I had an oxygen mask over my nose and mouth as I took deep
breaths. Tanner sat at my side in a wife beater and his uniform
pants holding my hand and not letting go, even when I crushed his
hand when I had a strong contraction. Dr. Fisher walked into the
room rubbing his eyes. "Did we wake you up Dr. Fish?" Tanner
asked rubbing my hand.
"No worries. You can't control when you go into labor." He smiled
at us as I closed my eyes whimpering in pain. I pulled my mask
down to look at him.
"What about your son?" I whispered tired. He picked up my chart.
"My neighbor is watching him for me. She was going to take him to
school tomorrow if I don't get home." He said putting the chart
down. I looked at him as Tanner gently put the mask back on top
of my mouth and nose. "So let me check to see how far along you
are Ryan. Now I know this is going to hurt so please just bare
with me here." I closed my eyes as Dr. Fish put his rubber glove
on and put his hand under the blanket. I whimpered in pain and
clutched onto Tanner's hand.
"Everything is going to be okay Ryan. He is almost done
sweetheart." He pressed his lips to my head as the tears rolled
down my face.
"Okay sweetheart it looks like you are about 8 centimeters
dilated right now which is a good thing if you want to have the
babies soon. You need to be 10 centimeter to give birth so you
are almost there." He took his glove off as he hooked the twins
up to a heart monitor. I was so tired. My eyes were drooping as
Tanner watched the heart rates on both screens. "Ryan you need to
look at me." I opened my tired eyes to look at him. Tanner gently
rubbed my arm.
"You okay baby?" He whispered. I nodded my head slowly looking
back at the doctor.
"You get some sleep now because I promise you you are going to
need it if you want to deliver these babies vaginally. Most twins
these days are born through c-section because it is safer on the
mother and the babies. But for you it would be better if you
delivered the babies by yourself because your body is weaker and
it will be a longer recovery. You Ryan, you're young. You would
heal from your c-section, but you might never get to deliver a
baby by yourself and that wouldn't be fair for you. I can promise
you if nothing goes wrong we will not have to c-section these
little guys, but if I see anything wrong. I mean anything even
the littlest thing I am getting them out as fast as I can." I
nodded my head as Tanner gently stroked my hair to comfort me.
"So how long do you think she has left? I hate to see her is so
much pain…" He sighed trailing off. Dr. Fisher looked at him.
"Well I can't tell you how long because it always changes. It can
be six hours or it could be about 1 hour. It really depends on
how long it takes for the first baby to drop into the birth canal
more. So all we can really do is wait and see. But if they babies
get to tired to really move any more we are going to have to take
them out but if it all goes as planned nothing like that should
happen." The doctor nodded. Tanner sighed again rubbing his face
as he looked at me fast asleep next to him. I flinched in pain as
another contraction rocked through my body. Tanner looked back at
"Isn't there anything you can do for some of the pain? I hate to
see her like this. It makes me feel so helpless. I already feel
helpless but now, but now I feel like I don't even know I'm just
so helpless now." He sighed. The doctor put his hand on Tanner's
"I know that feeling. I'm had it before. All you can do is stick
by her side no matter what okay? Stay even if she is the biggest
bitch in the world." Tanner smiled at him.
"I could never leave her anymore than I have to. She is my
everything." The doctor smiled. "Let me get her a shot for some
of the pain and go on from there." He nodded walking out leaving
the room and Tanner to his thoughts……..
I woke up to the sharpest pain we had so far making me scream
bloody murder. Tanner jolted up in his chair as the doctor came
sprinting into the room. I tried to take deep breathes but I
couldn't stop crying. I was in so much pain. The doctor checked
everything before putting on another pair of rubber gloves. He
checked me under the blanket again and smiled. "Well it looks
like you are full dilated and ready to push those babies out." He
smiled calling in some nurses.
"Is my mom here?" I asked in a weak voice. Tanner nodded.
"She's right here." He said as she walked in.
"Everyone's here baby, we are all waiting for the two perfect
babies to be here." She smiled kissing my head. The nurses got me
ready to deliver preparing everything and lifting my legs up as
Dr. Fisher got dressed in sterile scrubs.
"Okay Ryan you ready to push sweetheart. I want you to take a
deep breath and hold it. On 3 I need you to push." He said
getting ready to take the baby out. "Okay Ry, deep breath.
1…2….3… push!" I pushed as hard as I could till I was gasping for
breath in the oxygen mask.
"You can do this Ryan." Tanner smiled from where he was holding
my leg. "I know you can baby."
"You're doing good Ryan. I need another big push like that again.
Okay, 1…2…3 push!" I pushed again hard till I felt an extreme
pain. "Okay Ryan I can see the head I need you to push again so
it doesn't he doesn't go back up. Come on Ry, deep breath. 1…2…3
push!" I screamed as I pushed again feeling the pain again.
"Ry I can see its shoulders." Tanner gushed at me. He had tears
in his eyes. I took another deep breath closing my eyes.
"Okay Ryan one last hard push and he should be out Sweetheart."
Dr. Fisher said. "1…2…3 push!" I pushed hard making me scream in
"He's out Ryan. Congratulations Ryan it's a baby boy." He smiled
clearing my baby's airway. I heard his piercing scream making me
smile. Suddenly I felt lightheaded. The doctor looked up as my
heart monitor started to beep.
"Ryan…Ryan look at me." I gave him one last look before I felt
the blackness take over me to sound of my baby's screams of