I took a deep breath as I sat up in the hospital bed. I was
nervous. Nervous didn't even cut it; I was almost shitting
bricks, as Noah would say. I had to leave to go pick up Tanner at
9.30, because he gets in at 10. Right now it was about 6.00. The
only reason I'm even up right now is one, the nerves are kill me,
and two, they babies are kicking me to no end. I was restless. I
wanted to go back to sleep but every time I try to fall asleep
one of them would kick me waking me up. A nurse came in as I was
about to get up to go to the bathroom. "Are you okay Sweetheart?"
She asked me putting a hand on my shoulder. I looked down rubbing
the sore part of my bump.
"They don't want to quiet down. I just want to go back to sleep."
I said looking at the nurse. She nodded.
"Let me go talk to your doctor to see if we can give you
anything." She said walking out after I nodded silently. I closed
my eyes taking a deep calming breath. I opened up my eyes again
slowly getting up to go to the bathroom. When I got back the
doctor was in the room. He looked up from my chart and smiled at
"How are you felling Ryan?" He asked writing something down. I
shrugged sitting back down on the bed.
"I am tired I admit that but I am nervous so they babies are
kicking up a storm. I swear they are kickboxing each other." I
sighed lying back on the bed.
"It doesn't surprise me that they are kicking like that. Your
nerves are getting to them so they are let's say taking your mind
off of it." He smiled. "I can give you something to relax
yourself a little. It will calm your nerves as well as the
babies." He nodded. I nodded closing my eyes.
"You are going to let me leave so I can go pick up my brother and
my boyfriend right?" He looked at me.
"Let you out or discharge you?" He folded his arms. I sighed.
"Discharge me. I hate hospitals. I want to get out of here. I
thought my boyfriend was dead. I thought I was never going to see
him. All I want to do is spend time with him. Please just let me
go home. That's all I want to do." The doctor sighed.
"You know I was a marine once. Deployments, they killed. I left
wife time after time. I don't know how I did it, or even why. I
still don't know how I did it. I remember being young and stupid.
I am no matter how hard I tried it never easier. My marriage
started to fall down the tubes. I cared for her so much that I
took this job. I miss moving around helping wounded soldiers, but
I wouldn't be happy if I didn't have her. Now our marriage is
back. I don't work 9-5 like people think I do but it's worth it.
Seeing you, here, pregnant with a wounded marine baby makes me
feel like I am helping someone who really needs it. I might not
being that marine, saving him. But I'm saving his heart just like
I wish someone could have done for me." He saw the tears forming
in his eyes.
"Why do you say that, Doc?" I watched him sit down on the chair
across from my bed.
"My wife died in child born. She gave me my son, but she lost in
the progresses. I can't forgive myself for not spending time with
her before this all happened. I, I don't want you to make the
same mistake that I did. I lost my soul mate and now I'm raising
my 6 year old on my own. I just wish he had a Mom." He took a
slow deep calming breath. I looked at him before I rubbed my
belly, which thank god had calmed down. I can't believe this. How
could go through that, and still be around death. I looked at the
doctor again. He looked at me. "I am going to discharge you but
you are going to take it easy. I am not letting your marine feel
like what I did. You need to think about your babies. I don't
want you to be hurt Kid. You remind me of my wife in so many
ways. You don't have long left in your pregnancy but these
months. Only 4 months left but these are crucial for the babies.
They need to stay inside you for as long as possible." I nodded
"I don't want to hurt my babies." I whispered. He smiled.
"I know that and that's why I am trusting you to be safe and to
be on bed rest. Don't do anything, no lifting, maybe a little bit
of cooking but you're going to want take out trust me." He smiled
before his face went serious again. "Don't hurt your babies.
You're the only that can protect them from the world right now.
It will get better sooner or later. But right now focus on the
present. Care about your babies and for you. Do you promise that
you will take care of you and your babies if I let you go?"
"I promise." I nodded. He looked at me and sighed.
"Okay let me get you something to relax you and I guess I will
need to get you some discharge papers." He got up and walked to
"Doc?" He looked at me. "I'm sorry about your Wife." He smiled.
"Don't be. I know she was happy. That's what I think." He gave me
a nod before he left. I slipped under the blankets of the semi
hard bed. I closed my eyes thinking of everything the doctor
said. What would I do if that happened to me? I don't think I
could raise both my babies alone without Tanner's support, mental