I never knew the world could be so heavy, til now. Who forced Tyler to dump me? I went through everyone I could possibly think of, but to be honest, who would bother to do that. How could I do algebra when I had just been told such a statement?! All that I knew was that I love Tyler, there, I admitted it, I was still in love with Tyler. Alice was right, three years is a long time and I can't let those years slip out of my mind, he's ALL I think about everyday. Love hurts, really really hurts.
Remembering Tyler was right next to me, I glanced at him and he quickly looked away like he weren't just watching me overthink. I stared at the back of his perfect head, admiring his chestnut hair. Closed my eyes, and remembered a time we were happy together, in love.
He pulled me in close, and I could smell his new fragrance I bought him, the sweet scent nearly knocked me out alone. How could life be this good? He kissed my head and played with my hair, I looked intently into his eyes, as our lips locked he pulled me in close, like he'd never let me go. he pulled my hair behind my ear, brushed my cheek with the back of his cold hand.
Opening my eyes, one icy tear escaped, as that was the past. I swifly wiped the tear before anyone could notice , but Tyler did. He whispered wheather I was ok, and I ignored him. He whispered a "I love you" in my ear, and I stared at the floor, longing for the bell.
Trudging up the neverending stairs, past all the strangers. I closed my bedroom door behind me, slid to the floor, and let the tears fall. I looked at my scarred arm, scanning places to cut, right, to the next arm. I blinked away the tears as I let the blade tear my skin. This is for me, this is for Tyler. I watched the blood trickle down, and relaxed, for a while. Many people don't like the sting, but I do, I like the pain.
I dabbed the cutts with a piece of tissue for a while, making the blood stop, but the truth is, I didn't want to. Climbing into my bed, I cried myself to sleep, sleep's good, it helps.