I walked to the door taking out the key he gave me walking into
the slightly heated front room. I put the bag on the couch and
sat down taking my hoodie off. Tanner's apartment was nice. It
had one bedroom, one bathroom, a kitchen, a sitting room, and a
kitchen. It was cozy and I love it. His couch was a plush fabric
that I loved to curl up on with him. It looked like it was take
out of a magazine. No joke. I lay down on the couch and closed my
eyes. The next thing I know I wake up snuggled up to all the
pillows and blankets in Tanner's bed. I rubbed my eyes walking
getting out of the warm covers. I walked into the sitting room to
see Tanner sitting on the couch with his feet on the coffee
table. He was drinking a beer watching TV. "Hey." I smiled trying
to rub the sleep out of my eyes. He looked up and smiled at me.
"Hey Sleeping Beauty. I was going to come in and kiss you so you
would wake up. I'm getting hungry and I didn't want to eat
without you." I nodded walking over and curling up at his side.
"I love you." I whispered kissing his ribs were my face was
"I love you too. Now come on let's eat dinner. I got you some
pasta too, and hot wings." He sat turning off the TV. He got up
and pulled me up with him. We walked to the kitchen where he sat
me down and went to go get all the food as I got up to get the
drinks. He looked at me as I went to the frig and he heated up
the food. "What are you doing?" He asked crossing his arms.
"I'm getting the drinks do you want another beer?" I asked looked
"Nah just a soda is fine." He nodded putting the food on the
table setting it up. I put the soda n the table and sat down
again. We had small talk the whole time we were eating, which was
him cracking jokes and me laughing. I cleaned up as Tanner stood
behind me watching me. "You ready to talk now?" He asked. I
looked over at him and nodded. Tanner was and is the best thing
that has ever happened to me. I don't want to lose him, I can't
lose him. He took his my hand in his as he walked me to the
living room. My heart was beating faster than normal as I sat
down. "So what's up baby doll?"
"You know how I have been felling sick lately, being tired all
the time, eating weirdly, having he night mares….." I trailed off
remembering the first time Tanner say me having a night mare.
They seemed to stop when I met him and he slept with me but they
have come back and now they hate me. They want me to not sleep.
Every time he sees me having a night mare he has that look of
feeling helpless because he can't make them go away.
"What are you trying to say Ryan?" I looked at him.
"Tanner, I, I think that I'm pregnant." I whispered. He leaned
back in his seat and put his hands on his face. I felt the tears
forming in my eyes as I watched his reaction. It hurt me to know
that I caused this to happy. We were careful. My birth control
failed. It had to have. I can't have Owen's baby. I can't. He
already haunts my night mares and my memories. I don't need him
haunting a poor baby too.
"Pregnant." He sighed pulling his hands off his face to look at
me. "A baby. A living, breathing, pooping life form." He looked
deadly pale, as if he was read to pass out. I looked at him not
knowing what to do. Should I touch him? Should I not touch him in
case he never wants to touch me again? I sat there with my hand s
in my lap as the tears started to fall onto my sweatpants. I felt
a hand pulling up face to look at Tanner. "I'm so sorry." He
whispered. He moved his hand up to cup my cheek gently like I was
going to break into a million, billon pieces right there.
"You're sorry? I'm the one that got pregnant. It's all entire
fault. Now I'm pregnant at 18. It's only February of my senior
year." The tears started to speed up as I got more upset. Tanner
pulled me to him and stroked my hair.
"It's not your fault it mine. I should have worn a condom more. I
should have made sure it was safe. I can't believe I did this.
You're the love of my life. You mean everything to me. I love you
Ryan."He kissed my head.
"I guess it takes two to tango. I guess we are both at fault." I
"I just can't believe you're pregnant." He sighed.
"Well I'm not sure I am. I didn't take the tests. I wanted to
take them with you. That's why we were at the pharmacy off base.
The one on base has no pregnancy tests." I leaned up to kiss his
jawbone feeling the stubble on it making me feel better. I'm 18
and could be pregnant and I feel safe and warm in his arms.
Nothing mattered but this moment. I was comforting him and he was
"So there is a chance you aren't pregnant." He asked laying his
hand on my lower stomach, were our baby's home might be.
"I might not be but I think I am." I felt him start to move his
thumb so it run over it ever so gently.
"Ryan whatever happens I promise I will be there for you. If
you're pregnant I will support you and take care of you and the
baby. I love you Ryan." He leaned down to kiss me.
"I love you too." I whispered getting up to get the bag full of
the tests. I took a deep breath.
"You ready for this?" He asked getting up and walking with me to
"No, but I have to be." I walked into the bathroom as Tanner went
and sat down on the bed in the bedroom. I sat down, peed on the
sticks, all five of them. I slipped the protective caps back on
and walked into the bedroom holding them. Tanner looked up at me.
"Did you take all of those?" He asked looking at my hand, his
"Yeah I really had to pee anyway so it was killing two birds with
one stone." I smiled sitting down next to him. I laid my head on
his shoulder as he held me tightly. The waiting was the hardest
part. Not the having to tall him, having to tell Emmy, not all
the throwing up. The waiting was killing me. Tanner's phone
beeped telling us it was time to look, to see if I was pregnant.
I picked up the fist tested and gasped…………