"What kind of news Dad?" I asked him sitting up. He took a deep
breath as Asher started to cry loudly.
"TJ, why don't you take Asher outside to calm him down? I promise
I will tell you later." TJ stood up and nodded. He kissed my
forehead before taking Asher out of the hospital. Dad came and
sat down next to me.
"Baby I got a call a little while again from your brother." I
looked at him pulling the blankets closer to me.
"But TJ just left….." I said confused. He put his hand over mine.
"Not TJ honey. I got a call from Hunter." I put my hand over my
"Is, is he okay?" I whispered trying to calm down. Dad smiled
"He's a-okay Baby." Dad gently pushed a piece of hair behind my
"Than what's wrong?" He took a deep breath.
"Ryan its Tanner." My heart quickened at just the sound of his
name. I swallowed not knowing if it was going to be bad news or
good news, or if I even was going to like it. I looked at Dad as
tears started to well up in my eyes.
"What about Tanner?" I whispered subconsciously putting my hand
back on my bump.
"Tanner's alive." I felt a sob of relief escape my mouth at just
those words. He was safe. He had to be. I knew he was alive. I
had to. My babies needed a Daddy. There perfect Daddy, just what
Tanner is. He will be great with them I know it. Our Baby girl
will have him wrapped around her fingers the minute she is born.
"Baby you need to look at me." I looked at Dad slowly. He still
had no emotion on his face.
"What's wrong Dad?" I asked him quietly. He closed his eyes.
"Sweetheart Tanner was shot." I closed my eyes in horror, not
wanting to show it to him. Not wanting to seem weak in my
"He was shot?" I whispered fighting, and failing, at controlling
the tears rolling down my rosy red cheeks. Dad nodded.
"I'm so sorry baby." Dad whispered kissing my hand which he held
"Is he, is he okay?" I whispered. Dad smiled.
"Hunter said they should be leaving to go home soon and get here
on Thursday." I looked at him sadly.
"And today is Monday." I sighed. He looked at me.
"It will come fast. I promise." He smiled standing up to kiss my
head as I felt my eyelids drooping down. "Get some sleep. You
need it baby. Take care of my grandbabies for me." He whispered
pulling the top blanket up as I turned on my side to get comfy.
"Everything will be okay." He nodded whispering. "I'm sure of
it." I felt my body slowly shut down as I fell into a well needed
I woke as the hospital phone started to ring next to my head. I
groaned leaning over to pick it up.
My eyes widen as every ounce of sleep left my body. I closed my
eyes as the tears welled up in them.
Me*Tanner, oh god.
Tanner* Hey Baby, I need to hear your voice.
Me* I miss you
Tanner* I miss you Ryan. So much.
Me* I want you home.
Tanner* I want to be home. Only two more days. I need to see your
beautiful face again.
Me* I love you.
Tanner* I love you too.
I burst into tears holding the phone to my face.
Me* I thought you were dead.
Tanner* I'm so sorry baby.
Me*I was so scared. I can't raise these babies alone.
Tanner*Babies? Ryan what did I miss?
Me* I'm having twins Tanner. Twins. Like me and TJ.
Tanner* Oh my god, Twins.
Me* I know
Tanner* I, I don't even know what to say Ry.
Me* How about you love me?
Tanner*Ryan I love you more than life itself. You and those
babies, you mean the world to me.
Me* I almost lost my world.
Tanner*I thought I was never going to see you again. I thought I
wasn't going to say I love you to you every again.
Me*I thought I lost you. I thought you would never have seen our
baby ever again. Then I fought out it was twins. I can't raise
twins alone. Tanner don't leave me.
Tanner* I would never, I could never.
I heard his voice brake at the end. It's as if I could hear the
tear rolling down his face landing on his hand as he sat in the
dark room were ever he was. He sat with a phone in his hand as
the silent tears would roll mindlessly down his face.
Me*I never want you to do it.
Tanner* Ryan I love you more than everything in this world. I
love you Ry. I am going to be coming home. To you. If I had to I
would leave the Corps for you.
Me* You wouldn't.
Tanner* Of course I would. You mean more to me than that.
Me* No, no, no Tanner the Corps is first. I'm second. That's how
I want it to be.
Tanner*But Ry don't you…..
Me*Do you really want to drop out of the Corp?
Tanner*No but if I had to….
Me* Tanner you could never drop out of this, you can never leave
your whole family. Every marine there is your family. My brother
is your brother. The guy 3 bunks away is your brother. I'm just
your girlfriend. Babe, I could never ask you to leave the Corps
for me. I just couldn't. I grew up on a marine base and that's
how I want it for my babies.
Tanner* Ryan your more than just my girlfriend. You're the love
of my life. But you're right I do love my job, so much. I, I
don't know if I could leave it but I do know if I had to do it
for you or our babies I would.
Me* Don't talk like that okay, I don't really want to talk about
I laid on my side pulling the covers tightly to my body. I heard
noise in the background before I heard Tanner sigh.
Me* You got to go?
Tanner* The flight is leaving soon. It just means that I will get
to come home sooner. I love you Ry-Ry.
Me* I love you too Tan-Can.
I heard him chuckle.
Me* Stay safe my Marine.
Tanner* Yes Ma'am.
I heard the phone click as Tanner hung up. I tried to hold back
the tears but was failing miserably. I pulled my head under the
blankets and cried. I cried with relief that Tanner was safe. I
cried in fear, that I hurt my babies. I cried because I missed my
boyfriend. I cried because I was pregnant and I was full of
hormones. I cried because I just really needed to get it out.
Soon enough I cried myself to sleep………