TJ walked into the hospital room looking like he hasn't slept in
so long. He closed his eyes fighting the tears as he saw me lying
lifeless on the hospital bed. He sat down next to Audrey laying
his head on her shoulder. "Why won't she wake up Aurie?" He
whispered into her t-shirt. She stroked his shaved head.
"I don't know why TJ. The doctor said the only thing we can do is
wait. I hate this just as much as you do." She sighed kissing his
"I want my little sister back. Not hanging on the boarder of life
and death. My heart hurts." He cried into his girlfriends
shoulder. Audrey held him close to her.
"Shh it's going to be okay TJ. She is fighter. She will get
through this." She said as a tear rolled down her face. "I know
she is going to get over this TJ. Oh god I hope so." TJ held her
tighter to himself. He looked over at me as I lay there.
"Audrey, something's wrong." She looked up.
"TJ nothing's wrong." She said putting her hand on his cheek. He
wouldn't take his eyes off me.
"Audrey something is wrong get the doctor." He got up quickly.
"TJ nothing is-" He cut her off.
"Just get the doctor!" He snapped at her putting his hand over my
cheek looking at the ventilator that was helping me breathe. "I
know something is wrong." He looked over at her. "Please." He
begged. She nodded running out of the room. "Ryan please, please
be okay."He stroked my hair gently. Audrey came back into the
room with the doctor on her tail.
"What's the problem here?" He asked looking at my heart monitor.
"I just have this bad feeling in the pit of my stomach that is
telling me that something is wrong with her." TJ said looking at
him than back at me.
"Kid nothing is wrong with her…." He trailed off looking at my
heart monitor again.
"Why is dropping?" Audrey asked in an unsure voice. The doctor
looked at her quickly.
"I don't know." He said quickly. "Nurse I need a crash cart!" He
yelled out the door. TJ watched as my heart rate started to drop
"Ryan? Ryan! Ryan!" TJ yelled as I started to flat line. "Please
Ryan, please." He cried to me as Audrey held him back as best she
could as the nurses ran in. "Ry please don't leave me! PLEASE!"
He screamed. The doctor took the paddles out and rubbed them
together as the nurse switched the machine ventilator to the
"Clear." The doctor called out making all the nurses let go as
the doctor put one of the paddles over my heart and the other
under my breast. My chest pushed up as the volts went through me.
A nurse put her hand on my neck checking my pulse as another
nurse pumped air into my lungs.
"Nothing." She said pulling her hand back. The machine was still
flat lining. TJ watched in horror holding Audrey as she cried.
"Come on Ryan please." He whispered watching them shock me again.
"Please Sis; I need you here with me. I need my baby sister." He
closed his eyes as the tears over flew his eyes. The doctor
looked at TJ.
"Kid last sock before we lose her and this baby." Dad ran into
the room watching in horror. The doctor looked at Dad before back
at me. "One last time. Clear." The nurses jumped back as the
shock went into my body. TJ broke down crying as the beeping
filled the room. "We got a heartbeat." The doctor smiled shaking
"That's good right?" Audrey asked in a small voice. He looked at
her as they hooked me back up to the ventilator.
"Yes. It's good. I hate to say this but we really don't what's
wrong. They best can do is see if the baby is okay. If she
doesn't wake up the best we can do is to save the baby and make
sure it's okay." The doctor looked at a nurse. "Get me a fetal
heart monitor from upstairs please. Get it fast." The nurse
nodded walking out of the room.
"She isn't going to wake up is she?" TJ asked wiping his tears
roughly. The doctor looked at him.
"There is a chance that she won't ever wake up, and there is
chance that she will wake up in an hour and be happy. But chances
aren't anything. Actions are. Right now. It's up to Ryan, on if
she really wants to wants to wake up." TJ nodded biting his lip
as he looked at Dad. Mom was tucked under Dad's arms crying into
his chest quietly.
"My sister might never wake up again?" He asked the doctor
closing his eyes.
"I'm sorry Son." The doctor said as the nurse brought in a fetal
heart monitor. The doctor nodded at her before taking it to hook
up to my slightly bigger belly.
"Doc what's going to happen to the baby?" Mom asked looking at
me. The doctor looked at the machine than my mom.
"If we get a heart that's good. If he don't that's not good. It's
really all I could say really right now." He pulled up the gown
and put the sensor on my belly. Everyone waited silently for the
heart beat of the little baby. "There is a chance that its heart
won't beat because of the shocks. There is no sure thing on if he
or she is going to live. The shocks could have gone to the baby
and they could have stopped its heart." He said putting a little
bit of gel on the sensor as Mom stared at him in horror.
"My Baby could be dead and so could her baby? I could lose both
of them?" She asked breaking down crying.
"There is only one way to figure that out." He said putting the
sensor on my belly moving it around. TJ stared at the bump almost
shaking waiting and hoping for the one sound. He closed his eyes
as the tears fell down his face. Mom broke down as the sound of a
heartbeat filled the room………