Writting About Text Essay - "New Moon"
In this essay on the second book of the 'Twilight' saga - New Moon - by Stephenie Meyer I am going to explore and reflect on the development of the main characters throughout this book and how the events they tried to avoid at the start of the novel - by taking tragic courses of actions - still came back to them unavoidably, in the end.
New moon, tells a dramatic story of passionate and irrevocable love between a human - Bella Swan - and a vampire - Edward Cullen -. Unlike in Twilight, this books turns into a real horror at its start. At the beginning of this novel, Edward - who considers himself a monster for putting his Bella in a constant danger - because he is a vampire - leaves her so that she is safe away from him. Bella finds herself unable to move on or live without him and becomes depressed. In the end, Bella saves Edward's life and finds that Edward is also unable to live without her and despite the unsolved problem, they come together again.
Both Bella and Edward had their character-faults at the start of the story. Edward's biggest problem was his overreaction; he was a cataclysmic and he usually made his decisions very impulsively and he regretted them later - too late. While Bella had lack-of-self-knowledge and she was very pessimistic: from the very start she thought she did not deserve Edward. Throughout "New Moon's" tragic plot, these characters matured and "grew". they learned many lessons and the mistakes they made did not happen again. This painful separation also uncovered their inner strengths and things they were truly capable of doing.
From the first chapters of the saga in which Bella and Edward were together - even in the previous books - she believed herself unworthy of somebody as perfect as Edward: "I still couldn't believe I deserved this amount of good fortune". This tells us that Bella has got a lack of self-esteem and considers herself imperfect compared to Edward. The author puts herself in the protagonist's 'shoes' and this simple sentence emphasises Bella's character well - making the reader explore this short little statement. This next example will confirm my accusation of Bella's low-self-esteem attitude, "How could this God-like creature be truly ment for me?" The author suggests Bella's true lack-of-self knowledge in form of this simple question she asked herself rhetorically. I consider Bella as being quiet selfless and not being able to see he own true value.
During one of Edward - Bella conversations a very romantic fact is revealed from Edward, "Well, I wasn't going to live without you" This statement is a respond to the topic of death and what would happen if Bella died - according to Edward. I consider this 'promise' of commitment as very romantic and quiet brave, also that Edward made it look like a childishly obvious fact. This tells us that Edward is really committed to his love and loyal with his feelings. The author made the reader think twice after reading this sentence though, because as it slowly sunk in - very effectively - it ment that Edward would also find a way to leave this world along with Bella - which would be hard for him to find since he is immortal.
Bella's response to Edward's promise was absolute: "No matter what might ever happen to me, you are not allowed to hurt yourself" This answer reveals a lot about her character: it shows that Bella is as much committed as Edward is, not willing to stand any hurting towards him. This makes Bella a really caring character, but also it confirms the lack-of-self-value by her not being bothered if something happened to herself. She does that because she is overwhelmed by caring for Edward's protection she can not really provide. My proof would be the following quote: "The idea of Edward ceasing to exist, even if I were dead, was impossibly painful" And as before, her world centres around Edward. He is her everything; her true soul mate that she could not stand to be separated from. The author is trying to show the reader Bella's perspective by telling us how hurtful losing Edward would be to her.
Edward always saw himself in the bad light as the monster who was hurting the one he loved the most. This it the quote which shows how he is desperate to keep her safe: "I'll never put you in danger again" This reveals Edward's point of view on how he sees himself as the problem that complicates Bella's existence. Just like Bella, he refuses anything bad happening to her. After an unfortunate event happening to Bella - that Edward blames himself of- he decides to leave her - for her- so that he can not hurt her anymore, "I'm…tired of pretending to be someone I'm not Bella. I'm not human" By this sentence he is giving her a chance at a normal human like and he means good, but Bella thinks that he leaves because she was not good enough for him - as he tells he -. By this next statement, he destroys her life; her future… " I promise that this will be the last time you'll see me. I won't come back. I won't put you through anything like this again. You can go on with your life without anymore interference form us. It will be as if I'd never existed…" Bella could not believe her own ears, but believed his rejection to be true. After all, she always knew all this anyways; knew that she did not deserve him. The emphasis of "us" tells us how much he considers his world not a right place for he to be. He makes this last promise to her - destroying her…everything, but when he sees her horror, he comforts her, "Don't worry. You're human - your memory is no more than a sieve. Time heals all wounds for your kind" This promise is filled with his ancient sorrow and how difficult being a vampire must be for him: not being able to forget things. By this horror-like exchange, he shows his underestimation of Bella's feelings for him; as is she could just get over him - him! - and simply forget him only because she is human. I think Edward could not see the damage he himself would leave behind - he was not aware!
Even during Edward's absence, Bella was loyal, showing her love to him even when he was gone, "I had a secret that wasn't mine to tell, yet a secret I felt bound to protect" The above example shows how Bella's character is really stubborn and how she's desperately holding on to Edward, still- still loyal and protective if him; forever in love. Also, Bella's last promise to Edward was that she would take care of herself for the sake of her father: of course, she obediently listened! This suggests her one-tracked mind way of being - how she doesn't get over things. Her strength to keep normal for the sake of her dad.
Many events take place, involving saving Edward who wanted to commit suicide because he thought Bella was dead. This reveals that he also stayed loyal to his promises: he wasn't going to live without her - reveals his loyalty. Both Edward and Bella agree that they cannot be apart, Bella by: "I couldn't exist unless I knew he was out there, somewhere" And Edward by, "I cannot live in a world where you don't exist".
Without this painful separation, Bella might never believe that Edward was truly hers to keep and Edward would never believe in the intensity of Bella's feelings. They both became really strong characters after this horror-like being-apart. Edward also had an apology for lying to Bella because- after all - everything he last told her when he was leaving was a lie! He lied to save her. When Bella was still convinced he'll leave again, Edward explained to her he can not leave her ever again "Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars - points of light and reason… And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was not more reason for anything." This rather long statement for an explanation reveals how Edward suffered as much as Bella herself did when he was gone and also it proves that he would not be so masochistic again to leave her. The author here used a thorough example of a meteor and stars to emphasise this sentence's meaning And finally, Bella in response to Edward's explanation thought, "I wanted to believe him, But this was my life without him that he was telling me" By this reply, Bella seemed to finally understand how attached they both were to each other - they could not be apart - never again.
Over all, the mistakes were made, the prices were paid, but the fairy-tale was now back on again. Both characters were forced to adjust to new situations that occurred and they had to change their ways after they split, becoming stronger than they were before they were together before. Bella became more experienced with controlling her emotions around people and probably even more stubborn, while Edward began to respect what he had and began to believe in Bella's feeling for him. Both characters changed and matured , but one thing that remained unchanged was their love for one another - only that their love became even stronger!…Finally, I consider many things in life unavoidable and sometimes it might not be worth the price paid afterwards. I enjoyed analysing this book and these two amazing characters because I felt exactly what they did when reading this book.