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My Hero's My Marines

Novel By: FutureMarinesGirl
Young adult

Ryan Banks life isn’t easy. It never was. Not from when she was born prematurely with her brother TJ, to every time her father leaves with the United States Marine Corps. Fallow Ryan as she suffers heart break, new love, old love, and pain. Mental and Physical.
***This is the sequel to We Make Them Go Ooh-Rah.***
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Submitted:Sep 12, 2010    Reads: 678    Comments: 9    Likes: 5   

My heart was in my throat as I looked at the bright blue plus sign that was staring me in the face. I felt my eyes close as Tanner took the test out of my hands as I started to cry. I looked at the second, positive. I looked at the next one. Positive. I picked up the next one and sighed confused. Negative. My mind was in a knot. I didn't know what was going on. I looked at the next one. It was positive. So it's positive. I'm pregnant. "I'm pregnant." I felt my bottom lip start to quiver. Tanner wrapped his arms around me pulling me to sit on his lap holding me. He laid his chin on my shoulder and held me.

"I'm sorry Ryan." He whispered. I shook my head turning around and clinging to his t-shirt. He stroked my hair as I cried my heart out.
"I can't have a baby. I'm not ready to have a baby. I just turned 18." I sobbed.
"I know but sometimes we have to do things we don't want to do. There is no turning back now." I shook my head.
"No, no, no. I ruined my life and I ruined yours." I cried.
"Shh stop crying come one its okay." He whispered kissing me. Something clicked making me sob harder.
"What if the baby isn't yours? I could never live with myself if it was his. I will kill myself if it is." Tanner's arms tightened almost painfully around me.
"Never ever, did I repeat myself enough for you, you will never thing about killing yourself. Never." He snapped pulling my face up to look at him. I felt my tears start to slow down as I stared at the anger clouding his eyes. "You will never thing about killing yourself. Do you understand me?" I shook my head.
"How could you want me if the baby isn't yours? Why would you want me?" I asked a sob slipping from my lips.
"Because I love you. I love you so much it scares me sometimes. It hurts when I'm away from you. I'm happy when you're happy. I'm sad when you're sad. I love you. I'm not letting some fucking bastard ruin what I have hope and dreamed of. I feel loved for the first time in years. Baby I don't care what you say I love you and I love this baby." He took a deep breath closing his eyes. "Please don't take that away from me." I reached my hand up to gently cup his cheek.
"Why would you want me?" I whispered. He opened his eyes to look at me. I could see him on the verge of tears.
"I want to be loved. I want you. I want this baby. I love you so much." He whispered holding me tight. "I don't know what I would do if I lost you." He hid his face. "I really don't know what I would do." I brought his face to mine tasting the salty tears on his lips. "I love you so much Ryan Banks."
"I love you too Tanner Daniel." I kissed him again. I picked up the testes looking at them.
"You know you might not be pregnant." He laid back on the bed looking at me.
"Yeah but the positive to negative ratio isn't really working in my favor as it's a 4 to 1. I will have to call my doctor to get checked and to take sure I am and blah and blah and blah." I sighed putting the tests on the nightstand before lying down next to him.
"I love you baby." He smiled pulling the blanket up around us. He leaned back on the pillows and looked at me.
"Tanner?" He opened one to look at me.
"What are we going to do if it's your baby?" He opened the other eye to look at me fully.
"What do you mean?" He asked pulling me to lie at his side.
"What am I going to do with my life? I'm 18." He kissed my head.
"We are going to get a nicer two bedroom apartment. You would come live with me so I can help you raise the baby. I would make sure you are safe and healthy while I'm away till I get home. You wouldn't have to worry about living cost and you would still get some money from me." I looked at him as he was off in his own little world. "You could be happy and safe here. I would make sure of it." His eyes started to drift shut as he still mumbled away to me. I smiled snuggling up to him letting sleep take over me.
"I love you." I whispered…….
I woke up lying on my stomach with a pounding headache. I looked at the other side of the bed to see a piece of paper taped to the pillow. I groaned leaning up pulling the not off.
Morning Baby,
I wish I could have woke up with you but I had to be on duty. I get off at noon so I will call you or you can call me whatever you want. Well I love you. I kissed your forehead before I left causing you to turn over, sorry about that. There is food in the frig. Okay talk to you later.
I love you,
I folded the note again and pushed it into my pocket. I got out of bed walking to the kitchen to find something sugary. I want it bad. I find some cinnamon toast crunch and took out some milk pouring myself a glass. I picked up my phone calling to make a doctor appointment with a gynecologist at the hospital, thankfully they could fit me in a couple of hours as it wasn't crowd and the person just canceled about 4 minutes ago. After that I poured myself another bowl of cereal before I dialed Emmy.
Emmy* Hello?
Me* Hey Em
I heard sheets ruffling as she got up.
Emmy* How did it go? What did they say.
Me* I had a 4 to 1. But I called the doctor and got a appointment.
Emmy*Cool when is it?
Me*it's at 11 and Tanner doesn't get off work till 12 so I was wondering if you could maybe come with me?
Emmy* Sure I will ask your brother if he could watch Asher but if not I could always bring him with us.
Me* Thank you Emmy.
Emmy*Your welcome, do you maybe want to go bet something to eat?
Me* Yeah I'm starved. Where are you?
Emmy* Your house.
Me* Okay you will be here in about 15 minutes than I want to change.
Emmy* Sure. See you soon.
Me* Bye.
I hung up the phone putting my bowl in the sink. I don't know I was still hungry. I walked into the bedroom pulling on one of Tanner's hoodies since I put mine in the wash. I grabbed my keys sending Tanner a text message before I locked the door walking out to wait for Emmy to come pick me up……….


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