I'd like to start out saying most of what I tell you is Not the truth to some but it IS the truth in my mind at least. I like to say that in my mind the world is kinda like a tim Burton movie but without most of the singing. One of my many motto's is expect the worst and everything will turn out fine. Also my mind likes to revert back to some of my most embarrassing moments so I might just let you read about those i don't know. Weird Life stories that are slightly tall taled. I might just also speak in the way i normal do. I dont know let's just end this prologe.
19/07/2013 Borrowed Time
These are my personal thoughts about the world im sorry if you dont like it but too bad. To explain why I put borrowed time on top its simply because I feel like im living on borrowed time. I almost drowned when i was about 8 or 9 ; It was winter time, me and my cousin where outside playing near the dock by my great grandmas house. She lived near a lake on top of a little hill. So me and nate were playing near the dock and he throw the stick I was playing with onto the ice and I don't know what i was thinking but i went after it ... i took 2 steps and fell throw the ice it was still kind of thin I dont really remember much of the hole drowning thing but i do know i was scared it was cold and dark and i wanted to breath but i couldn't. After like a minute nate pulled me up and we walked up the hill and went to our friend lillys house I didnt want to go home (my mother and I were staying with her for a few months) because i thought my mom would be mad that i got my snow suit wet so we went there and her parents got me clean dry clothes and a few minutes later my mom showed up some how knowing i would be there she wanted to tell me to come home at five, so anyways she saw me freaked out thanked lillys parents and took me home i wasn't aloud outside for a week. The reason I told you this is so you knew the backstory to why im writing this im living on borrowed time its like i shouldn't be alive it's a weird feeling. I can't see my future have you ever tried that just thinking about what your life would be like i keep trying but i can't its really weird feeling like i shouldnt even be alive i wonder what its like to be happy