Lacerating Couplets (REE11069266)

I hope you see me later on, finally getting my kicks

I hope you're watching from your home made crucifix

I want you to feel pain and express sorrow

I want to be able to claim from you the benefits of tomorrow

I need the closure and knowlegde that you won't hurt me again

I need the memories and thoughts to go away, instead they act like chains

I wish for the aching to stop, because as much as I hate you, I miss you too

I wish for time to erase these feelings so that someday you can see me, and I you

I hate the complications and the attention, especially when you complain

I hate that you think I want this and relish your thoughts, however inane

I just wanted a peaceful life, it's not much to ask for

I just wanted you to see that I'm a good girl, one to be adored

I always tried my hardest to please you, even with the small things

I always tried to make up for my mistakes, but you expected me to dance and sing

I was never good at expressing my emotions, you know that though

I was never intentionally stupid, I tried to learn more for you, but all you did was throw

I continually believed your lies, not wanting to feel untrusted

I continually looked forward to your empty promises, but into the strong winds they were uncaringly thrusted

I looked up to you and listened to your words

I looked up one day to see that you were gone, leaving me loneliness to walk t'ward

I couldn't do with without you and I broke down

I couldn't do with looking up to see the nothinglness infront of me

Now I go to sleep hoping I'll never come round