I thrashed all night long.I knew it even when I was asleep,
racing around and spinning in circles as darkness covered
everything.The last thing I saw in my dream was the blank face of
Rayne, his eyes dull with no sign of life within them.I shot up
from my place, sweat dripping from my forehead, and looked around
at my surroundings.
I only found no sign of any other life form there.I could've
sworn Rayne had been with me last night.I stood up blankly and
began getting dressed for school. The hard wood felt cold beneath
my bare feet.I eyed myself in the mirror seeing the red splotches
all over my cheeks and the puffiness of my eyes from crying so
hard.I guess all of that really did happen.That means Rayne
was here.But, where could he have gone?I jumped onto my
bed then peeked through the blinds to see if his truck was still
in front of my house.There was no sign of its existence
anywhere.I sighed heavily then trudged down the stairs grabbing
my black bag off of the stair's railing.
I reached down digging deep into my bag looking for my keys then
quickly remembered my car was at school already.Then I also
remembered that damn bow was still on it.Looks like Rayne would
have to help me tonight instead.To my utter surprise, and almost
hate, butterflies shot through my stomach.I lightly pushed my
fist into my stomach as if that would stop the feelings swarming
around my stomach.I ran a hand through my hair letting it go free
then stepped out of the door grabbing my black jacket.I sat down
at the curb of my driveway checking my watch every few minutes
thinking maybe he had to go get something at home.He knows I
can't drive myself to school, I have no car here.Plus he knows
how far away it is to the school from here.I looked down the
street to Tessa's driveway taking note of its vacancy.Well
that option is definitely out I guess.I sat there for
another fifteen minutes then stood up.Screw him; I'll
walk.I started my dark and long venture to my school.The sun
hadn't yet come up leaving with only small touch of light from
street lamps for visibility.Don't use the powers if you don't
have to, I thought to myself.Who was I kidding?I do need
them now.Not exactly for anymore importance than to actually see
where I'm going but still, I could cause a large accident if I
can't see.Deal with it, I heard a voice say inside my
head.It was a voice I hadn't heard from for at least twelve years
It wasn't him actually talking to me, more like one of the voices
you get inside your head when you know you're about to do
something wrong and its warning you against it.I sighed heavily
then just stuck with my weak, human-like sight.
I thought about running with my own speed as well, though I knew
I'd still be late.I never particularly skipped before or
purposefully walked slowly so I'd be late, but today I just felt
like I needed the fresh air more than I needed the school
work.Who cared anyway?I had straight A's, all hundreds in fact.I
could miss a few classes.Besides, I could make up that stuff
tomorrow.I lifted my chin up then closed my eyes taking in the
cool air grazing on my face.I spread my arms out taking in
everything around me, feeling refreshed.I could feel the cool air
wrap itself around what showing skin there was and let my mind
run free of any disillusion.
It was only when I heard the honk of a semi passing by that I
released myself from that reverie.I stopped dead in my tracks
waiting until the after-wind of the truck's passing to start
After a good hour or so, I got up to the front office of the
school.I walked into the glass doors and into the main office to
get a tardy slip.I said a small hello to the head lady, Mrs.
Tinkerton, then walked back into the white walled halls.I checked
the time on my watch realizing it was about time for the middle
of my history class in third period.
I walked up to the wooden door listening softly for a chance to
walk in.Sadly with Mr. Carlos, there was no room to just quietly
walk in without interrupting something.The man never shut up.I
couldn't exactly complain though; you learned a lot and Mr.
Carlos at least made the history class interesting with many
projects and in-class-presentations with his intern, Mrs. Terry.
As expected everyone quickly transferred their eyes from Mr.
Carlos's back to my lightly pink-tinted face.Mr. Carlos kept his
front to the board as if I wasn't even there, writing whatever
today's lesson had been.I slowly crept my way up to his desk at
the front of the room, all eyes following my every motion.I
lightly placed the little pink slip in the middle of his
desk-calendar then walked as fast as I could to my seat in the
back corner.Still, eyes were pinned on me until I finally, and
loudly, whispered "Take a freaking picture!"
"Miss Chello," Mr. Carlos calmly stated without turning his back
to the board."Try not to be late for my class again.You missed a
good presentation that was run by Mrs. Terry over here."He waved
his black Expo marker over to Mrs. Terry who had been sitting in
the corner of the room.She smiled shyly then looked down at her
portfolio.She obviously didn't take well to being stared at
"Yes sir, sorry sir," I said quickly pulling out my black
notebook jotting down the notes that he had written on the board.
After a good ten minutes I began doodling on the side of my Notes
Paper wondering what had happened to Rayne this morning.I'll
most likely see him in the hall, I thought.I can ask him
then I guess.I barely paid any attention to where I moved my
hand and what I had even been drawing.
The bell rang for that class pulling me out of my racing
thoughts.I looked down at my notebook paper to see I had drawn
rainbows, circles, trees, and something strange.I looked at it
closely standing in the middle of the room completely stunned at
what was there.It was a smaller picture of a black wolf and a
white wolf in pounce position next to each other, as if they were
on the same team or something.
"Is there something I could help you with, Chello?" Mr. Carlos
asked stacking a few papers on his desk.
I shook my head slowly crumpling the paper between my
hands."Nope, sorry sir, I just got a little sidetracked."
"Alright, have a good day Chello.And again, try not to be late
for my class."
"Yes sir, sorry sir," I said again practically racing out of the
wooden door and to my last class.
