I close my eyes to...

My eyes blurred with tears.
I close them, trying to concentrate

I close my eyes and wince in unbearable pain,
Hoping when I open them my world might actually change,
But when I do, everythings still the same.
"I'm fine." I keep on telling them, hoping they don't realize how my voice always cracks in betrayal.

I close my eyes to block the thoughts of doubt
But they just seem so loud, 
I just can't keep them out.

But I know someday happiness will find me
And I'll finally let go of the past, and keep it all behind.