
not finished or anything just something I wrote to clear my head(: -Ji'

Submitted:Nov 12, 2011    Reads: 31    Comments: 7    Likes: 6   

I am far from walking
although staying is a doubt
and to be honest I am done with talking
because the stress I can do without
I want to think positive in everyway
but to me its all suspicious
I want to believe that all will be ok
and the outcome wont be so vicious
Even with your arm around my waist
still she wont leave from my head
I am learning to cope but at a very slow paste
to blank the childish texts I read
the deeper I go in my mind
the bigger issues I create
like asking if im being trusting or stupidly blind
if I have mistaken love for something not so great
And now that her threats are getting worse
I am doubting if she can make something beautiful something hideous
considering everywhere she goes lingers a curse
and a personality so twisted and insidious
you have every promise from me
that I will never ever leave you alone
but it is hard because neither will she
with constantly texting and phoning your phone
I don't feel threatened or a sort
nothing I haven't seen before
and violence will be the last resort
but I have seen so many I don't want to anymore
I ask if your thoughts are with her at my touch
if there is something still between you two
are you like missing her all so much
it feels there is nothing I can do
where has the tension gone these days
it feels like something has died
like things are same in so many ways
yet in others still unsatisfied
to feel the need to crawl out of bed
and write until my hearts content
to write all the so called paranoia out my head
well hours upon hours I spent
and just to crawl back in all hours of the night
only to kiss you sweetest dreams
to forget it all and hold you tight
and remember nothing is what it seems
just to let it all go
and forget all this caper
and to the questions I still don't know
so I put it Pen To Paper.


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