Why do I cry, though I know you just laugh...?
Why do I search, when I know you've given up...?
Why do I yearn, when I know you're drunk and drinking..?
Why do you rise up high, while I keep sinking?
Why do I cry whilst you sleep?
Why do you snore whilst I weep?
I lie here lamenting as you sit down to eat
But are you upset as I lie in defeat?
I've tried so hard to hate you, to no avail
Tried so much not to love you, I bleed as I wail
I'm so young, and you used my naivity
To treat me like shit and beat pity into me
Leaving me with scars and bruises
You use your mouth and fists, while he sits and accuses
I can't even live with you for fear of it all
You try to convince me to come ''home'', a pointless call
I'm too afraid to be alone with you
Never mind share the same house too
Why can't you see that you brought this upon yourself?
You try to blame me, when it's your angry fists I felt,
Your fingers grabbing hold and pulling my hair,
Your shiny boots landing between my legs as you kicked me there,
Your palm slapping my face over and over,
Your fists hitting the places I couldn't cover,
Your knuckles pummelling into my kidneys,
Your makeshift weapons making me bleed,
Your teeth clenched as you punched my head,
Your words and the things you said that made me wish I was dead.