The halls had only a few stragglers trying to either quickly run
to class as fast as possible or trying to skip like usual.I
barely made it inside Mr. Beavis's class when the tardy bell
The whole class passed by slowly while I sat at my desk anxiously
tapping my pencil on the desk.A few people even tried asking me
politely, and sometimes not so politely, to stop.I watched as the
seconds ticked by like the years in a decade, each of them
pounding out the rhythm of my heart.
Finally as if it were the sound of the hallelujah chorus, the
final bell rang sending a skip to my heart and a relieved smile
on my face.I had to find him or else I might just explode.
"Miss Chello!" Mr. Beavis called right before I stepped out of
the door.I mumbled a string of profanities low enough that he
I put on a fake smile, turned around, and walked over to his
"It seems that you had a black mustang in the school's parking
lot with a rather large red bow on the hood of it?"
"Um, yes I do.Wait, what do you mean 'had'?"
"Well, it was such a distraction and since you haven't exactly
been driving it to or from this school, we've had to toe it to
"Wait a minute, you guys didn't give me any notice on this so I
could try and move it?"
"Well, there was a weekend and whatnot.Besides, the place isn't
that far from here.Here, I'll write down the address for you and
you can go pick it up."He quickly wrote down something on the
back of a receipt in black chicken scratch, handed it to me, then
asked for me to go on and leave.
I stuffed the paper in my pocket and raced out of the door hoping
I wasn't too late.
There were definitely less people in the hall, not meaning there
wasn't a suffocating crowd keeping me from the door.Right when I
was at the door, Rayne came running again.I opened my mouth to
speak but he just shoved right passed me without a single glance
in my direction.I growled silently so only I could hear then
raced out of the door to find his truck.
I was heading straight for his truck; all of my concentration set
on that white paint and darkly tinted windows.I could easily feel
myself charging, my upper body lowering and my legs pumping so
hard my knees were close to hitting my stomach.It was like I was
a train and no one could stop me.
"CHELLO!"Tessa appeared in front of me stopping me so fast I ran
into her knocking us both down.I sat up from the cement rubbing
my lower back then started to get back up again."Chello, I have
some major news!"
"Uh, Tessa, can I just talk to you on the phone I really have
"NO!This is of extreme importance!I'm going to have a party this
"…That's it?"She looked at me with a pout making me smack my own
self in the face for my horrible response."I'm sorry; I didn't
mean it like that.It's just I'm having a major problem right now
and I really have to get rid of it.Can I just call you tonight?"
She sighed heavily then said, "Okay, remember after nine because
of my free minutes."
"I will, thanks for understanding."I gave her a quick hug then
went on my way to his truck.
I found the parking aisle his white truck was down and started
stamping my way towards it; retrieving that anger I had from
before very quickly.I saw him opening the door to the driver's
side with a blank expression on his face, making me even angrier.
Now I was practically running to get to his truck before he left,
letting a little of my wolf power come in for some support.I
finally got to his back, yanking him back by the arm almost too
easily and slamming his door.I turned around to jab him in the
chest with my index finger saying "What the hell is wrong with
you today?You've been ignoring me, that or you were giving me
death glances, pretty much making me walk from-"
"Look will you leave me alone?"
"What the hell is your problem?You could've at least had the
decency to tell me you wouldn't have picked me up.Which reminds
me, where did you even go this morning?"
"That's not what matters.What matters is that I can't be with
"You heard me; I can't be with you.You can't be in any part of my
life no matter how much you like me."
"What are you talk-"
"Oh please, don't play dumb."His face turned extremely angry and
he stood so he towered over me, trying to intimidate me I
assumed.It was working pretty well."The things you said last
night, the fact that you cried on my shoulder?It's dead obvious."
"I was saying those things so that you wouldn't feel so bad.But I
was wrong to do so; that just made everything worse.Get out of my
life Chello. I can't risk having you in it."He pushed passed me,
in complete shock of what had happened, and jumped into his car
making sure to slam the door in my face.When he had backed out of
the space and my mind had finally kicked back into gear, I kicked
the back bumper of his truck as hard as I could, ramming a rather
large dent into it.I could feel the anger tears streaming down my
face and didn't bother trying to wipe them away.When I could
barely get my anger in control I started my long walk to the
towing place.I almost felt sorry for the poor old man who waited
for me there with my car and a nice five-hundred dollar or so
bill.I couldn't feel too bad, after all he tried cracking jokes
about how "a child my age shouldn't have such a classic car."
I was finally able to come inside my house, taking note that some
things had been moved around again; though not as horrible as
last time.I sighed heavily shutting the door behind me.I didn't
feel like trying to fix anything which only left me with the
option of hiding out in my room for the rest of the night.Who was
I kidding?With the way I felt I could've slept in my room for
weeks if I didn't want to lose out on my perfect attendance
I drug my lazy feet up the stairs, pushed my way into my room,
then just plopped down onto my bed.I curled myself up into a ball
and didn't try to push back the tears that slid silently down my
cheeks.I didn't like him.I don't like him.Of course not!How
could I like someone as dirty and as rotten and as…as… I
couldn't even finish my own thoughts.Maybe I had let my guard
down last night.I'm so stupid.How could I have done that?I
can't believe I had let my guard down just because he said those
things to me.I put my hands on my face soaking my palms with
my tears.Wait a minute, I thought quickly.Why am I
calling myself the idiot?Why am I using such negative language
towards my own self?He's the one who pretty much betrayed me and
seduced me into thinking he actually…Never mind.He's the one who
hurt me.Revenge.That last word wasn't from my own voice.It
was that of Kreen's.He was telling me to take revenge on this
situation, and boy did I feel like doing it.
�Emily Skarce 2007-2008