I am 19 years old, and have suffered with depression for a long time. There have been some events in my life which I am not proud of, but I felt the need to write everything down, in an attempt to understand myself, why I do things, how I've become the fucked up shell of a person I used to be.

I am not looking for sympathy, I am angry at myself at what I have done and who I have become. I wrote this for me, nobody else, although if anybody can identify with anything I have written about I'd hope it would be a comfort to them, that they are not alone in their experiences.

Enjoy.