I wish you knew I liked you. You know I exist. You talk to me. You look at me. You sit next to me. But you're not mine. I talk to you. I look at you. I sit next to you. I pass by you. But I'm not your's. You have someone else. But it isn't me. I really should be used to it by now...liking someone and never knowing if they like you back or if they even know you like them. Its happened to me before *tears up at the memory of my love for Ethan*. Ethan had caused me so much emotional pain and this time is almost as bad. It's worse because you talk to me, you pass by me, you look at me... But I like you still.
It seems like love would NEVER agree with me. I liked someone else in my Biology class, Mitchell. But with my stellar luck, he had a girlfriend:( It seemed like I'd never catch a break! My friends were trying to help me the best they could but they knew that they couldn't completely help me because it involved a lot of emotional recovery.
I know this would sound like a bad thing but it really wasn't. I was getting close with Drew again but not in the way where I'd like him. He was still just my friend. Even if I said we were friends, he might think slightly differently but not as in like bf-gf kinda way. I'm NOT gonna say what becuz its weird and complicated.
Anyways. I was seriously freaked cuz my concert was this coming Friday and I had NO idea what was gonna happen. My class was seriously screwed becuz we hadn't had our music for too long and we were just starting to really memorize everything. I knew that some of my family and friends were coming and I knew there were 2 people that I really wanted to ask. I knew I didn't like Ethan anymore but I still cared for him. I wanted to ask Drew but it was because I missed him a lot. I don't think that I would've been able to ask Mitchell otherwise people who didn't know me or my "past" history probably would've thought I was a slut. Which is DEFINITELY NOT true! I don't know. I kinda want to ask Mitchell but I wasn't sure if I should because of him having a girlfriend. I could just ask him to come and see it like as a friend but even then it still might be a little weird but I didn't know what the heck to do anymore. Anybody got any ideas?