I opened my eyes slowly as they were still heavy with sleep. I
reached up to try to rub the urge to sleep away from my eyes but
I felt a pulling than a stinging. I looked down to see the IV in
the crook of my elbow. I looked down at my hands in confusion. On
the back of my hand was a red tube connected to my skin. I looked
at my semi flat belly in panic. What happened to my babies? All I
remember was having Wyatt and him crying. Than all I remember was
horrible pain than nothing. I looked around the familiar yet
unfamiliar room. My heart was racing till I saw Tanner fast
asleep on the couch next to my bed. I heard footsteps till I saw
a nurse walk into the room. She smiled at me. "Hi sweetheart, how
are you feeling?" She asked walking over to my bedside.
"I, I don't know. My lower body hurts. But where are my babies?"
The nurse nodded.
"Let me get you some more pain meds and call your doctor to tell
him you're up." She walked out of the room. Tanner stirred from
his sleep moaning in pain. I watched him as he sat up on the
uncomfortable couch. He rubbed his eyes looking around the room
as I watched him. He locked eyes with me and smiled.
"Hey." He said moving over to sit on the side of my bed.
"Hey." I whispered looking up at him.
"How are you feeling beautiful?" He asked lifting his hand to
stroke it down my face gently.
"I'm confused. What is going on? Where are my babies?" I asked
trying to get up only to be pushed down by Tanner.
"The babies are okay baby. Wyatt is in the nursery, hopefully
sleeping, and Bailey is in the NICU getting checked out. Doctor
Fisher said that he will tell us when he finds out what is wrong
with her." He pressed his lips to my forehead.
"Why, why do I hurt down there?" I asked closing my eyes looking
away embarrassed. I felt his hand pulling my face gently to look
"It's okay baby. You had to get surgery because you tore your
birth canal. But the doctor said you should be okay soon." I
nodded closing my eyes. "Come on look at me." I opened my eyes to
look at him. "What's wrong?" I felt tears forming in my eyes.
"Are you in pain?" I didn't have time to respond before the nurse
came in and gave me a shot of pain meds. She smiled patting my
good hand before leaving again. Tanner cupped my cheek.
"I'm sorry." I whispered. I watched the confusing forming in his
"What talking about? What are you sorry for? You did nothing
wrong." He pressed his lips to mine.
"I did. I, I, I didn't take care of my babies." I sniffled. "I
hurt my babies. I shouldn't have got pregnant. I'm a
disappointment." Tanner grabbed my face.
"Don't you dare say that. Ryan I could never be more proud to say
that I going to marry you, the mother of my two beautiful
children. I love you so much. I love you so much that sometimes I
wonder how I could love someone so much, but then I just look at
you and I know why I love you so much. I don't know how I could
live with you anymore. You're my everything. I couldn't fight
through the day anymore before I met you. I had no one to care
for of give my love to. I had my job, I barely talked to my
sister anymore. I was so alone, even when I had about 20 guys
around me that I called my brothers. But I came home. It
Christmas eve. This pin head best friend of mine said that he
needed me to drop off something for him at his house the next
day. I will never be able to thank him. He saved me. He let me
meet you." The tears rolled down his face. I lifted my good hand
to gently wipe the tears away. "You made me see that there was a
reason that I got up every day. I lost hope if people, that I was
ever going to be happy but you. You made me see that someone
could really be worth living. When you told me you thought you
were pregnant, I was ashamed at myself."
"But you.." I looked at him confused. "You were ashamed at
yourself?" I swallowed nervously.
"I was ashamed because you were so scared and I couldn't have
been happier. It meant you were always going to be in my life, I
was always going to have a piece of you in my life." He smiled as
the tears rolled down his face. "I was so happy." He whispered. I
pressed my lips to his. "I still am. I never thought I could love
you more but when I held my son, who you needed after my brother.
Ryan I don't have words to how I am feeling here. He looks like
him. Wyatt he looks him. I love you Ryan. I love you so much." I
looked at him as he closed his eyes trying to stop his crying.
"I love you too Tanner. I can't be happier to have my babies with
you." I smiled at him. He kissed me again.
"When children isn't that what got you into this mess?" I heard
from the door way. I looked over to see a Doctor Fisher standing
in the doorway with a rolling crib.
"Yes, but you know what they say. Practice makes perfect." Tanner
smiled moving back to the couch wiping his eyes.
"Well you must have had a lot of practice, because these babies
are perfect." He smiled rolling the crib in to the room. "Know
Ryan, would you like to meet your daughter?" He asked smirking at
me picking up the pink bundle from inside the crib………