I wish all of this would just end...
If I could describe her with one word, what she makes me feel, how I feel about her, the emotions she spites in me, it would be "apprehension," hence the title.


apprehension
[ap-ri-hen-shuhn]
ap·pre·hen·sion

noun
1.
anticipation of adversity or misfortune; suspicion or fear of future trouble or evil.
2.
the faculty or act of apprehending, especially intuitive understanding; perception on a direct and immediate level.
3.
acceptance of or receptivity to information without passing judgment on its validity, often without complete comprehension.